E VI L on the ROCK

Sana nga sa susunod, kung may susunod pa. Iiwan ka na lang, pero sa tatawagin ka lang na kaibigan.

Hope things will be good soon after.

Kung kailan yon, hindi ko alam. Pero pag dumating yung araw na iyon, at mahanap ko yung passion na hinahanap ko, yung spark, yung talent na meron ako. Ikaw, kung sino man ang nakabasa nito, sabihin mo lang sa akin, matutuwa akong makipagkwentuhan sayo.

Seppy, nanaginip kagabi with matching tears of joy.. if that was reality, but all was a dream

hindi nilang alam ang lungkot na nararamdaman ko. Wala akong masabihan, na gusto kong magpakamatay na iintindi sa akin. wala akong masabihan na kaibigan na makaka intindi sa akin... wala akong makasama kung gusto ko sumaya, kahit makalimot lang. wala akong matawag na pwede kong yakap yakapin pan natatakot ako. alam ko, parang tumatanda ako ng paurong, parang tanga na akala may sariling mundo, pero gusto ko lang maging masaya, o kahit makalimot lang ng lungkot. himdi ko na alam paano kasi makipagkaibigan, malabo na ata akong ngumiti ulit, may makasamang maglakad lang sa walang patutunguhan, kasama ng clouds kasama n bubong, kasama ng lahat ng nasa ibabaw ko.. malapit na talaga, ang hirap itawid, ang araw araw kong pag-titiis

:) haha! Sino ba ako para magset ng qualifications for a girl. haha! Of course! Mamahalin ko kase yon, at tsaka ipapagmalaki ko sa lahat ng kilala ko at kaibigan ko yun eh! First of, I'm not the one who just wants a 'trophy' girl. Bonus na yon kung talagan sooooobrang ganda yung sumagot sakin ng "Oo".. I'm just stating siguro yung "dream girl" ko. Kung parang pageant ang labanan, siguro 40% brain, 30% attitude, 20% beauty and 10% audience impact! Siguro napaka-iksi naman kung yan lang ang ipopost ko diba? Kung brains ang pag-uusapan, siguro yung nakatapos ng college, preferrably a PRC licensed career woman. Sa looks naman, yung hindi sobrang tangkad, ranging from 5'-5'5". Skin complection, hmm.. basta siguro hindi maraming pimples.. Not fat, not tooo thin, just enough, and feeling beautiful. Attitude, siguro, one who can carry herself with poise and elegance, marunong mag-act accordingly. Good family bakground, mahinahon and understanding, family oriented. Ayan! na state ko na kung anong gusi kong girl, I wish meron nga talgang gantong girl na nag eexist.. I found some pero I wasn't ready yet to commit so I let them pass. So next time if whoever reads this, kung may kilala ka, i reto mo naman sa akin please! :) Seppy.

seppy, got a reply! :)

i was on a taxi ride with him, just with him. i was talking to him, saying sorry. i was talking to him, asking to be again with him, hoping and hoping, forever hoping.. and he answered, I will, unless words are unanswered, unless actions aren't made, and I lied, I said yes, I hugged you, kissed you, Cried myself. but I knew it was a dream. I was crying in that dream. I thought dreaming with the one you love should be happy, but why is this all coming? I felt you wanted me back, you missed me too! that's why I cried, because I knew you were waiting for me all along! But then again, I'm still dreaming. lost in the past, but this should end soon!! Rainy days will be over soon!

Pwede ba mag apply jan sa puso mo? ahh, Ako si seppy. Not much of a hunk or a dreamboy kinda guy. I'm pretty much normal. I look like an anime i guess.. more of a geek. i don't have a great personality, I often just talk to myself, or in the internet. I kinda have few close friends. but they're busy and I think that's ok. I am bum, yep. I don't have work yet. but I'm planning too! :) rather, I want to have my own business. Gusto ko sanang mag apply jan, if positions are still held.. I don't have a good personality though, But you can assume my love is like a pet dog. I don't do cheesy stuff, i looooveee cuddling, But one thing is for sure, i would be loyal to you even after leaving.. :) bye, I'm kinda sleepy... I won't finish this so when you read this,

seppy, missing youknowwho

Hindi parin natitigil yung 'love issue' ko. Sorry naman, nonetheless, pwede namang i-skip if you had enough. As far as I can remember, it was in the LRT, gusto ko syang makita. and, tsinempuhan ko ata na makasakay sya. tapos sumakay na ako kasabay xa, it's the same position we had nung una kaming nagkita.. then gustong gusto ko xa kausapin, pero lumayo ako para feeling unaffected. then nung pababa na xa, nagdalawang isip ako kung bababa .. and I did!! but this time pagbaba ko, naalala kong break na kami, nagmumugto yung luha ko.. then he asked me"Ok ka lang?" and I replied, "ohh, kamusta ka na?" habang nakatingin pataas, inaantay mawala yubg luha bago ko xa tignan.. but I haven't seen his face.., but I know xa yon ... *i wonder why napanaginipan ko sya*

seppy, naghuhug ng pillow sa pagtulog. and yes. i'm still thinking bout you-know-who

seppy, in loving memory

Rr, Yuwan, Haha, I missed you guys! Sobra! anyhow, forgive me kase nagsinungaling akong hindi ko pa napapanood yung 'The Conjuring' kase napanood ko na sya, siguro kahapon pa, the night I asked you if we can watch it. Anyway, the point of me lying ay dahil wala naman akong ibang reason para makasama sa inyo, hehe. I just needed some company. Alam ko naman na di ko namn kayo pwedeng guluhin na king may problema ako kase you had enough of me. :) I am trying to be more positive kaya I'm trying to reach out. I don't know if you guys still like me .. pero if ayaw nyo naman ay better tell it to me. I'm ok with Jason around, siguro hindi ko alam kung ok na yun para di nyo na ako "deadmahin". Hindi naman ako ganun ka-social na person unlike other people, masaya ako talaga if I'm with you guys, tahimik lang kase ako and I don't know your point of interest para pag-usapan, kaya more of 'non sense' lang yung mga sinasabi ko, even asking 'stupid' questions para lang makastart ng conversation. Gusto ko lang din naman yung ako yung kakamustahin, hindi ako yung laging nag-tatanong kung sasama ako, kase lagi akong sasama! unless may ibang mga bagay na talagang hindi ko kayang puntahan. It's just siguro wala akong pera or may important errands akong dapat gawin. Sana nga lang, you guys still ok with me. Yun lang hehe. See you real soon!

seppy, sobrang lungkot. pero kakayanin. kinakaya ko naman, need ko lang malabas somewhere..

bakit hanggang ngayon ang sakit sakit parin ng puso ko, matagal na matagal na tayong wala, siguro nga e may iba ka na. ganun ba talaga kita kamahal? na kahit anong tanggal ng isip sa iyo eh may paraan ka para bumalik sa utak ko?, buti nalang, wala na bumabasa nito , kung hindi nabatukan nanaman ako. ang hirap mabuhay ng walang kaibigan, wala kang mapagsabihan ng gantong mga bagay. Yung tengang hinding hindi mapapagod sa kakarinig sa kabaliwan mo. "Alam mo, kaibigan, eto lang yung moment na nakakalungkot e. Yung moment na lonely ka at nag iisa. tinalo ko pa yung namatayan. leche! bullshet." Sana maging "ok" na ako, busy naman na ako, pero wala eh, di talaga, ikaw lang sabi ng "puso kong ligaw".. Kakayanin ko to, kinakaya ko nga eh. Partida pa ito, mag isa lang ako. sobrang sakit nga lang, sobrang hindi ko alam bakit.. paano pero siguro... nakahanap na sya ng iba at may naglalambingan sila ngayon kaya ako apektado, haha (overthinking lang) .. pero yaan mo na.. may magmamahal din sa akin. more than what i deserve. Dasal lang, tiwala kay Papa God.

Seppy, masayang nakahanap ng ilaw na maliet