Feast of the Beast

I have no idea what is best. Maybe I'm seriously ill, maybe I really have something internal and beautiful. Maybe I can show her how to learn things unexplored, maybe she will teach me to be "less directed" by the functions of my psyche I never asked for. What if she loved me, but didn't know that she was enough because everything is too much in my playbook. Maybe she's shut down to the world, to keep from learning too much. Maybe she's insecure, and i take it all for granted on top of that. I just want to express everything. Maybe I want awkward talks so I can picture you then. So I can understand and love what made you, you. I'm so freakishly kinky, it's possible it's gross to you. It's possible, I'm just gross. You know when that feeling is there when someone is holding back. When someone wants you to only show a small piece of yourself. I don't want that for anyone...ever. Be all of you, share this mentality.