Scattered 'cross my family line , I'm so good at telling lies. That came from my mother's side , told a million to survive.

#sestrasoldatt is a private , mutuals only writing blog for marvel's rebecca barnes , rewritten to be heavily headcanon based. earth - 616 compliant , mcu critical. must be 20+ to interact. penned by jj.

I can run, but I can't hide , from my family line.

the   words   leave   a   bitter   taste   in   his   mouth,   an   echo   of   something   that   used   to   mean   comfort,   pride   —   even   warmth.    it   used   to   come   from   the   mouths   of   classmates,   friends,   even   steve   when   they   were   kids   and   james   was   the   one   standing   tall   in   every   fight.    but coming from her   —   his   little   sister   —   it   feels   like   a   punch   to   the   ribs.    something   he's   heard   plenty   of   times   before   the   army   made   a   man   out   of   him,   before   he   was   turned   him   into   something   else   entirely.   passed   around   from   mission   to   mission,   handler   to   handler.    no,   fear   was   erased   from   him,   not   overcome   —   it   was   torn   out,   piece   by   piece,   along   with   everything   else   that   made   him   the   bucky   barnes   she   knew.    “    yeah...   —   i   used   to   think   that   too.    ”  steel-blue   eyes   flick   to   hers,   a   ghost   of   a   grin   tugging   at   the   corner   of   his   mouth   —   soft, sad, gone too fast.    he   shifts   gaze   to   the   metal   hand   at   his   side,   the   weight   of   it   feels   heavier   all   of   a   sudden.    colder   somehow.    “    remember   how   you   used to be   afraid   of   the   dark? when you were a kid.    ”

Her  whole  life  she  had  always  seen  Bucky  as  this  unmovable  strength.   Something  that  stood  between  the  people  he  cared  about  ,  and  whatever  might  try  and  hurt  them.   She  watched  him  growing  up  ,  carrying  that  role  like  some  important  tie  to  who  he  was  as  a  person.         (  the  first  time  seeing  it  change  in  any  way  being  when  he  shipped  off.  )   Like  so  many  other  men  ,  feeling  that  real  fear  while  trying  so  hard  to  push  it  down  to  where  it  couldn't  be  felt.   Couldn't  be  a  problem.   All  for  the  people  they  cared  about.   What  she  would  give  to  go  back  to  a  time  when  there  was  nothing  to  fear  except  a  sizeable  spider  ,  or  the  storm  when  it  seemed  to  become  just  violent  enough.   Blue  matching  eyes  catch  his  ,  and  before  she  could  manage  her  own  smile  ,  his  was  already  gone.   Forever  out  of  sync.   Forever  divided  by  time  battering  each  of  them  down.   Brows  furrowed  ,  worry  there  on  her  features  until  recalling  their  childhood  is  called  to  her  attention.   There's  a  sheepish  smile  there  as  her  head  dips.         (  hiding  her  features  in  a  bashful  way  that's  always  been  her  signature  move.  )   A  nod  follows  ,  as  well  as  a  longer  lasting  smile.   Thinking  about  the  moment  in  time  like  it  was  a  distant  dream.   Because  it  may  as  well  have  been.   ❝  Yeah  ,  yeah  I  remember.  ❞   The  smile  lingers  in  her  voice  ,  before  subtly  fading  away  as  she  continued  speaking.   ❝  I  was  so  sure  some  big  bad  monster  was  gonna  come  creepin  out  of  the  dark  t'get  me.   I  never  let  Ma  or  Pa  hear  the  end  of  it.  ❞

BECCA & BUTCHER

2×04 Nothing Like It in the World

『  SCRATCH.  』   for  my  muse  to  scratch  along  your  muses  bare  back.

『  FREEZE.  』   for  my  muse  to  trail  an  ice  cube  along  your  muses  skin.

『  SILK.  』   for  my  muse  to  bind  your  muse  with  silk  ties.

『  BLIND.  』   for  my  muse  to  blindfold  your  muse.

『  MUSIC.  』   for  my  muse  to  turn  on  mood  music  for  our  muses.

『  MASSAGE.  』   for  my  muse  to  use  massage  oil  on  your  muse.

『  FEATHER.  』   for  my  muse  to  trail  a  soft  feather  along  your  muses  skin.

『  BREATH.  』   for  my  muse  to  sensually  blow  on  a  spot  on  your  muse.

『  CANDLE.  』   for  my  muse  to  light  a  scented  candle  to  enhance  the  mood.

『  WHISPER.  』   for  my  muse  to  whisper  suggestive  ideas  into  your  muse’s  ear.

『  VIBRATE.  』   for  my  muse  to  use  a  vibrating  toy  on  your  muse.

『  WAX.  』   for  my  muse  to  drip  hot  wax  on  your  muse.

『  TASTE.  』   for  my  muse  to  use  flavored  oil  or  lube  on  your  muse

『  BITE.  』   for  my  muse  to  bit  your  muse  on  a  sensitive  spot  on  them.

『  STRIKE.  』   for  my  muse  to  strike  yours  with  a  whip/flogger/paddle.

『  HEAT.  』   for  my  muse  to  turn  up  the  heat  while  our  muses  are  being  intimat

『  MOUTH.  』   for  my  muse  to  cover  your  mouth  while  having  sex.

『  SPANK.  』   for  my  muse  to  spank  your  muse.

『  TONGUE.  』   for  my  muse  to  lick  a  line  along  your  muses  body.

『  LEATHER.  』   for  my  muse  to  stimulate  your  muse  with  leather  clothing  or  toys.

⋆｡‧˚ʚ💋ɞ˚‧｡⋆ 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝗰𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗮𝗻𝗲𝗼𝘂𝘀 𝗱𝗶𝗮𝗹𝗼𝗴𝘂𝗲 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘀

❝ i wouldn’t find the need to tell you ‘i told you so’ if you weren’t so allergic to admitting i’m right—but by all means, keep walking into walls just to prove a point. ❞

❝ there are better hills to die on, but i’ve always had a flair for the dramatic, so this one? this one suits me just fine. ❞

❝ would you come with me? i know i could go alone, but everything feels a little less terrifying when you’re beside me. ❞

❝ that’s not the worst thing i’ve ever heard, but it’s definitely in the top ten—and i’ve been to family dinners. ❞

❝ i would love to help you, truly, but i’m currently suffering from a terminal case of 'not my problem' and my doctor says there’s no cure. ❞

❝ could you, for just one second, think about someone other than yourself? i’m not asking for a miracle—just a moment of humanity. ❞

❝ i’m not going to stand here and argue with you about how badly you need rest. when you crash, don’t expect me to catch you. ❞

❝ would you be a dear and shut the hell up? there’s only so much self-centered rambling a person can survive in one sitting. ❞

❝ i know i need help. i know. but asking for it feels like walking into battle without armor—give me a second to find the words. ❞

❝ do you know where we’re going? or are we just letting the chaos guide us now? ❞

❝ i’m trusting you with this. that’s not something i give away easily, so please—don’t make me regret it. ❞

❝ do you like it here? not the place—the moment. the quiet. me. ❞

❝ are you still happy? and i don’t mean surface-level smiles and small talk. i mean really, truly happy. with me. with this. ❞

❝ i didn’t lie to you. i just told the truth in a way that made it easier to swallow. if that’s betrayal, then maybe you never wanted honesty—just comfort. ❞

❝ do you even like spending time with me anymore? because lately, it feels like all we do is circle the same argument and call it conversation. ❞

❝ one of us is going to have to be honest eventually, and i’m starting to think it’s going to have to be me—again. ❞

❝ i want to tell you something. something real. something raw. but i keep getting caught in the storm of my own hesitation. ❞

❝ if you were the religious type, i think i’d still find a way to make you worship me. or at least remember me in your prayers. ❞

❝ don’t tell me to stop being dramatic. it’s the only thing that makes this unbearable mess of a life remotely entertaining. ❞

❝ were you ever going to tell me, or were you just hoping i’d eventually give up trying to read your mind? ❞

❝ i never needed you to fix me. i just needed you to stay when i was falling apart. but even that was too much, wasn’t it? ❞

❝ sometimes i think you love the version of me that only exists in your head. the quiet one. the easy one. the one who doesn’t talk back. ❞

❝ i’m tired of being the bigger person. it’s lonely up here and the view isn’t even worth it. ❞

❝ you don’t get to disappear and then waltz back in like you didn’t shatter something on your way out. ❞

❝ if you wanted to hurt me, congratulations. you did it with terrifying precision. ❞

❝ it’s not that i don’t care anymore—it’s just that caring has become exhausting. ❞

❝ i don’t know what we are anymore. i don’t know if we ever really knew. ❞

❝ you keep saying everything’s fine like you’re trying to hypnotize me into believing it. ❞

❝ loving you felt like setting myself on fire and pretending it was candlelight. ❞

❝ i keep telling myself it’ll get better, but i’m starting to wonder if that’s just another bedtime story i made up to survive. ❞

❝ you can’t just say ‘i’m sorry’ and expect everything to go back to the way it was. apologies aren’t time machines. ❞

❝ you left. and somehow, i’m still the one who feels guilty. ❞

⋆｡‧˚ʚ💋ɞ˚‧｡⋆ 𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞𝐝 𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐢𝐧 (VERY USFT!!!!) send ‘reverse’ for the sender and receiver to swap. adjust wording as needed!

[ tie ] sender slowly binds receiver’s wrists with a silk ribbon, letting their fingers linger

[ control ] sender orders receiver to sit still while they undress them slowly, deliberately

[ tease ] sender brushes their lips along receiver’s ear, whispering instructions they expect to be followed

[ edge ] sender brings receiver to the edge of pleasure, only to pull away with a knowing smirk

[ obey ] receiver lowers their gaze and follows sender’s every instruction with aching anticipation

[ kneel ] sender hooks a finger under receiver’s chin and commands them to kneel

[ silence ] sender presses a finger to receiver’s lips, telling them to stay quiet no matter what happens next

[ restraint ] sender cuffs receiver’s hands above their head, kissing them like a promise before taking control

[ leash ] sender clips a soft collar and leash around receiver’s neck, guiding them where they want them

[ possess ] sender grips receiver’s waist, marking them with bruising kisses and muttered claims

[ command ] sender whispers something filthy into receiver’s ear and waits for them to follow through

[ bend ] sender places their hands on receiver’s shoulders and pushes them down, demanding obedience

[ mark ] sender leaves lipstick stains, bite marks, or scratches as proof of where they’ve been

[ punish ] receiver breaks a rule — sender smirks and says, “you know what that means”

[ slow ] sender pins receiver down and takes their time, making them feel everything

[ praise ] sender murmurs praise in between kisses, rewarding receiver for being so good

[ watch ] sender tells receiver not to touch. they’re just meant to watch this time

[ overstim ] receiver begs for a break, but sender keeps going, voice low and soothing

[ beg ] sender makes receiver say exactly what they want before giving in

[ trade ] sender offers a kiss or a touch for each honest confession receiver gives

[ game ] sender rolls a pair of dice or draws a card — whatever it lands on, receiver has to do

[ mirror ] sender makes receiver watch themselves while they're being touched

[ reward ] after good behavior, sender finally lets receiver have what they want most

[ ruin ] sender kisses them until they’re breathless, then pulls back just before release

[ challenge ] sender dares receiver to keep quiet, despite everything they’re about to do

[ blindfold ] sender covers receiver’s eyes and lets anticipation do the rest

[ grip ] sender wraps a hand around the back of receiver’s neck, voice dark with intent

[ mess ] sender promises to ruin receiver and follows through

[ lap ] sender pulls receiver into their lap, locking them in place with an arm around their waist

[ hush ] sender whispers, “quiet now,” against receiver’s skin while slowly dragging a hand down their chest

[ teaseback ] receiver turns the tables, grabbing sender by the hips and taking control

⋆｡‧˚ʚ💋ɞ˚‧｡⋆ 𝐥𝐚𝐳𝐲 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐬

​​​​​​actions.

[ CUDDLE ]: sender wraps their arms around receiver on the couch and refuses to let go.

[ OVERSIZED ]: sender is wearing receiver's oversized hoodie or shirt with nothing underneath.

[ MOVIE ]: sender and receiver watch a movie, tangled up in blankets.

[ LAP ]: sender lays their head in receiver’s lap while scrolling on their phone.

[ SNOOZE ]: sender drifts off mid-conversation with their face buried in receiver’s neck.

[ COFFEE ]: sender brings receiver their favorite drink while still in pajamas.

[ STAY ]: sender pulls receiver back into bed when they try to get up.

[ TANGLE ]: sender’s legs are tangled with receiver’s under a cozy blanket.

[ KISSY ]: sender peppers sleepy kisses across receiver’s cheeks and neck.

[ SHOWER ]: sender pulls receiver into a lazy, steamy shower just to hold them.

[ HAIR ]: sender plays with receiver’s hair absentmindedly.

[ LAPTOP ]: sender works on something while laying on top of receiver.

[ NAP ]: sender and receiver nap together, completely wrapped around each other.

[ BUMPS ]: sender bumps their nose against receiver's while giggling under the covers.

[ COOKING ]: sender tries to make breakfast but gets distracted by receiver’s kisses.

[ SOCKS ]: sender steals receiver’s socks just to keep their toes warm.

[ BRUSH ]: sender gently brushes receiver’s messy morning hair with their fingers.

[ WRAP ]: sender wraps themselves in a blanket and waddles over to cuddle receiver.

[ DANCE ]: sender pulls receiver into a slow, silly dance in the kitchen.

[ FLUFF ]: sender brings over a pillow and throws it at receiver to start a pillow war.

𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞.

❝ five more minutes. ❞

❝ you’re so warm, don’t move. ❞

❝ let’s stay in bed all day. ❞

❝ i made coffee. come get it before it gets cold. ❞

❝ you’re way too comfortable for me to get up. ❞

❝ we should order something and never leave the couch. ❞

❝ you have bedhead. it’s adorable. ❞

❝ come here, i need snuggles. ❞

❝ i missed mornings like this with you. ❞

❝ i don’t care what we watch as long as you’re here. ❞

❝ wanna nap on top of me again? ❞

❝ you smell like sleep and sunshine. ❞

❝ i stole your hoodie and i’m never giving it back. ❞

❝ your toes are freezing. ❞

❝ don’t fall asleep on me—too late. ❞

❝ i swear you’re the human version of a weighted blanket. ❞

❝ is it illegal to be this cozy? ❞

❝ i could do nothing with you forever. ❞

❝ you’re the best part of my lazy days. ❞