Comeback
4 years after and I suddenly remembered I’ve got tumblr and I still remember the password (shoutout to my Google Chrome account).
Many things have changed:
- I’ve got a diploma.
- Got a job. Damn! I have been working for 2 years already. Look at me, mom, I earn money.
- Several new countries visited (I even traveled alone a bit and I wasn’t kidnapped by a sect).
- Lost friends but some other great people came into my life.
- First kiss, first relationships, failed relationships.
- And many more...
I am writing this post and I am crying... Still haven’t realized whether it’s out of grief of out of joy.
The thing is that I am not a person I used to be. I realize I have changed. I read my old posts and I think “wow I want to make friends with this person, laugh, hug and wash the tears away”. And it’s sad I am not that person anymore. I’ve got tired of TV-series, I don’t feel complete when I am on my own, I need people to show me I am not worthless, I don’t make as many jokes as I used to.
But I have become much kinder to people, I have accepted some of my flaws, I have become more confident but not many things bring me joy.
Should I accept the changes or try to go back there and remember who I really am?
