Secret Addiction

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She hadn’t been to sleep and it was already 4 am. She was annoyed and was trying to figure out where Rick was. The last time she had seen him he said he would be back by 1 am. He was probably out doing whatever with whoever. She really didn’t care, but she was noticing how disrespectful he was starting to become. The night before he kept entertaining another woman. Izara didn’t know who the girl was or where she came from, but whoever she was, Rick made it seem like she’s was the only one in his life. The girl kept staring at her and rolling her eyes. That should’ve been a red flag, but for whatever reason Izara let it slide. 

“Let me call you back, I just got here and I’m tired.” Rick walked into the bedroom and looked at Izara’s annoyance on her face.

”Who was that?”

“Some bitch I used to fuck with. Why are you questioning me?” Izara rolled her eyes and turned over.

“Why are you questioning me?” Stayed in her head. She didn’t know what to say, or she did and she just didn’t want to. She didn’t want to say how she felt, because she already figured out how he was. She questioned him the other night and he got irate. Seeing him get angry only made her feel away and after she didn’t talk to him the whole he tried to make up with a new Chanel bag. 

“So, why are you still talking to her?” Izara said, still with her back turned.

“You worried about the wrong shit, ma. I told you to stop worrying about shit that doesn’t concern you.” Izara sat up, gave him a look and decided to get up. “Where are you going?”

“Go to hell.” She put her clothes on and grabbed her Saint Laurent tote bag, pulling her cigarette out. Izara was annoyed and needed to leave as soon as possible.

Stopping her in her tracks, Izara lit her cigarette and blew smoke in Rick’s face. She knew that would upset him, but she didn’t care. He was being disrespectful once again and she couldn’t deal with it at the moment. 

“What the fuck did I tell you about that shit?”

“Honestly, I don’t care about what you told me. The fact that I’m asking you who you were on the phone with and you proceeded to tell me it’s some bitch you used to fuck with. That’s disrespectful as hell and you don’t even care. I’m honestly over all of this. I’m leaving and don’t even try to stop me.” Izara tried to take another step, but Rick back slapped her and she fell back onto the bed.

Izara reflexes had her fist landing on his right eye. Izara didn’t back down to no man, but she couldn’t believe this was happening. This fool was already showing his true colors and she couldn’t believe he even laid a finger on her. First the verbal abuse and now this? She knew she couldn’t let this little “relationship” continue.

“Ah, fuck....Bitch.” Rick grabbed her by her throat and slammed her back on the bed.

“Are you fucking crazy? Don’t you ever hit me!” 

Izara punched him and kicked him his balls. She got up quickly and grabbed her belongings. Before she knew it, she stormed out of his house with a quickness and left. She was over this.

It had only been a few weeks and Izara could finally say she was caught up. She hasn't spent this much time with a guy in about five years. From the wining and dining and gifts, she knew she was already in too deep. Normally she would get money and just go on about her life, but this right here was different. It was actually stressing her out and she needed to break loose. She was going to work less it seemed like and she was annoyed that Rick told her she needed to quit her job if she was going to stick around. Izara wasn't into quitting her multiple money flows just for a man, yet she inquired money from them. To her it made sense, but to Rick, it didn't. She knew he wanted her bad and Izara couldn't believe she was giving in. She realized she did too much and she was on her way into a relationship; something she doesn't really want.

Izara felt like she was watching paint dry on the wall as she kept her eyes on the eggshell colored ceiling. She reached over and grabbed a cigarette out of her new Chanel bag and lit it. She tried to stop smoking, but she was doing it more than usual. Her nerves were bad and she didn't know why. She couldn't really blame Rick because she's been making the decision to continue to talk to him. She wanted to take Adonis’s advice, but she didn't know him. He claims he didn't know Rick that well, what if this was all a setup?

Picking up the gold iPhone 8 plus, Izara quickly answered Randy's call. She knew she had been missing in action for a week, she hoped Randy understood.

”Hey, Randy.”

”Hey? Really Izara? I haven't heard from you in days. I called Zuri and she said she hasn't heard from you either. Are you okay?”

”Yes, I'm doing fine.”

”Izara, you missed two days of work and you haven't been home in a week. I don't think you understand how scared I was.” Izara put the cigarette out and rolled over.

”I know, and what's up with the government name calling, Randy? I'm fine, I've been with you know who. I told Chelsea and Sabrina I would be out for a few days.”

”Why though? This guy got you missing work? I didn't think you liked him.” Izara didn't think she liked Rick either. She was so confused.

Izara had to make up a phony excuse on why she couldn't go to work, but on the flipside, she told Rick she was quitting this week. She was only a few weeks into this with him and he had her doing things a girlfriend might do. Her mind wasn't where it was supposed to be and she needed to snap out of things. She didn't want to be a kept woman, especially for a man she barely knew.

”He doesn't want me to work, but you know how I am.”

”Okay, you've known him for what three weeks now? Not even a month and he's already telling you to quit your job? This isn't the Izzy I know.”

”I don't know, Randy. I'm so caught up and it's like, do I want to pass this up?”

”Pass what up?”

”Having a rich man taking care of me. I know I never been the type, but I'm tired of working though. Maybe this could actually work.”

”Okay, if this is what you want I’ll support you, but as your friend, I'm telling you its stupid. You don't know him and you even said it yourself. You're not trying to do any relationships with none of these guys. Izzy, this isn't like you.”

”Listen, if this can be my ticket out of Zuri's house then I’ll just have to deal. I'm tired, Randy.”

”Sounds crazy, but do you. I love you, but I know you don't want this. Anyways, I call you later.” Randy hung up and Izara sighed.

Izara didn't know why she was suddenly changing her mind. She didn't like Rick like that, she only likes what he was doing for her. She was now forcing herself to like him and this could actually hurt her in the end.

Searching through her makeup bag, Rick came into the room and placed a garment bag down on the bed and also a pair of shoes. Izara was wondering what it was and she knew whatever it was, it was most likely for her. Another gift she had to accept; she was getting pulled even more.

”Whats this?” Izara asked raising her brow.

”I want you to wear this tonight.” Izara pulled the zipper up and noticed it was a dress. The dress was cute, a little different from what she would wear. It was a nude crystal fringe dress, and it was short. The nude Giuseppe heels complemented the dress very well, she was actually impressed.

”Where are we going?”

”Prime 112 and then LIV. It's Juelz birthday and he's going back to New York tomorrow for a few months.” Izara’s heart felt like it dropped. Hearing where they were going and for who it was, she knew Adonis would be there.

Rick left out of the room and that gave Izara a chance to get dressed. She was noticing how she was starting to contradict herself, but that didn't stop her from putting that dress on either. She kept replaying Adonis’s words. She decided she would text Randy to see if she wanted to come. Izara refused to be alone with all these guys tonight.

can u come to LIV tonight?

Randy: I guess. What's the catch?

No catch, Randy.

Randy: k. I'll be there, just text me.

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The whole night was awkward and Izara was ready to leave. Randy was running late and Rick was being so overbearing towards Izara. If a guy even looked her way, Rick made it known she was with him. Adonis didn't make her night easy either because Rick had him keep an eye on her when she went to the restroom. That was very awkward considering Adonis actually volunteered that ”job”. She knew he would probably bring up Rick, but tonight wasn't the night for that.

”Okay, let's go.” Izara was appalled when she felt Adonis grab her arm and pulled her back.

”Why are you here? Didn't I tell you to leave this nigga alone?”

”Because that's who I’m with, A.D. Why do you care so much?” Adonis didn't say anything, all he did was shake his head.

”Shorty, I'm trying to get you to listen to me. This nigga don't give a fuck about you. After this, you going back to his crib alone.”

“You know what, I’m not about to listen to this. You sound like a hater.” Adonis, Shook his head again and followed behind her.

Izara was annoyed. Was Rick really going to take her back to his house and just leave her there? Deep down Izara already knew what kind of person Rick was. She picked up on his character on their first date. She already knew if she was the “main” lady in his life, other women would probably be around. Izara was used to guys doing what they wanted, as long as she got something out of it, she could care less. For some reason, this situation was actually bothering her. Between Randy and now Adonis, she didn’t know what to think. She was trying to give him the benefit of the doubt.

“Hey girl!” Izara got caught off guard by Randy. Izara was so happy to see Randy because she was tired of the awkwardness. ”Look at you! This is different for you.”

”I know. I don’t think I like it because this really isn’t me.”

“You look so pretty, so stop it. What we’re doing with him, though?” Randy pointed to Adonis and Izara rolled her eyes.

“It’s nothing, come on.”

Going back to V.I.P, Izara noticed she was drinking a little too much. She was drinking so much that it was making Randy a little uncomfortable. She had never seen Izara drink so much and even Izara was surprised at herself. She finally had put the drinks down and tried to enjoy the rest of her night. Which that was hard to do because she knew Adonis kept his eyes on her and Rick kept his eyes elsewhere. It was pissing her off because Rick wasn’t cool with guys looking at her, yet he kept entertaining this one girl half of the night.

“I’m ready to go.” Izara blurted out.

“Are you good?” Randy asked standing her up.

“Yes and no. I- I need to sit down.” Izara sat back down and that’s when Rick, Juelz, and Adonis decided it was time to leave. Izara was happy because she hated being at a club for too long.

Pulling into the driveway of Rick’s home, Izara head was spinning. She knew she needed to lay down, but she was feeling very lusty. She and Rick already had sex, so it wasn’t like this was going to be a first. She knew he wouldn’t refuse her and being a little drunk would make things better to her. Kisses on his neck would really do the job.

“Aye, chill.” Izara looked at Rick and was confused.

“What’s wrong with you?”

“I got something to do. Go in the house and I’ll see you later.” Izara was still confused and now she was disgusted.