Tell me

when was it

that you started to see the world

in a different way.

Tell me

when did you stop

They say relationships aren’t perfect, but they never tell you how messy it can really get.

They portray relationships where people have their own issues to traverse, but they never show you how long and how much effort it really takes.

They make movies of happy endings, but in reality relationships are a multi-series of ups and downs, of real humans who are neither bad or good, just human.

It’s not always going to be happy, but it’s also not always going to be sad. Sometimes it’s boring, sometimes it’s exhilarating. Sometimes you want to give up and sometimes you want to keep hoping. There’s jealousy and there are talks, there’s hurt and there are apologies.

You’ll get tired.

And that’s fine, and that’s good, because what people don’t tell you or portray in media is REALITY.

And the moment you stop comparing reality to fiction is the exact moment when you’ll probably want to jump off a cliff, but then also realize it’s better..

..because what you have is real. You know you fought for it, you know the obstacles that you had to overcome, you finally know what it feels to be human, to be with a human. When you stop comparing your life to the movies, you’ll soon realize you’re in uncharted territory..

But, soon or late, the fact grows plain To all through sorrow’s test: The only folks who give us pain Are those we love the best.

I feel it worry when I see you hurt, deflate when I see you go, and ache when you don’t meet my eyes.

Everything right, I think is perfect. Everything questionable, I think is okay because you are you. And that’s so scary, and every day I fall deeper into this hole.

And I fear the day when I’d have to claw my way out, bleeding and in tears. Because that’s usually how this ends. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe not in five years..

Drowning