Not Forever. Just for Now.

To The Moon & Back — Savage Garden Drive Me Crazy — Britney Spears They’re Coming to Take Me Away — Napoleon XIV You Learn — Alanis Morissette Head over Heels — Alanis Morissette The Boy is Mine — Brandy & Monica Walkin’ on the Sun — Smash Mouth (Do You Know) What It Takes — Robyn Don’t Want to Miss a Thing — Aerosmith (WAPE bumper) Fantasy — Mariah Carey Inside Out — Eve 6 Everybody — Backstreet Boys ...Baby One More Time — Britney Spears

Supermarket in California--Allen Ginsberg I Want You--Bob Dylan California Stars--Billy Bragg and Wilco Such Great Heights--Sam Doan Fade into You(Cover)--Pedro the Lion Maps--Yeah Yeah Yeahs More Than Us--Travis Your Winter--Sister Hazel February--Dar Williams A Minute Longer--Stereophonics Waste of Paint--Bright Eyes No Children--Mountain Goats NYC--Interpol The Novelist--Richard Swift Mad Rush, Solo Piano--Phillip Glass I Don't Blame You--Cat Power For Emily Wherever I May Find Her--Simon and Garfunkel

Book store--Yann Tierson(Amelie) Lost in the Supermarket--The Clash(LondonCalling) The OC--The Assaul(Come on in Master) Bohemian Like You--Dandy Warhols(13TalesfromUrbanBohemia) This Charming Man--Death Cab for Cutie(YouCanPlayTheseSongswithChords) Charmless Man--Blur(TheGreatEscape) The Sporting Life--The Decemberists(Picaresque) The Distorted Reality is Now a Necessity to be Free--Ryan Adams(From a Basement on the Hill) Sneaky Feelings--Elvis Costello(MyAimisTrue) I've Got You Under my Skin--Frank Sinatra(OntheSwingingSide) Where Its At--Beck(Odelay) Dude Yr So Crazy!--Le Tigre(LeTigre) Game Shows Touch Our Lives--Mountain Goats(Tallahassee) Be Thou My Vision--Pedro the Lion(TheOnlyReasonIFeelSecure) The Novelist--Richard Swift(TheNovelist) Unfinished Words--The Rutles(Archaeology) Love is Hell--Ryan Adams(LoveisHellPt.1) Mr. Writer--Stereophonics(JustEnoughEducationtoPerform) Pale Blue Eyes--Velvet Underground(VelvetUnderground) Buddy Holly--Weezer(Weezer) You've Got Her in Your Pocket--White Stripes(Elephant) Call Me--Blondie(The Best of Blondie)

Take it or leave it--Jet I'm Happy Just to Dance with You--Beatles Oceanside--Decemberists Thinking About You--Radiohead This Modern Love--Bloc Party Some kind of Love--Velvet Underground Sparks--Coldplay She wants to Play Hearts--Ryan Adams I am Always the One Who Calls--Pedro the Lion A Perfect Sonnet--Bright Eyes Say Yes--Elliot Smith I'm so Tired--Beatles C'mere--Interpol Not a Pretty Girl--Ani Difranco I Want You--Bob Dylan

Blue Christmas--Bright Eyes Love Me Two Times--Doors A Minute Longer--Stereophonics Don't Go Away--Oasis I want You Around--The Ramones I still Miss Someone--Johnny Cash Missing You--Jem Wish You Were Here--Ryan Adams Wish You Were Here--Pink Floyd So Far Away--Carol King Everything Reminds Me of Her--Ryan Adams I don't Want to Walk Around Alone--The LuckSmiths I'll Be Waiting--Archer Prewitt I Just Don't Know What to Do with Myself--White Stripes Going Out of My Head--The Zombies Why Don't You Write Me?--Simon and Garfunkel Angel, Why Don't You Call Me?--The Decemberists You Belong to Me--Patsy Cline

The Weakness in Me--Joan Armatrading  I Don't Want to Walk Around Alone--The Lucksmiths Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want--The Smiths I was Meant for the Stage--The Decemberists Pretty (Ugly Before)--Elliot Smith Way of the Sun--Archer Prewitt Beautiful--Athlete Bohemian Like You--Dandy Warhol Quit Your Job and Go on Tour--The Assualt Art Star--Yeah Yeah Yeahs Noisy Summer--The Raveonettes Fade Into You--Pedro the Lion California Stars--Billy Bragg Such Great Heights--Sam Doan Second Skin--John Vanderslice Peach Plum Pear--Final Fantasy C'mere--Interpol Old College Try--Mountain Goats February--Dar Williams They Never Got You--Spoon I Don't Blame You--Cat Power One More Cup of Coffee--Bob Dylan Positively Lost Me--The Rave Ups Carry Me Ohio--Sun Kil Moon Try a Little Tenderness--Otis Redding And She Was--Talking Heads Left of Center--Suzanne Vega

Your Heart is Like an Empty Room--Death Cab for Cutie Mistakes We Knew We Were Making--Straylight Run No Regrets--The Von Bondies Maybe--Stereophonics Doughnut Song--Tori Amos Have to Explode--Mountain Goats Seeing Other People--Belle and Sebastian I Can't--Radiohead Dotted with Hearts--Horrorpops Love Can Destroy--The Raveonettes Undone (Sweater Song)--Weezer Somebody That I Use to Know--Elliot Smith Positively Lost Me--The Rave Ups No Children--Mountain Goats The Good That Won't Come Out--Rilo Kiley It's Cool We Can Still Be Friends--Bright Eyes Old College Try--Mountain Goats I Don't Blame You--Cat Power Just One of Those Things--Frank Sinatra We'll Meet Again--Johnny Cash Friends with You--Bob Dylan I'm Happy Just to Dance with You--The Beatles

Joan Didion: Yes, and the last sentence in a piece is another adventure. It should open the piece up. It should make you go back and start reading from page one. That's how it should be, but it doesn't always work. I think of writing anything at all as a kind of high-wire act. The minute you start putting words on paper you're eliminating possibilities.

It's Over and It's Over (I Can't Seem to) Make You Mine--The Clientele Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want--the Smiths Everything Reminds Me of Her--Ryan Adams Rest of My Life--Rilo Kiley I Know We Could Be so Happy Baby--Jeff Buckley Hey, I Really Love You--Lisa Brown Follow You Into the Dark--Death Cab for Cutie (judge not!) Your Hand in Mine--Explosions in the Sky Fire in My Heart--Super Furry Animals Is This Love?--Clap Your Hands Say Yeah Let's Do It(Let's Fall in Love)-Ella Fitzgerald (surprise) Ending Start--Metric Honey and the Moon--Joseph Arthur Anything for Now--Do Make Say Think Wish List--Her Space Holiday No Distance Left to Run--Blur (If There's) No Hope for Us--Arab Strap I Just Don't Know What to Do with Myself--White Stripes

Born on a Different--Oasis Stormy Weather--The Pixies Shelter from the Storm--Bob Dylan Have You Ever Seen Rain--Creedence Clearwater Rain Morning Rain--I am Kloot Rainy Days--Ryan Adams Rain--The Clientele Buckets of Rain--Bob Dylan Why Does It Always Rain on Me--Travis It's Raining on Prom Night--Me First & the Gimme Gimmes The Thunder Rolls--Garth Brooks Fire and Rain--James Taylor Damn, Sam (I Love a Woman That Rains)--Ryan Adams Dry the Rain--Beta Band Come Rain on Come Shine--Don Henley The Rainbow Connection--Kermit the Frog Somewhere Over the Rainbow--Judy Garland

Trains to Brazil--Guillemots Une Annee Sans Lumiere--The Arcade Fire Details of the War--Clap Your Hands Say Yeah I'll Believe Anything--Wolf Parade Dark Center fo the Universe--Modest Mouse Nomadic Revery--Bonnie "Prince" Billy Black Ice Cream Song--Mountain Goats For Real--Okkervil River Cause=Time--Broken Social Scene Car--Built to Spill The City--Dismemberment Plan Morning Rain--I am Kloot Ringing in My Ear--Adem Holland, 1945--Neutral Milk Hotel The Legionnaire's Lament--The Decemberists

I’m Stickin’ with You This Will Be Our Year-- The Zombies I'm Stickng with You-- The VU I Will Follow You into the Dark-- DCFC (so corny-- but an inside joke) Naked as We Came-- Iron & Wine Still in Love-- Cat Power Whenever You Breathe Out, I Breathe In-- Modest Mouse You're My Only Home-- The Magnetic Fields King of Carrot Flowers, pt1-- NMH (our song) Remember Me as a Time of Day-- Explosions in the Sky (crazy long break in the middle) Blues in Dallas-- TMG (he always says this is really romantic, I thought it went along with the DCFC) I Found a Reason-- The VU You've Got Her in Your Pocket-- White Stripes (this mix has a lot of stuff I stopped listening to and recently picked up) Rest of My Life-- Rilo Kiley (I listened to this song a lot when we were going to break up) Kingdom of the Animals-- Iron & Wine Things I Should Say-- Bears Twin Human Highway Flares-- TMG Long Time Ahead of Us-- Walkmen

I can remember thinking always that I was too big for my desk.  Which is why I use my kitchen table to write on now.  You gave me a prompt as if scribbling my first thoughts in some kind of stanza was going to prove I had talent.  But I guess I did.  I push through the awkwardness in that audition and many other moments— confident that everyone is as awkward as I am and that we all have some kind of anxiety.  I hate when we’re in a group and men only look to other men when speaking or responding. Hello, I am here, too.  You look for figures of authority and of course, I am nowhere close to your idea.  But... guess what?  I will pluck out your ingrown misogyny and lay the whole scene waste with awkward tension. Yeah, that’s right.  Who is too big for this space now? 

I don’t want to think  about how my home is  foreign to me.  I have enough trouble believing anything is my own

Isolation Journals

The Isolation Journals