it is what it is

a blurry friend

(180116) @bumkeyk: hello, this is shinee’s key. i’m talking to you guys for the first time in a while. i’ve been thinking a lot lately and even though it’s a bit late, i figured it would be good to say it myself. ahead of our upcoming tour, i will be greeting you guys through a prerecorded reality show with boa. some might find it a bit early, but i’m planning to pull myself together and return to daily life. the other members are trying to get back on their feet as well. we can’t say that what happened with jonghyun was a breaking point. that would worry jonghyun, his family, and many other people. it’s upsetting that i can’t see him at the moment, but i know he’s waiting for me just around the corner. now more than ever, i want to gain strength and keep jonghyun in our presence as we promote, rather than trying to fill up his space. it might be too much to ask, but i hope that whenever and wherever you see us, you will treat us and love us like you always have. i would be very thankful for that. if you continue to support us so that we can hang in there, we promise we won’t disappoint. thank you. (source: soompi)

in the last three years (and three months) that i have had this blog open it has helped me … a lot. it has been a source for not only distraction but a good use of my free time. it’s also helped me when i’ve felt anxious and i’ve been able to meet a handful of friends that i hold very near and dear to me through it. beyond this, through the 32,900(+) followers that i have gained, i have been able to have countless interesting and heartwarming conversations that i would never take back or take for granted. each and every one of you has been nothing short of kind and gracious toward me which, in my opinion, is a lot more than i deserve as a simple blog admin. despite this, i want to gave back to you all somehow and the best way that i was able to think of doing so can be found below: at the linked below you can find a very … deeply organized maze of folders. this is the entirety of my archival folder that i have on my personal computer. these images and videos took me years to collect, whether it be simply through saving or downloading or taking my own personal screencaptures. the content spans the entirety of jonghyun and shinee’s career. i have made everything completely public so you may do whatever you please with the content as long as it is properly credited to the watermarked, etc. you can download it all, you can download some or you can just bookmark it to come back and look at when you feel like doing so. due to the high gigabite count across the board for the files (and my not really having the spare money to buy up extra google drive space at the moment) i had to split everything between two accounts. an early note that this is not a definitive collection of all of the photos of jonghyun out there. that’d be impossible to have, but it’s everything that i do have that i haven’t uploaded onto fyjjong already. you can easily find anything that isn’t included by going through either the archive or looking through the pages located under the dates page on the main blog. with the date and event folders all are organized by year, event and fansite.  link #1 (click here): fantaken and newstaken photos from 2014 - 2017. album scans, blue night radio (older official photos), endorsements, hello baby, inkigayo bts, older official board photos, photoshoots (both official pictures and scans - mostly pre-2015), predebut photos, screencaptures (from bts videos, fancams and variety), selfies (older), starcall videos (with english subtitles), naver starcast photos, ufo photos and videos (various bts, cfs, undated fancams, photoshoot bts / interviews, some yunhanam bts, misc stuff). total files: 3,491 link #2 (click here): fantaken and newstaken photos from 2008 - 2013. total files: 17,370 other than wanting to give back to you all my primary reason for doing this is pretty simple: i have a queue set up on fyjjong to post one photo a day until the start of april. this is, in my opinion, the best way that i can take care of myself as i do not feel that i am emotionally ready to update archival content of jonghyun into my queue that is simply that: archival. i will get to that in due time but, until then, i didn’t want everything to just … sit around collecting dust on my computer so this is my gift to you - for being so great and supportive, especially over the last week.

Rest in peace, Jonghyun. 

remember when Jonghyun said someone stole his bike and then the next day Minho was riding it around 😂

(171221) @bumkeyk: to jonghyunnie hyung who i love … hyung. it’s kibum~. today, we let hyung go and i saw your face yesterday and i still can’t believe it. i’m sorry i was late to see hyung because i was doing other work and, as a dongsaeng, i’m sorry i couldn’t be your strength when you must have been lonely all this time. the two top people responsible for stubbornness on our team is hyung and me so we have to do what we want to do. we do everything we want to do and, even to the end, hyung decided for yourself and hyung left first … it was too hard in the beginning but, for three days, i had time just between hyung and me and i think i can understand hyung’s heart. don’t worry too much that you left before us, and i will take care of and respect your mom and noona like they’re my own family. i will miss you a lot for awhile. i’m really worried that the person who would take my side during discussions has left. while we were in discussions, if i snapped out of it while chatting, it was hyung and me talking to our hearts’ content … now i have to get used to time without hyung and i will live even better than i am now. when i’m old and when it’s time for us to meet again, tell me i worked hard too! the best artist of my life, friend, hyung and colleague, jonghyunnie hyung. you worked hard. i love you so much. 2017.12.21 (source: sonexstella)

These are just a little of a lot of this beautiful soul. Feel free to contribute more random moments that made you laugh, smile, cry, anything that will help these moments last forever ❤️

-jonghyun’s fansite for 9 years (since debut)

“Just like from 9 years ago my life has been brightened and I’m always so thankful. I’ll live diligently with the warmth you gave and wherever you are in your next life, however you are, I’ll definitely let you know that you’re loved again. I promise. Jonghyun-ah I love you so much.”

(death tw) it has been confirmed that jonghyun’s funeral procession will begin on december 21st at 9am kst. onew, key, minho and taemin are listed as the chief mourners for the funeral hall service (along with his close relatives). they will be taking the traditional place of the biological / step-brother or father normally reserved for this position. please remember that shinee are also his brothers though so this is suiting, albeit tradition. (source)