Hey, everyone, I don't know where to start really, a lot has been going on in these past 2 years. To Start I am now Top 20 in norcal for super smash brothers for the Wii u. Still not ranked but have beaten really good players and beat the number one best player in norcal and a top diddy kong, so it feels really great, I also got out of pools at EVO, one of the biggest fighting game tournaments in the world so I'm very proud of myself, this is one of the times where I saw my hard work pay off. I am surrounded by great friends that I consider them a family, and as of late I have been feeling like I am not the same person from years ago, I am much more comfortable with myself, and how I think or how I look, I don't take myself seriously as well, I have been feeling good in the category at least lol. One of the bad news is that in early January my grandfather has been diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer, and pretty much my home life changed in a month with my mom and my brothers moving in, and that has also been a struggle since my mom don't really get along, but things are changing, but also new obstacles are coming in our way that we have to overcome as family. I'm not really close with my best friends Sergio since me and him have very different lives and the fact that smash and anime pretty much consumes my life, it's funny because I was reading my old posts in here and goddamn my way of thinking changed so drastically from back to now, I am much more stable with my feelings, and I know how to deal with them easier so I'm just not gonna spew out dumbass shit like I used to. All of these things that happened to me this past year really changed my outlook on life, I tend to be a lot more positive, a lot more honest and blunt. The friends that I kick it with now tell me the truth in my face, and yeah they like to tease me, but I embrace my personality now, and I embrace how I feel about things, not insecure about anything. I'm living my life the way that I feel its supposed to be, but I am not done yet, I still have a lot to improve, and a lot more goals to hit. My grandfather is my motivation to keep going when life gets tough. and yeah I am depressed or sad, but I accepted that I am always going to be this way, and if I don't like it then I have the power to make it better. I'm not saying that my life is perfect in any way, but right now even though I have these major obstacles in my life, I feel a more in tune with myself, and I want to be a positive influence to my loved ones. In the norcal smash community everyone loves me, because of the way I am, people say that every time they are around me, they love how positive I am, and how I tackle things when I lose or win. Some people told me and I quote to: “NEVER CHANGE” nobody really told me that before, it felt good knowing that I am finally accepted by everyone and I can be myself nobody can tell me anything. Smash has given that to me, and I am thankful for it. I am working at uber on the weekend to pay off some bills, and honestly, I like driving around and I like to make my own schedule so it made sense to me. But yeah I just wanted to give an update to everyone. My current goals for the rest of the year to pass my semester, lose SOME weight not all, because I love food too much, pay off my bill or least some of it, and just enjoy whatever life throws at me, because I'm 24 years old, and tbh I think it's time to live the way I always wanted to live, and I am getting to that point.
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