Unbetitelt

Somehow likeable blossoms on weird looking branches. Call it a new style or something.

But yeah to be serious I‘m still trying hard to get proper results. Don’t expect a Picasso. I‘m doing my best to teach myself the basics from scratch.

This is one of the good versions which I also like in a way. Still 90% of my drawings are for the trash bin and not suited for the internet. So I won’t post them. ;P

I somehow discovered the beauty of clothes and its layers. I am aware that this is not really beautiful yet as I still try to figure out this drawing stuff, but I’m working on it. At least nothing is massively distorted or crooked like most of my other drawings which makes it a wee bit likeable.

As a child I always wanted to wear princess dresses, but I really soon lost any confidence I had when I was younger. What I always dreamed of was wearing that pink dress from „tři oříšky pro Popelku”/ “drei Haselnüsse für Aschenbrödel”. I really wanted to have that especially with the massive cape.

Therefore please Imagine this dress in pink with a blueish/ pink top part. Unfortunately I don’t have the appearance suitable for dresses, but at least I want to „design“ my „perfect“ dress roughly inspired by Cinderella‘s dress, although I neither have the skill to do that nor have any helping guide to learn it. It’s probably gonna take me some time to get there.

I think I should draw more often when I’m mentally not that well. I literally was in an absolute state of pure rage, stress and anger. Actually I started the drawing thing in general as a sort of extended therapy not really thinking that it’s gonna work out in any way. But here I was drawing this cutie pie while stressing due to a psychotic breakdown of anger I had once again some time ago. So I drew this to let out the pain not really intending this to be good. I know it’s absolutely simple and even boring but when I looked at it I sorta fell in love with this fella. Although it did not directly kick me out of my psychosis it held me off of doing something severely harmful to myself or others and that’s what matters.

Me in the beginning of a social interaction struggling to introduce myself.

Vs

Do I have a chemistry exam in a month?-Yes

Have I started studying yet?-No

Will I procrastinate until the day before, because I rather wanted to watch some old Animes and overly appreciate its beautiful women instead of actually studying, then stress entirely through the night and go to bed absolutely sure, I‘m going to fail this shit?-Yes

Am I going to die?-Yes, my teacher will kill me.

Was it worth it?-Yes

That are three birds I drew some months ago. I‘m feeling quite well with them tbh cause I think they look pretty good for my level. Of course I also have drawings I don’t like that much as they look like abused animals, but those are some I really fell in love with. Maybe I am going to draw some more birds in the future as I feel very comfortable drawing them, but at the moment I think I‘m focusing on things I‘m not that good at yet. At the moment I can’t draw that much unfortunately as I’m dealing with some big exams at the time, but in the evening when I find the energy to do something I draw either manga characters or nature though the manga characters are going a bit better. That’s probably due to the fact that I already tried to draw them when I was younger.

To be fair I „drew“ a lot when I was a child and I have once „taught“ myself how to draw birds already some years back when I was like between 10 and 14. I was bored very often at school so I drew during my lessons quite often, but it was always pretty bad looking. So that’s something that’s going off better than I thought I would be. Especially after a 4 years break with crippling hands.

Actually in general speaking I‘m quite proud of myself so far and how my pictures end up being better than I expected, cause I always got told how bad my drawings were and as I fell ill some years ago my hands started to worsen in their function than they already were before. So when I drew my first picture since I was like 16 or what I was literally so happy to see that my body was getting better. Generally, the drawings also help very much with my mental health. It’s really helping with my selfworth seeing that there are things I can do with a good result, but it is also partially bringing back my will to live. I don’t know whether that sounds stupid but I‘m starting to get curious about what I can do else and I am slowly working myself back to life, even though I know it’s gonna be a long way to go for me. Also looking back at those pictures makes me feel proud of myself as I drew them when mental health was so bad again that I wanted to end it right away but I didn’t. I drew instead. And I’m trying to fight my anxiety by posting them here. So please be nice.

I also have to say thank you to my teacher who was the reason I started drawing again. This really helped me a lot regaining joy immensely the last months. He made me feel like the old happy 10 year old I once was by giving me the feeling of a bigger brother I needed.

I really don’t know, whether it’s just me, but he really set me up for the 18th dynasty. Although I must confess, that the 18th is already the best even without him, but he makes it even better. At least for me. Please tell me, there’s anyone out there, sharing the same opinion or is it just absolutely basic?

Of course the 19th is cool as well, especially with Ramses l and ll, but personally with Hatschepsut, Tutmosis lll, Echnaton/ Amenhotep lV and Tutanchamun the 18th dynasty is the one with the most shit happening. (Especially Echnaton the dipshit.) At least that’s what I think about it.

For me it’s probably also sort of a childhood thing as I liked Yami Yugi/ Atem very much, when I was younger.

I‘ve just started this app again after a long term in which I deleted it. I’m really sorry if I should ever say or do something that doesn’t fit the apps social standards cause I‘m not good at socialising.

I have drawn this yesterday and somehow I don’t really like it that much. I really don’t know what went wrong with her face. It looks quite ugly to me and other people that I showed it didn’t like it either. Can anyone tell me what’s wrong?