we are not alone.

Marry Me FT Island | SNU verse. Hyohoon aged about 23

I don’t have to say good byeI don’t have to worry about you sleepingI don’t have to eat latenight meal all by myself.I’ll do all the hard things for youI’ll do everything you want for youMarry me, my baby. Marry me, my lady.

She stared at the packed boxes in Hoon’s apartment, and she felt just as empty as the room they were standing in. Hyoyoung knew someday, Hoon would go off and do the NASA thing— they were older now, and Hyoyoung just felt something was off. Looking at him, as she always did with a small smile on her face. She didn’t want to be left behind, she didn’t want to lay in bed and think of being without Hoon. It was something that tugged at her heart every passing second as they sat in that room. Hyoyoung didn’t even like it, this none of this she liked. crossing her arms. Her heart felt it was squeezing, and she got up from the box she was sitting upon, tugging on Hoon’s arm. “Hey, you love me right?” Hyoyoung blurted out, she wasn’t sure how this was going to go, but she had to try, “Because I love you, actually a lot.” Swallowing hard, “So I was thinking just right now.. how when you go I can’t really come with you.. and I hate every night you go away. I don’t like eating alone, I don’t any of that stuff. I did it for a long time, I grew used to you being here. You say skype and stuff, but I want to be with you. “ Hyoyoung looked at him and smiled, “So.. tell me.. how about you and me get married? Like.. right now, tomorrow. Soon? I want to marry you now.” Hoon wasn’t even sure how to react knowing if this situation were to occur it was supposed to be him proposing, once again Hyoyoung beat him to the punch. “The ring doesn’t even matter right now, I want you to marry me now.” Already tugging on his hand, not giving him much choice, “I want to be your wife, your girlfriend, best friend I really want to be all of these things for you.” Hyoyoung was sure about this more than anything, “Don’t be scared okay? I know it’s sudden.. I get that.. these days I’ve become more understand, more I guess um.. reasonable. But right now.. this once, I want to be unreasonable just this last time. Let’s be like this together?” She asked him her eyes shining, and holding both his hands in hers.

“So.. tell me Moon Man.. do you want to marry me?” Hyoyoung says kissing his lips, once for good measure. Knowing this may have been selfish to pressure on him, it was bad right? But this would be the last thing she’d ask of him, it wasn’t hard— just for him to spend the rest of forever with her. 

Hyo was never really someone to ask Hoon these kinds of questions- maybe because she never really had to. Once they'd finally stumbled through that long-overdue confession, Hoon made it his own personal mission to ensure she never had to ask. It wasn't until later that Hyo started letting him in on bits and pieces of the reasons why she might question if she was loved or even loveable, and these talks only strengthened his resolve to prove that she was, indeed, the most important woman on earth. Because she was, and she should know that.

Even so, all along, there was this small, nagging thought in the back of Hoon's head that this relationship had an expiration date. He was a science nerd who sucked at football and basically everything else guys his age did. She was exciting and interesting and always on the go. His life had been easy, hers had been anything but. It was probably totally cheesy to say that his mom warned him about girls like her, but his mom really had pulled him aside once to sit him down and lecture him that  girls like her don't stick around; he shouldn't count on getting serious. But he was serious and she was still with him and he wasn't going to worry about what might or might not happen until they got there. He loved her now and he'd keep loving her as long as she liked and it didn't have to be any more complicated than that.

Grad school was growing closer, however, and as the date of Hoon's departure drew nearer, he came to the conclusion that he very much did not want to go alone. Once he reached this realization, he called Minah (if he thought she was loud while cheering it was nothing compared to the sound she made when she found out why he was calling) and that same day she took him to help look for an engagement ring.

But this was definitely not a part of the proposal operation.

"Can I- um- can we talk about this later?" he blurts out, immediately regretting his choice of words. "I mean, I want to talk about it but-" he sighed and looks around the room for something to save him from this awkwardness, his eyes landing on the neatly folded pile of clothes he'd set aside for their date tonight.

"It's really not fair that you beat me to this, too," he says as he walks over to the pile. "I had this whole thing planned out- we were gonna get dinner and then we were gonna go for a walk and just happen to end up at the park where we went stargazing the night we met and..." he reaches into the pocket of his jeans and pulls out the small ring box, holding it up lamely.

"Surprise..."

He shrugs, a bit deflated since he really did think that he'd finally manage to sneak something past her, but he should have known there was just no sneaking anything past Ryu Hyoyoung.

for being my first rp. thank you for getting me out of my depressive funk where i started to hate writing because my job was sucking all the fun out of it for me. thank you for teaching my how to rp even though i was terrible when i started. thank you for being my friends for this past year and a half and thank you for loving eunji and hoon (and jyp for the short time he was here).

most of all, thank you acchan for making everything possible and for being my admin hero <3

for anyone who wants to stay in touch, you can find me on aim at piiiiiper (5 i’s, display name hoonji) and roleplaying/admining at rookies rp.

i’m still up for rping stuff on eunji and hoon if anyone would like (and doesn’t mind my slow, slow self).

til we meet again,

"Well it's funny you should mention that," he said, "because I'd really like to go out with my girlfriend." It really, really felt good to finally get to try that title out for real. This probably wasn't the appropriate time to reveal that he'd never been on a proper date before (then again, if Hyo was paying any attention at all over the last year, this probably wouldn't exactly be news), but he tried to remind himself that it wasn't like he'd never gone out with his friends before. If you really thought about it, half the time he and Hyo had hung out could have been considered dates if he'd just said something before now. This wasn't a time to freak out about doing the right thing or the wrong thing, this was the time to just enjoy the rest of the day before someone woke him up to tell him it was all a dream.

Hoon wasn't really sure what he was supposed to do now- in all honesty he would have been happy to do exactly what she asked and just hold onto her and keep kissing her until she got bored (and for once he didn't care one bit that there were other people in the park who might be watching and judging because how could he be bothered to be self-conscious when Ryu Hyoyoung was there to take up all of his attention)

"Happy birthday, Hyoyoung," he said, and he leaned down to kiss her again- a real kiss this time, no fear or anticipation or nervousness. Just joy. It was so easy and she was so perfect and Hoon almost felt like he was the one getting a birthday gift instead of Hyo, which reminded him of his original offer.

That’s if she didn’t die by the end of this birthday, “..Actually, this is just part of my gift.” She said with a smile, “Hoon, I really hate when you let go of me. I’d like it, if you didn’t have to.” Hyoyoung said the tone in her voice, bratty Taking a deep breath, she felt it was the last one she’d ever take. “I’m really bad at words.” She said with an embarrassed expression and slight red tinge in her chubby cheeks. Then him being this close to her, even if it was what she asked from him. Her heart was pounding loudly, and maybe she was even nervous. She had basically laid it out for him, or so she thought she did. “I um, I’m really trying to say..” Hyo swallowed hard, “Hoon, on Valentines day.. that was just an example of how bad I am at talking.” A girl like her was so used to talking after she won the fight, or after she stole something and denied it. Remembering that she did kiss him on the cheek, then looked at him, not saying a word standing on her tippy toes leaning her lips into gently peck at his. “Get it now moon man?” It wouldn’t be like her to try and be super romantic. Giving him some letter, or bat her eyelashes to wait on him to confess. Waiting on Hoon to get a clue, Hyoyoung wasn’t sure seeing how Hoon varied from time to time. If this didn’t work, she was leaving so she could not tear Yeo Hoonmin apart.

Hoon had been kissed exactly two times in his life. Once, a girl in his taekwondo class flipped him onto the floor and just went for it out of the blue. The other time, about a year ago, his best friend had gotten sad and drunk at a party, and Hoon just happened to be the nearest face to make out with. Since then, Hoon had come to the conclusion that either kissing wasn't anywhere near as exciting as it was cracked up to be, or that he was simply bad at it. Now, he knew the real problem was that he just hadn't kissed Hyoyoung yet.

Or, he would have known that, and maybe he'd come to that conclusion later on down the road- but right now, for once, Hoon wasn't thinking about what he might look like or seem like or what anyone thought of him or how things might go wrong, because the only opinion that mattered was Hyoyoung's, and Hyoyoung wanted to kiss him. Ryu Hyoyoung, the most beautiful girl on the campus, wanted to kiss Hoon, and that trumped every shred of self-consciousness he might have been experiencing a moment before.

Once arm still around her waist, Hoon lifted his other hand to her face. He took a moment just to look her in the eye- maybe to double-check that this wasn't one of her pranks or maybe just to double check that this wasn't just another dream- but it felt real and that was all the prompting he needed to close the gap between them once more and press a soft, lingering kiss to her lips.

But it made her happy that even if she was stuck, she felt a bit more free eating that cake. Though being with Hoon made her feel— relatively normal, and it was a good feeling he gave her. Contradicting the fact that she had so much to hide from him, remembering Chanmi’s words that she couldn’t hide forever. Hyoyoung promised to hold out on the truth for as long as possible, “..Anything?” Her voice lowered the smirk on her lips still present. Though she pouted a bit, seeing how illegal activities were what she did best. “Guess robbing a bank is out of the question, damn.” The girl said with a snap of her fingers and a laugh. “I do— I mean I guess, well I don’t know what I want for my birthday.” That was honest seeing how she usually just got whatever she wanted to get herself. Last year she stole herself this silver bracelet she’d been eyeing for a while. “Actually, I do.” Her expression softened a bit, “We’ve been friends for a while, and I feel I should talk to you— well I guess be more open or whatever.” Clearing her throat, “First of all..” Clasping her hands behind her head, now rocking back and forth on her heels. “Hoon, you know.. I lied— I do know what I want.” Her expression growing more embarrassed as she swallowed hard. Completely out of character for her to seem so— shy. She only felt like this once, when the boy she liked told her she looked pretty in her tutu. 

He wasn't sure why, but the we've been friends for a while comment made his heart flop weirdly- was this a good we've been friends for a while or a bad one? Minah told him once that he should worry if a girl ever said we need to talk, but she never explained the protocol for we've been friends for a while- why wasn't there a manual for these kinds of things? And why was Hyo acting all... weird? He was so lost in his own silent panic session that he kind of missed what she was saying, and then suddenly she was standing very very close and how did his arms even get around her? and he was about 94% sure she could actually feel how awkwardly his heart was flip-flopping in his stomach and he was 98% sure it was his turn to talk but he wasn't even sure what she said or what he was supposed to say in response and he wasn't actually sure if he'd be able to speak anyway and he somehow felt that there were some really high stakes in this moment but no idea what those stakes might be- why didn't real life have a phone a friend option?

"I'm pretty sure I would have remembered if you'd mentioned it," he said, which was both entirely true and entirely uncharacteristic of him. Hoon was notoriously bad with birthdays- it was a miracle if he remembered his own, even- but he was pretty sure that he wouldn't ever go another April 22 without realizing it was Ryu Hyoyoung's birthday.

"To be fair, I didn't really find out it was your birthday until, like, today, so I didn't have much planned past the cupcake," he admitted, glad that she seemed to like the cupcake at least. "But I've got the whole rest of the night free and I am 100% at your service for the remainder of your birthday." He ended the sentence with an exaggerated accent and a slight bow, mostly because he couldn't think of a less awkward way to say that. It'd made sense in his head, but saying it out loud felt silly, and somehow making a joke out of it made it seem just a little less silly.