HappyMonk

you buy me an acai bowl

we go to the beach

thank you so much for loving me (crying)

i so appreciate everything youve done for me

the laotian boy w/ hiv says to me the love who moved to the u.s. to be w. me

mankind exchanged a kind of delicate and deep soft and gentle yearning

he said to me suggestions to be kind to remember to inquire if they are hungry to not give too much to save some for those who might need help in the future to cross my t's and dot my i's to call that person back to be stern when needed to circle back to inquire unasked to complete the promised task and to always always aspire to goodness

i used to go daily when my partner wasn't working we would go and watch the sunset

we even at one point got tired of it 'the sunset again, today?' we would say to each other

i haven't been in a while even though it is high summer and the time to get wet laugh and play in the water

today i went and watched the sunset and just

My husband gave it to me he died in the 90s it was horrible

life is suffering to counter act the notion that life is pleasure

and it is suffering even the happiest most pleased among us

in spite of our exhilarations of glee moans of ecstasy are going to die

but what is it that is life? life is an attempt to try in spite of dying one super heroic arrow shot for our one true love, because the light is worth it

for the love of altered frequencies

we gather to let our souls listen and be moved by the music

it brings us bliss, community and a super subtle sweet away from here appreciation of silence

it lets us unloosen relax and sigh for the love of altered frequencies

Nimble can dodge super swiftly and uniquely in a matter so cute and sweet and serene cascading rainbows and light in pure orbs of super nice love saturating moves that are both strong but light

can battle much stronger arrays of scenarios, chaos and foes

by cute sweet and swift legwork sidestepping big tail spins and big soft- when-needed sighs-of-letting-go

oh, he is going to try his hardest

he is going to let out his biggest cutest roar

letting his sincerest effort and love and trials be known

an in echo in the cosmos rippling out infinitely an invisible rainbow of his sincerest

well, this morning Liz turns to me and says 'Doug picked up 4 dead birds on the beach.' she explained how the water temperature is too warm and the fish that live in it have to dwell deeper and deeper and so the water birds can't get to them and so are starving and dying

I said oh my gosh, yes its a heatwave in the ocean

and Liz said, yes

Doug just sat there in reverie

well, I said, this morning I was reading that next year is going to be 'the Godzilla of El Ninos' and

Liz said, yes, I heard that too, it's the end of the world as we know it,' she said

Yes, I said, it is, but gestering out to the ocean, the shore in contrast with the sky, water, clouds, open air

and time, our time, the time we have to witness, bear, and live in

I work at an HIV Clinic It's the 45 year anniversary of the AIDS epidemic to commemorate it we hung up panels from the AIDS Quilt Project in our lobby, if you dont know the AIDS Quilt Project, are comprised of homemade quilts the exact size of coffins sewn w/ colorful fabrics, momentos of meaning, poems and pictures in honor and in memory of those who died from AIDS

when I went to see them for the first time in our lobby

one of our patients was solemnly taking it in she said If it wasn't for advancements in medicine, I'd be on one of these... me too I said to her

his name was Tah 'Daw"

27 y/o sick and hiding his sickness

until he could no longer hide it

we have to live for Tah

All Tah ever wanted was to love and be loved so we have to love for Tah Tah 27 y/o a victim to global injustice and unequal access to life saving medication HIV in thailand is running amok the carefree and unstigmatized sexual joy and love and liberation is mirrored by fear of HIV and unequal access to healthcare there is no help from the gov't people get sick know they have it and instead of asking for help for friends and family just disappear

For Tah we have to live for Tah we have to love For Tah