you broke the best parts of me

Sometimes I wish I didn’t feel anything at all

She can soulfully admit that she has never let a man hurt her, that she has always and will always be her own woman, but deep down inside, a man has shaken her to her core and sometimes, she doubts her own will to be 

His touch gave me a million reasons why I should stay, but the only words I heard were telling me to leave 

Maybe if I close my eyes, we can exist in my mind for a little longer. 

It’s the little things that make me remember how much I love you, we’ve been through hell and back but you’ve always been by my side. You remember all the little things I’ve told you and I always find ways to tell you more things you’ve never known. And yet, a part of me still feels empty even when you’re right next to me.

What does it mean when you used to write paragraphs about the person you loved but now you can barely write a sentence to them

I just wanted to be enough for you the first time, I never wanted a second.

No one ever writes about the things you’re supposed to someone who has hurt you terribly, realized what they’ve done wrong and betters themself in order to get you back. They continue to love you, despite everything, but you, you have been hurt so much that you’re not quite sure what to do. You’re numbed by your emotions and to think that you used to love so fiercely. But now all that is left is someone who struggles to say the simplest words, the simplest ‘I love you’ because it instills too much hope.

What am I supposed to do when you don’t feel like my soulmate anymore?

Women are so attracted to people who are broken, we want to mend everything and anything we can because we know that no one deserves to feel that way. The only thing we can never mend is ourselves.

I just want to exist at the same time as you.

I just want to wake up next to you in the morning. I want to be able to brush your hair back from your cheek and feel you breathing against my neck. I want your arms around me, to comfort me and yourself.

You are so fucking beautiful and I hold all of you in my hands. You are mine, my love, but oh god I am so afraid of you slipping away. Please don’t get tired of me.

Please tell me you love me, those words are the only the only thing keeping me here