It Was Love At Second Sight

next to no one cares about me anymore 

I'm not a likable person

I let too many things get to me

art schools won't accept me because I'm unoriginal as fuck 

I try my hardest to look nice for no reason and no one

my relationship would be perfect if we were together but I still have over a month to go long distance

I ruin many many things for people who interact with me

I can't cope with being an adult 

if I start exercising I'll diet and get too skinny all over again

I'll never feel comfortable with my looks

parties will never be my thing and I'll always be a social outcast in comparison to my friends

most people who have ever met me have surely forgotten me

art is the only thing I am moderately okay at and although I enjoy it at times that makes me feel restricted and hate it 

I want to move out

I need new friends who won't leave me

my old friends don't care at all

I know I am a good person but I'm still negative towards myself

nothing I do will make my dad proud of me

crying is a weekly, if not nightly, ordeal that has become normal for me