Slug Bait, Can't Wait

I hope when i die my friends only say good things about me and forgive me for every time ive been rude. It wont be for a long time but like it makes me worried to think the bad outshines rhe good i do idk

I dont care whatevwr ill do anything for anybody ill do everything in the world and deal with anything instead of doing anything to make myself happy bc when im unhappiest thats when other people are happy to lucky all the time

I just cant care anymore i dont want any of this, i dont csre how much people think ill be able to enjoy it its the fact that im forced to be unhappy, forced to be in an unfamiliar place foe the millionth time when i thought it was over i need something horrible to happen so then i have some excuse for anybody to just get off my fucking back for a single second

Sweet if i killed myself months ago then i wouldnt have to deal with everything that is currently making me unhappy and thag will continue lmao

No music at work for me . Great

Day messed up already okay who wanrs to mow the lawn!

I shouldve just died a few months ago im not gonna make it very far lmfao

YOURE GETTING WHAT YOU WANTED SI BE FUCKING HAPPY ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!! THIS WALLOWING IN SADNESS BULLSHIT ISNT EVEN FUCKING WORTH IT BECAUSE NOBODY CAN GET YOU OUT OF THIS

Howard csnt have any thing ever i giess. Wanna watch a movie? Dvd player dies. Wanna talk to ur friends ? Theyre asleep. Wanna draw? Dude u cant do that. The 3 thinfs i have and i cant do any of that oh my god

I hate havinf all these ideas rhat i csnt draw hahahah🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬😁😁😁😁😁😁

I have nothing going dor me

oh my god this is horrific to me

Im just like my dad everything i do is what he does

Every day is so hard and im so scared. Whstever ill talk to val for a few fucking hours tmw anyways and then ill leave and soend hours on my phone wasting all my time and ill wonder why im miserable constantly god i just want to go away i want to do what i want but i cant ill never have what i want ive spent all of my life not asking for much but the truth is you csnr get anything st all huh

I feel like i need help but the most help i can get is people telling me they're sorry for me or that it will get better not to be like "nobody understands me" but its the inly thing ive thought if all day and it feels like only 1 person is keeping me here. Ill deal with it the past 10 years ive been doing tbe dame thing what difference does it make

Im sick of adults arnd me acting like fkn children im not havinf any of this