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You looked at the spiral, and instantly, you couldn’t look away. “You’re just watching TV with a friend… Some really interesting TV. You should keep watching. Stare at the screen, silly. Is it working?” It was. You felt yourself relaxing, unable to resist the urge.

“Stare, and feel your brain slowing down. Becoming more agreeable. There you go. Doesn’t that feel better?” You nodded your head slightly, and you heard them laugh triumphantly. “Just giving in, rather than being confused, asking all those silly questions.”

Any questions you were going to ask had faded from your mind by now. “Just stare. Just sink. I saw your search history the other day.” Your brain didn’t question that. “I knew I could take advantage of it. You know what the spiral is doing to your brain.”

You were helpless to resist. The spiral was sucking your thoughts away. “I can see the effect my words are having. I’ve known you’ve had a crush on me for a while.” That was true. “Today, I’m going to help you realise all the things that crush will make you do for me.”

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They smiled, peering down at you, as you stared mindlessly up at them, from your knees. “And now you’re here… there’s nowhere else you’d rather be, is there? I make everything feel right. I make everything feel good. You just get to absorb my presence. My control.”

Their hand brushed against your cheek, as they leant down, peering deep into your glassy eyes. “So yeah, feel free to stay down there as long as you want. You’ll only sink deeper. You’ll only get more hooked on my power.” They stood back up. Your cheek missed their touch.

“Although… I do want that. I want you hooked. I want you desperate for me. I want you to feel small pangs of discontentment when we’re apart. Not enough to affect your regular life. But reminders. Calling you back to me. Calling you back where you belong.”

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• Sleep can function as mental bondage. If you're asleep and can't be easily woken, you're completely helpless and vulnerable. If you're sufficiently drowsy and out of it, you're still basically helpless, but with the added bonus of potentially being somewhat aware of what's happening.

• The many ways to be forced to sleep -- surgical drugs, chloroform rags, hypnosis, sleeping spells and potions, tranquilizer darts, hidden sedatives in food or drink...

• The onset of sleep can be quick, barely giving you time to react before you're out, or so gradual you won't even realize what's happening until it's too late (and everything in-between).

• Uncertainty -- being put to sleep against your will, not knowing what will happen to you while you're defenseless. Being carried away as you fall asleep, not knowing where you'll be when you wake.

• The fight to stay awake, because it feels like something you should be able to fight, to overcome with enough willpower, but...

• The inevitability of being put to sleep. You might not feel the effects of the drugs or magic right now, you might feel wide awake, but sleep will be coming for you.

• Heavy eyelids fluttering and straining to stay open, drooping and closing all by themselves.

• Confusion and disorientation as the drowsiness sets in.

• Floating in and out of consciousness, perhaps just able to hear people discuss you or feel them handling you.

• Deep hypnotic sleep where your conscious mind is shut down and your subconscious is utterly vulnerable to suggestion.

• Glassy, dazed eyes with nothing behind them -- your eyes might still be open, but you're still fast asleep.

• Sleepwalking, wandering around in a trance, unaware of your surroundings -- or perhaps your sleeping mind is following someone else's commands...

Links to a bunch of the stuff I've made/written in one handy post! Will be updated as I do more stuff!

BTV STUFF:

BLISSFUL THEATER: Ever wanted to visit a cinema where a giant spiral plays on the screen, hypnotizing everyone including you? This one is for you! Video version Gif version

BLISSFUL TV: BTV are now broadcasting their signal into homes! Your TV signal has been interrupted. You'd get up and turn it off, but suddenly you're much too weary to move...

Video version Gif version Alternate version

BTV ON-DEMAND: BTV is available on computers now! Suckering in people with a social media challenge. Win a prize... if you can remember anything...

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INVESTIGATING BTV: A story written in second person where you work for an agency investigating the nefarious actions of BTV, and try to infiltrate their base. I made an effort to keep the stuff involving the protagonist as gender-neutral as I could, so hopefully everyone can enjoy this one. PART 1 PART 2 PART 3

IN-FLIGHT MOVIE: BTV now provides for flights. Helpful for long hauls where you'd rather just sleep all the way to your destination!

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CONFERENCE SPEECH: These things are actually quite boring, so don't worry - I won't take offence if you find yourself nodding off...

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HUBRIS: A BTV employee catches out an agent investigating BTV in her own home, with some unexpected results...

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OTHER STUFF:

ADVENTURES OF A DOOR-TO-DOOR POCKETWATCH SALESMAN: Does what it says on the tin. A collaboration with the talented and lovely @pocket-watcher!

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DON'T LOOK AT THE SPIRAL: Whatever you do, don't click the link and look at it!

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THE GRAND PRIZE: Competing on a game show, the chance to bring the win to your team... what could the last word be?

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HYPNO-EXPOSÉ: A reporter is begrudgingly assigned to cover a stage hypnosis show, and plans on exposing him as a fraud.

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MARCH OF THE HYPNO-KINKSTERS: A diary of missives from an organised march celebrating all that is hypno, with often silly results.

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STAGE PRESENCE: You and your partner go to experience a very special stage hypnosis show. Again, tried to keep the stuff with you/partner gender neutral.

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WAIT TIL YOU HEAR THE B-SIDE: You've been on a lovely date with a record collector. They take you home to listen to some special cuts from their collection...

With Yugi: They are both dom but their chemistry in bed comes really naturally. They are super cute and take care of each other. It might be with Yugi that Ryou may be relaxing the most and let himself be leaded. They also kiss non stop.

With Thief King Bakura: TKB is a bottom pretending to be a top (also because he doesn't think he can allow themselves to be cared for). It doesn't take long for Ryou to break his wall and he is making sure to spoil his thief with attention and love. (But he loves to be held by TKB so he can appreciate the thief's buff body.)

With Yami Marik: They both get unhinged together and try freaky stuff on each other. Ryou has a lot of fun. He also enjoys praising Yamima and getting cute reactions out of the blond.

With Marik: Most vanilla stuff ever. Marik wouldn't put his ego trip on Ryou, and Ryou knows he would scare Marik with his fantasies. They are just very cute and caring with each other.

With Yami Bakura: Ryou has him on a leash. He is rought with YB, very dominant, but always with a sweet tone that get YB almost scared about what Ryou will do to him if he doesn't obey. (And honestly, YB isn't sure there's a difference between the rewards and the punitions he can get.) While Ryou let all his most morbid pulsion out (it's what you get for messing with this boy's brain for years and making him obsessed with you), he is always making sure YB feels safe doing so. They have a safe word if things become too much.

but I'm hearing there's a NSFW-friendly ko-fi alternative built on atproto that's actively in the works, and being vetted by lawyers right now. as torrent-princess (OP) says, you should be able to swap out payment processors while keeping your account intact. this matters since even if stripe removes support, you'll still have a shop and all of your links intact. (ATproto is an infrastructure that bsky is built on, but is far bigger than bsky with far more opportunities.)

additionally, the Free Speech Coalition is working on a credit union specifically for adult work (including kink art) - here's the link so you can add your interest & support. Since this will be built by sex workers, there'll be far less risk of being debanked for spurious and puritanical reasons.

on a domain TLD level, there's an initiative here for a .furry domain built from the ground up by seasoned furries; it's unclear whether they'll support NSFW, but it's yet another promising turn of events for a group that's been similarly affected by censorship.