vexed to nightmare

I hope that this time of my life that I’m experiencing right now where I clearly should be hospitalized but I’m too chicken to like do anything about it will culminate in a death and rebirth of the self in like a month or so where I’ll experience my chemical romance live again

discovered way too late that the sauce i used to make pasta had probably not been stored properly so let's see if i will get some food poisoning or something more serious in the next few hours

My next goal is getting a dvd of Suspiria and getting it signed by Dario Argento if I manage to go to his masterclass next week

everyone says " you shouldn't mind other people's opinion" and forget that human beings always have and always will be confronting each other and compare themselves to other people. it's built within us you can't do anything about it!! that comparing myself to others makes me miserable it's another story though

i don't think i could take another pandemic in less than 10 years tbh

got another functioning ipod nano at the flea market i'm invincible

everytime i see a mutual on facebook or irl post or talk about the fact that they bought a home i go crazy because i too want my independence so fucking much and i can't have it at the moment also the fact that my parents still want me to find a goverment job without putting trust in what i could do in my field is disheartning. yes i will try to get one when i lose all hope in myself don't worry

person that owes me money is not responding to me kindly saying hey maybe pay me back it's been two weeks