la joie de vivre

it’s been a while since i’ve been on tumblr. i even got a few of those “where have you been?” emails from tumblr because i hadn’t logged on for months. life got busy and there were just too many social media channels to keep up with. but here i am again because i have a lot of time and a lot of thoughts. i don’t even know who uses tumblr anymore, but i just wanted to ramble. --- it’s been a week and a half since i came back from korea. my time in korea was so sweet and so surreal. it really feels like a dream. i was there for three weeks with my mom and we spent a lot of time with family. i really enjoy hanging out with my aunts so it was a lot of fun. it was my first time going to korea in the spring and it was beautiful! the weather was perfect and there were flowers everywhere. unfortunately, my mom got owned by allergies so she probably won’t be visiting korea in the springtime again, but we did enjoy the pretty flowers. i am thankful that i was able to go on this trip with my mom. 

on this trip, i realized that i am a lot more connected to my korean heritage than i thought. i guess going to korea every summer in high school had a big influence on me. also, family is a huge part of my life and who i am.  --- i’m hoping/planning to move to socal this summer. hopefully sooner than later. it’s pretty surreal to me because it’s something that i’ve wanted for so long (basically since middle school aka since i first watched laguna beach) and i can’t believe it’s actually happening.

i’m excited to move (and be close to joe and my sister!), but not excited to deal with logistics... like buying a car and figuring out housing and career plans (to freelance or not to freelance... the neverending struggle in my mind). 

i think i am becoming better at dealing with change. so much happens and changes every few months. i’m learning more and more about how to let things go and just go with the flow. it’s tiring to overthink and worry. “change is the only constant we’ll ever know.” --- “sometimes i feel like i’m drowning and you’re there to save me and i want to thank you with all of my heart.”

hi tumblr,

it’s been a while. things got pretty busy these past few months and i decided to take a break from tumblr. 

i’ve been thinking a lot about my career and future. i’ve been working for almost two years now and i’m in this awkward “not fresh-out-of-college, but also not experienced enough” place. i never thought i’d be one to care about my career -- i figured i would just have a simple 9-5 job because my priorities were elsewhere. but i realized 9-5, 5 days a week is a huge chunk of your life. thankfully, i’ve found my way into a creative profession, but that also means my work becomes a lot more personal. i have a lot of uncertainty as i think about my next steps... mainly because i’m just not sure what i want at this stage of my life.

i started this post because i wanted to write about what my ideal job would look like. i think i’d like to freelance. i really want flexibility -- i want to be able to set my own schedule and i don’t want to be tied down to one location (or be stuck in an office 40+ hours a week!!). i think i want to run my own creative business, which would include graphic design and photography services. i would also want to sell stuff that i make, like cards, prints, candles, socks, pins, and ceramics. i’d LOVE to have my own studio and have access to a pottery studio and a darkroom (UGH. a girl can dream.). i think eventually it would be awesome to set up my own little shop where i can sell my stuff and curate a selection of goodies from other brands/artists that i like. i just want to make things and have people pay me to make things lol.