too weird to love, too scared to die

🌌 i need something bigger than the sky,

hold it in my arms and know it’s mine

Oh, but had the artisan who made me created me instead – a worthy woman... ...I would say "how lucky am I"

Father in heaven who did miracles for our ancestors with fire and water... ...Who would then transform me from a man to woman? Were I only to have merited this being so graced by goodness...

What shall I say? why cry or be bitter? If my father in heaven has decreed upon me and has maimed me with an immutable deformity then I do not wish to remove it. the sorrow of the impossible is a human pain that nothing will cure and for which no comfort can be found. So, I will bear and suffer until I die and wither in the ground. Since I have learned from our tradition that we bless both, the good and the bitter I will bless in a voice hushed and weak: blessed are you [HaShem] who has not made me a woman.

I personally hate any kind morality thought policing. I'm not Catholic or religious and I do not feel guilty over my thoughts. You are not an inherently evil person because you saw two athletes in an interview and went "Hmmm...... what if...." The Feds are not going to come banging down your door because you wrote about one band member dicking down the other and sent it to your friend.

Wondering about other people's lives is very human. Being nosy about their personal lives is very normal. People have been writing fiction about other people's lives since the dawn of time. Some people even manage to write New York Times Bestselling Books that are "historical fiction" or "alternate reality." It does not make you inherently bad to be curious about the details of someone's personal life. That's being human. Being nosy is kind of fun.

The problem, however, comes with the ways in which people engage with it, and involve the real people in this. Harassing an musician's real girlfriend because it doesn't fit into the RPF ship. Showing up at real sporting events holding signs about how certain teammates should kiss. Trying to get actors to sign art of them fucking their coworker. Flooding social media with comments using the celebrity's full name and speculation. There's a line, there's a fourth wall, and there's fandom etiquette.

I hate the question of "Is RPF ethical" because it feels like morality thought policing. Post your fics on locked accounts, censor someone's name when you tweet about it, blow up your groupchat with hundreds of "DID YOU SEE THE WAY THEY LOOKED AT EACH OTHER??" texts. It's not inherently evil to wonder what other people are doing when they're out of the spotlight. Kill the cop in your mind.

Of course, this is all a front. Everyone knows that, especially Batman, but the Joker is more than willing to let this go as long as it takes for Batman to at least start to believe the Joker has been reformed a little and then pull that rug right out from under everyone, because he knows the look on Batman's face when he just reverts back to form after that glimmer of hope he finally changed would be something he'd take a picture of and have turned into a wall-sized portrait to hang in his den. The best art does take time and suffering, after all.

oh boy Baby Jason is back via Lazarus pit I'm sure this won't go wrong at all no monkey's paw here.

Aw he's so cute though. I love how Baby Jason being a nerd is a multiversal constant. And Talia being a friend/mentor in a universal constant.

Being way too nice to the woman who got you killed: also a multiversal constant.

TOO BAD LONG LASTING LAZARUS PIT RAGE IS INDISPUTABLE CANON IN THIS UNIVERSE!

(Jason they definitely did bury you didn't you hear Barbara talk about how she dug you up)