closed doors~

Darkness crept onto our faces, as our inhibitions lowered with each sip of a liberating poison that pulsed through our veins and ran our tongues dry. The night was still young but we found ourselves struck by similar feelings and although your ties had held you before, sown into an eternity of unrequited love was a single fleeting moment where you were whole and you were mine. 

We approached people as a couple, drowning in the childish pleasures of our deception - so much so that we soon forgot where we had stood just days before. 

It was amongst the flashing lights that we hid our hands, blaming dance as we explored each others bodies with an eagerness that knew its time was scarce. You looked at me and I immediately saw your eyes, those eyes you must have grown accustomed to seeing each day we spent together, when I knew your heart was elsewhere. But tonight it was here. Soaked in alcohol, our lips began to spill with toxic and without a single word of confession, a thousand feelings were exposed as we broke hearts that were not ours and filled ourselves with passions we could not keep.

The first ray of sunlight signaled a new day and we once again became people, complete with lives and commitments that thwarted our euphoria as easily as it had come. And then I was alone. My body ached as my mind raced with thoughts of future implications, and whether there were any at all. I reminisced about how I had been infatuated with you and the countless times I convinced myself to forget you - when the pain was especially cruel and I had given up trying to tame it. The memories came flooding back, and I remembered the sharp taste of longing and how my tongue had felt it all too much - its prickling embrace my home. I dreaded returning to it that new day, because it was not a new day to say the least, for love was an abusive partner that had caged me in with the door unlocked. 

Yet though my mind was wrought with blows of self-pity and despair, my heart continued to sing one melodic line that I knew would stay with me for years to come.

There is a book that I have, and I am afraid to read it because once I do, it'll be read.

I also am using an iPhone. I feel really hip and into it all.