Uncensored

So I have a record in my relationships. They never last more than a month. So when I met this guys a couple weeks ago I always feared the day would come when he would end things. And as it happens, tonight was the night he ended it. People tell you that life gets easier. But when I comes to relationships and break ups, I never ever gets easier. As someone who suffers from depression and bipolar disorder I have the unfortunate habit of falling in love with people very quickly. So yes, although it had only been three weeks of dating I was already starting to fall for him. For him to turn that away like its nothing hurts more than anyone can imagine. You may read this and just think I'm an over emotional drama queen, but at the end of the day this is my life, and this is the hurt and the pain I go through every time I meet a new guy. I long for the day I can just not worry if a guy is going to break my heart, but I guess for now the tears that flow are my only outlet.

If Only - Dove Cameron (Decendants)

Goodbye Until Tomorrow/I Could Never Rescue You - The Last Five Years