Service Slavery

There's a difference for me between discipline and punishment.  Master for sure provides discipline and structure in which i personally thrive.  Undoubtedly, that same structure and discipline that allows me to blossom would be crushing and stifling to someone else.

Corporal punishment, i.e. spanking is never a punishment around here.  Spanking, in its many forms is simply something we do because it turns us both on, it's a fun thing never a punishment.  i get that plenty of couples are able to keep punishment spankings separated from fun spankings but that just isn't how Master works. 

As a slave, i have a ton of privileges but they are still privileges and when the occasion arises that Master feels the need to punish or correct me, He removes privileges.  Does that provide clarity?  You betcha - nothing like reminding me that all things come from Him when something simple as hot showers or using a toilet can be taken from me instantly.

i do find completeness in my service to Master.  While, i think i've always been comfortable in my own skin and have never really lacked clarity about who i am as a woman, there's definitely a sense of home that being a slave brought to my life.  If i had never had found the lifestyle, i don't believe i wouldn't be complete, i'd just be different.  i believe i'd still have clarity just a different kind of clarity. 

Being service oriented, i obviously find fulfillment in being able to serve.  i honestly, believe i'd find a way to do that even if i wasn't in a M/s relationship it would just look different and obviously would mean i wouldn't do it when i didn't feel like it (as opposed to now when i do it because He says so no matter what kind of mood i might be in).  i believe i would have found a way to give my soul peace with or without the lifestyle - i'm notoriously driven and stubborn like that.

For me, sex isn't as vital as most folks think when talking of the lifestyle.  Don't get me wrong, i enjoy it but i wouldn't say it was the 'bedrock' of our life or our relationship.  We enjoy a healthy, kinky sex life and i spend a goodly amount of time with His cock in my mouth but for us it's the rest of it that's our bedrock.  For us, it's more about control and being controlled in every aspect of life that's key. 

For me, it's the ability to serve Him in whatever way He needs today that is vital.  It doesn't truly matter to me if that service is a blow job (which i tremendously enjoy) or fixing His coffee.  For Him, it's my obedience to Him that's vital to our life together.  That being said, the hardest thing for me to submit too/obey is the moments when He doesn't need or want me to serve (but i suppose that's a discussion for another day).