practice reckless optimism

things will not always go the way you want them to be at first. sometimes, you have to take a little detour in order to achieve your goals.

its okay to be alone, however, what’s not okay is pushing others away.

time flies when you’re enjoying yourself, however, time flies faster when you’re not in a good place, because nobody wants to be involved in a bad situation.

you can be sad inside, but happy outside. and that’s alright, you can’t appreciate one thing without the other.

rejection is actually a motivation in disguise. you get to do things your way, and no one will tell you to look back.

discomfort makes for a good story someday.

Wala gaanong nangyari, pero maraming nagbago. Isang taon na akong ‘tambay’ kuno (may trabaho, ayoko lang magmukhang mayabang), walang ginawa kundi kain tulog, computer, tapos alas tres na ng umaga, gising na gising pa rin.

Kahit na taong-bahay lang ako kadalasan ngayong taon, madami pa din akong natutunan.

Mas makikilala mo yung tunay mong kaibigan kapag di mo sila nakakasama. (Kakaiba, pero totoo)

Mas magiging tahimik ka, kahit na nasa harap ka ng mga kaibigan mo. Kung dati nakikisama ka, ngayon, makikisama ka pa rin naman, hindi ka lang yung talagang makikisama.

Magpapasalamat ka dahil malabo ang mata mo, kase kapag may ipinagawa sayo sa harap ng maraming tao, di mo makikita mga reaksyon nila. Matawa man sila, edi okay. Minsan mo naman lang sila makita.

Mawawalan ka na ng pakielam. 

Hindi ka na magtatampo kung hindi ka inaya ng mga kaibigan mo sa gala nila, makakaipon ka pa ng pera.

Pero kung may pagkakataon na makakasama mo kaibigan mo, o kahit mga dati mong kakilala na hindi gaanong kausap, makakausap mo talaga, kadalasan kase ikaw lang mag-isa.

Yung mga taong bago mo lang na nakilala, mas madali mong makikisamahan, kahit na yung mga kwento eh dalawang taon na nakalipas.

Matututo kang makinig. Kahit wala ka nang pakielam, makikinig ka pa din.

Hindi mo na kailangang makisabay sa uso. Basta ginagawa mo gusto mo, okay na yun.

Minsan, kahit gaano pa kalalim pagsasama mo at ng ilan mong kaibigan, hindi ka na sasama sa mga gala nila, basta okay sila, edi okay ka na din.

Sa una, di mo magugustuhan yung mag-isa kang gising ng madaling-araw, pero masasanay ka din. Wala ka namang kailangang katakutan kundi yung mga bagay na tumatakbo sa isip mo.

Two, three years ago,a lot of good things happened, things I did not thought was possible. I got involved in a LOT of good things, i was on the yellow brick road to emerald city. it was the good kind of spontaneity.

Two, three years ago was also the time I reflected on a lot of things, on what I want in life. I want to be more involved, I want to learn, I want to be better.

Unfortunately, along the way i had to take a detour. Detours are normal, almost always long and winding, hard to travel, and requires a lot of patience. They appear without warning, and when they do, you have no choice but to take that road.

The detour started sometime last year. Still, I was a reckless optimist, saying, “I will be back, i must be back,” even if that one little corner of my brain knew that I might not be.