Don‘t look for me

So we have been texting snd calling a few times.

BUT I found out that he is more than two years older than me. Also he is from another country and my parents won’t allow him.

He’s really nice and stuff but he’s lowkey only talking about his ex so I feel like I’m a replacement to him.

My best friend said that I should tell him in about a week or so that my parents said it won’t work between us and that way I can breakup.

But, today he told me he liked/loved me?

We know each other for a week and haven’t seen each other since the day we met so I have a feeling that it’s going way to fast and I don’t want that.

I didn’t vomit and I connected with one of my friends way better than before. We stayed up so we could see the sunrise but unfortunately there wasn’t one but the moon was very pretty

There was this one boy who was giving me mixed signals but he says it was only to get out friendship back but not I got a slight crush on him.

I am angry at another friend of mine and try to avoid her because she always says she loves me more than a friend and I do too but she doesn’t want to be together like girl.

My step father is leaving us because of money and that stresses me a bit.

There’s more but I think I’m done for today.

But it’s starting to get really exhausting especially that they want to find a guy for me too.

Problem is I am kinda in love with a friend of mine but I can’t say tell that anyone. She’s a girl. So now they are asking me if there’s anything new about boys and I always have to say no.

And it’s not like I am not interested in boys it’s just that no one is interested in me. And the thing with my friend is getting really complicated.

None of my friends used to have a relationship nicht now all of a sudden they all got into one and I am like still alone. It kinda feels like I’m left out.

Another thing is that two of my supposed best friends are meeting up alone all of the time. Yes they do ask me to come with them, but they know I don’t have time on these days and when I have time they do something else. The most annoying part of this is that they use insiders all of the time without explaining them afterwards.

Im such an attention seeking hoe it’s not healthy anymore I think.

But I do want to make an impression on people and if it’s being sick then I will be sick okay.

I also think that I am not using my life to its full potential but at the same time I want to sleep.