Rebecca's

Oh, so this is how the 26-year-old me look like💁🏻‍♀️ https://www.instagram.com/p/B3UpZgAniKONGzSoUiE8I_LKwxY5BUAYwKmfzM0/?igshid=1fnz4lbx3b28v

You went through a long, tough and lonely battle. Last week’s today, you took your last breath. . I’m glad you were born with the courage to do the things you love the whole of your life. You are the role model that is always not afraid to chase after your dreams despite judgement from others. . Your life was not in vain. You spent more than half of your life performing at old charity events, visiting old folks’ home and being a motivational speaker. It is unfortunate that the world has lost someone like you that always give back to the society and always bringing a smile to people with your talent. You said I’m an angel when you’re the real angel👼🏼 . Thank you for doting on me so much since my birth. I’m sorry that I failed as a niece, I didn’t do much for you. I’m sorry that I didn’t realise you were in the black dog’s situation and I should have done something to walk you out from it. I’m sorry. No tears could bring you back but now that you’re free of suffering, I’ll pray for your happiness wherever you are. . From now on, I will remember the faces of you since my birth until 3 years back instead of the last image of your suffering. You will always be remembered as a multitalented performer, singer, dancer, model, photographer, teacher and my amazing uncle. I will see you again in the next life. Thank you for everything, Xiaoshu. I love you, we love you❤️ https://www.instagram.com/p/B0GUUhgHlMIunNamVR09QL5beKv3e6TjKkZKlQ0/?igshid=52z2gv0644tb

I loved myself too much that I can’t love others anymore. I loved myself too much that I can’t be bothers to care others anymore. I loved myself too much that I just want to put everything down and leave. I loved myself too much that I want to end the pain in me. I loved myself.

I’m really tired. I just want to rest; my mind and body. Can’t I take a break from life and come back when I’m ready? Somebody said I’m selfish because I wanted to leave before my loved ones. Because leaving them behind means they will hurt more than me. But, can I just be selfish for once? I’ve never stopped thinking or watching out for others. But this time, I really just want to think for myself. I just want to leave everything behind. I just want to.

They did not say they don’t believe me but their actions show.