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Upgraded my clinic keyboard and mouse this last month. LoFree Flow Lite100 Keyboard & a silent logi mouse.

I wish I could hug her right now. Tell her to enjoy these last few weeks of normalcy, of order, of practicality and predictability.

I would sit down and instead of looking away I would reach for her hand and just hold it, squeeze it.

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There are years that ask questions and years that answer.

Grief is a tunnel

So fuzzy going thru and out the other end is the promised healing but you’re not ever sure you’re there yet

People leaving your life changes you, makes you question your soul and everything you thought you knew about yourself and makes you question your actions .

I’ve sat with it. Loss. I’ve stewed in it. Cried, waded thru it. Still haven’t made it out. But I keep going

Feeling like a open wound but really it’s just a more open heart

The provider I worked with passed away last month.

He wasn’t just my doctor, he was also my mentor and friend.

I was so focused on not becoming like her in one aspect of my life that I forgot to focus on the other.

The way her actions hurt others. I never looked into her behavior, her personality. Her selfishness.