𝓐𝓷𝓰𝓮𝓵 🃏

I sighed as i doom scrolled on my phone, my expression blank, the repetitive tiktoks reflecting on my eyes. My eyes were half-closed, i was laying on my left side and my thumb was getting sore. But then - i got a.. shifting related tiktok? i was on my main account, and i didn't interact with any similar content on it. I shrugged it off and chose to listen, the post being about yet another shifttok creator ranting how they just came back from their dr. It stirred a pang of jealousy and anger in me, so i turned off my phone and gripped it, closing my eyes and taking a deep breath, fighting the urge to throw my phone.

was i this unlucky? why couldn't i shift realities? what am i doing wrong???

desperate for answers, i pulled out my tarot cards and lit the last taper candle i had left. I begged my cards for an answer, i would really do anything to shift this moment...

"tradition" "patience" "consistency" my eye twitched. geez, so much for telling the future. i rolled my eyes and put them back in their box, cleansing it with lavender incense after. I put out the candle shortly after and tucked it back inside my closet with the candle. I plopped back on my bed, even more confused now. My mood was ruined from the lack of direct answers, and i got even more bothered once i heard my parents arguing again. Holy shit i needed to get out of here.

I closed my eyes and forced myself to go to sleep, the only thought in my mind being to wake up in my dr. I am in my desired reality, I am pure consciousness, I am not attached to any body or reality, I understand that i have shifted realities.

"Ruby?" a voice called out, and i shook my head, thinking of it as background noise from my OR. "Sweetheart, you need to get up, we're gonna miss our flight" then it hit me. I jumped up from my dr bed in a state of panic and shock, immediately looking at my dr mom as if she had killed somebody. Holy shit. Was i dreaming? No, i have 10 fingers..

She looked at me in confusion and scoffed "We're not that late, what's the matter with you?"

i was still struggling to ground myself, remembering those shifting tips and focusing on random objects. It took me some time, but i eventually took a deep breath and rubbed my face, the texture and bone structure much different. I nodded at my mom with a reassuring smile, and when she left, i took the time to get used to my dr bedroom. I sat back on my bed, a smile spreading on my face as the warm, cotton sheets scrunched under my grasp. Wait - i have a fucking infinite closet. I ran to my closet, gasping at all the designer clothes, shoes and handbags. I took slow strides alongside the clothing racks, dragging my slim fingers around the folds. A warmth spread over my heart, and i took my sweet time picking out an outfit. I ended up in a baby pink riffed dress, the straps tied in big bows at my shoulders, thank god i scripted i dont need a bra for my boobs to stay in one, upright place, white tights that had a heart imprint, dior beige heels with pink highlights, white silk long gloves, pearl jewelry and a pink dior shoulder bag. I sighed in pride, admiring the creation i had just made. I took no time strutting over to the vanity in my bedroom, sitting down and taking a deep breath once i met my.. face claim in the flesh.. it felt weird, even though it was just a more grown up version of my or face, i still didn't believe i was this gorgeous. I admit i took half an hour staring at myself, trying to convince myself the pretty girl in the mirror staring back at me was actually me. I then focused my gaze on the arrows at the sides of my mirror, clicking them and watching the way makeup appeared on my face without needing to take hours like in my or. I eventually picked some puppy eyeliner with pink glittery eyeshadow and highlighter, nothing more. I had naturally shiny lips. Then, i put my blowout hair in a high ponytail, attaching a pink satin bow right on top. And, with perfect timing, my mom knocked on my door. I allowed her to come in, and she smiled at my happy appearance before humming - "You ready to go, honey?"

"Yeah- wait, my suitcase.."

"Oh? Honey, you know i always prepare your suitcase in advance." she smiled at me widely before coming to kiss me on the forehead and leaving my room, closing the door behind her.

.. wow..

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"Toji?!" (YES. MY BETTER CR DR S/O IS REAL LIFE TOJI.) i yelled, running at my confused yet happy boyfriend, jumping in his arms as he spun me around and held my knees around his hips for support. "Heeeyy Princess, cheerful than usual, what's the matter?" he looked at my mom with a confused eyebrow shrug, to which she did the same. "Im just- Im happy to see you.." i sniffled, and he immediately cupped my face to look at me with concern - "Baby - are you okay?" his voice went through my ears like silk. I nodded, hugging him, burying my face in the crook of his neck. It felt right. "You wanna stay like this?" "Mhm.." he didn't protest, and just helped my mom get the suitcases inside his car, checking if im slipping off once in a while. When everything was packed and ready, he patted me on the back as a sign that we were gonna get on the road. I needed to get off him, since he was driving. So i did, with hesitation. My mom could only smile sweetly at the sight, she suggested to sit back with me, to keep me company, and i agreed. It wasn't really a long drive to the airport, but gossiping with my mom lifted my mood up. Once we arrived, everyone got their suitcases and left for the airport. My boyfriend offered to carry our suitcases, but we refused cause we felt bad, he was already doing so much. While we were waiting, my mom said she wanted to go on a little shopping spree, since there were hours until our flight. I asked to come with her, but she said she wanted to be alone, and i dont think that was the reason judging by her smug grin. Once my boyfriend and I were left alone on the uncomfortable airport seats, i widened my eyes only slightly and stared at the floor nervously. Fucking christ, seeing my dr s/o for the first time was so intimate for no reason. "Babe?" his hand went over mine to reassure me, but i jumped - "Oh- sorry.. um.." i tried to muster up an excuse, but, when i looked into his eyes, hormones striked me. "Can i kiss you?" i whispered shyly, and he looked at me in confusion, laughing. Fuuucckkkkkk his smile is so sexy bruh. "We do it every— you know what, come here princess." I widened my eyes even more and bit my lower lip, instinctively jumping to his lap. I could only gaze at his lips, until I felt him melt under my stare — "Wow.. uh.. hah.." my eyes perked up at his heavy breathing, immediately knowing what was going on. "Baby.. should we um.. take this to the bathrooms?"— I will spare u guys from the details since this isn't a smut about me and my dr s/o (●｀ε´●)

Soon enough we arrived in Osaka. Me and my mom took some time taking a walk and visiting traditional landmarks, enthusiastically learning about the Japanese beliefs and rules. During all this my boyfriend was booking a hotel for us and packing everything. We all had decided to meet up at this local restaurant — me and my mom saw him at a table, sitting alone, on his phone, scrolling. We went over to him and his expression changed once he saw us, he put his phone down and smiled at us with a greeting. My mom showed him a quick haul of what we had bought from the small markets, and she didn't miss to mention how she bargained for the original price. We tried various styles of sticky rice, some were bland, some were spicy. While she was talking, something hit me — I didn't look at my phone once this whole day! I immediately unlocked my phone, opening the lifa app. My clone was sleeping, right, the timezones between eastern europe and japan were huge.. wait.. MY FRIENDS!

"Um, sorry, can I call my friends?" I asked, looking at both my mom and boyfriend, and they nodded immediately. I happily rushed outside, clicking on the call button in our group chat with shaky hands. I put the phone to my ear, and screamed once I heard Eclipse answer. "OH MY GOD! YOU'RE RE—" I paused, looking around to see the locals and tourists staring at me. I furrowed my eyebrows in embarrassment and said sorry to anyone that was still staring, and returned to my call. "I'm.. what?.." her voice was playful — "uuhhhh.. reeinndeerrrr... yeaahhhh.." I replied. Before she could answer, another voice chimed in — then another, another one and finally, all 5 of us were in the call.

"Heeeyyyyyy~ how's the trip? Tried the love hotels with Toji alr—" "Sapphire! Oh my god, you need to stop." "Relax, Abbi'. I was kiddiinngg!" we all laughed in the call, then proceeded to talk about random shit, Melody told us how some famous influencer asked her out and when she rejected him, he bought her a designer watch and bags in return for her number, so she had no option but to give him her mean old neighbour's number.

"Sweetheart! Food is here." my mom called out, I nodded to her and returned to the phone. "Girls, I have to go, foods here.." "Aawww!" "Oh— okay, have fun!!" "Yeah, don't worry about us! Just call us tomorrow or something," "Ya, tell us how the food tasted later!" I laughed and said goodbye to them, returning to the table.

writers fatigue is getting to me

We returned to the hotel, with full bellies and pleasant smiles. Toji had booked a single room for my mom and a room with.. one bed.. for us. The next part will include smut.

I sat down on the king sized bed, undressing out of my dress and pulling down my tights. I took off my jewelry and heels, only in my makeup, fancy hairstyle and underwear. I sighed deeply, undressing fully to put on my nightgown. I went to the hotel's bathroom to take off my makeup and hairstyle. Just as I was comfy and raw, Toji came in and rubbed my tense shoulders from the back, kissing my neck sweetly. "You okay, love?" I nodded to his question, moaning as the massage released the knot built up in my upper back. I tangled my fingers in his hair, caressing his scalp. "Mm.. you do so much for me.." I groaned with closed eyes, opening them once his massage stopped. "Are you hinting at something?" he looked at me from the side, having to bend just a bit down to meet my eye level. Our smirks appeared at the same time, syncing.

I was breathing heavily, covered in sweat, holding the blankets up to my chin. His wide eyes met mine, and we looked down to see the bed broken. "Shitttt.." "Don't worry, I can pay for it, it doesn't look like an expensive model anyways" he said reassuringly, and I only giggled. We ended up cuddling to sleep, skin to skin.

The next afternoon, while Toji was paying for the broken bed, the old man at the reception desk kept scolding him in Japanese for being a reckless delinquent and mistaking his prestigious hotel for a love hotel. Me and my mom stood behind, giggling.

We went to see a comedy show, and it was honestly comforting in a way, the locals here didn't treat us bad, there weren't advertisers handing out discount cards at the side of the street, and most importantly — we felt like we were right at home. We tried some street food, I didn't remember the name in Japanese, but in English it was... um.. grilled octopus balls..... ... it was good tho! I washed my taste buds after with fish cake bread, and ice cream sandwiches. We visited some temples and the Osaka castle after, taking pictures and learning about the city's history, me and my mom took a liking to it, but my boyfriend was more interested in the views and scenery.

We stayed for a week, doing a bit of everything each day, making sure to enjoy ourselves to the max.

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"Wake up! It's time to clean you lazy sc*m!" a yell woke me up, and I frowned at the unpleasantly familiar feeling of my or blankets. I groaned in anger, the urgency subsiding any questions of why I shifted back. I spent about 4 hours vacuuming the whole house and scrubbing already clean floors and tables, my sick dad sleeping the whole time and my mom cooking. I hated this. She always made food only she liked, didn't even care to ask me if I was a vegetarian or not. My dr mom would've cared to ask I bet. I ate the food she made, potatoes with ham, and stared in misery at the tv up on the wall. Fucking hell. I couldn't even afford Netflix in this reality. I sighed and played yet another youtube streamer, my brain slowly shutting off from the lack of dopamine. I had no choice but to sulk in my bed and daydream about my dr.

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"Ruuuubbyyy~" Toji's voice made me open my eyes, and I was met by the sight of us cuddled up in my dr bed, I sighed in relief. He looked at me with concern and I smiled awkwardly — ".... just a bad dream."