Vents And Rants

What in the endless incest was my dream even bro???

I tie to much of my self worth to this fucking computer, I’m so pathetic but it’s just proving how horrible I am at taking care of anything, I should just give up atp

Just so fucking annoyed at myself bro, I can’t do literally anything without messing up ughh I hate myself sm

My voice started getting raspy when I started coming over to my grandma without my parents… it just never recovered from what she did to me

I can’t do anything without needing to be pissed abt it or hate on it, can’t watch anything without being pissed or uncomfortable, can’t do literally anything- fuck me this is so fucking stupid- I’m so bored out my own mind I want to rip my own skin off and I have no relief other than the stupid fucken Lego show- pathetic ik, Godd kill me I hate this bullshit, I can hardly say I love my fucking partner without being ticked off about it!! Kill me genuinely

I will never forgive her for making me hate my own mother while placing herself as my true mom all while doing- that to me-

I am so fucking pathetic-

I’ve always been so insecure abt my droopy eyes but my partner seems to have a thing for eyes like that, makes me unreasonably happy to know one of my biggest insecurities abt my face is appealing to the man I consider my soulmate, perhaps I’ll allow myself a giggle or two abt it, sigh… I love my partner…

What a reward grandma… thanks-

The fact I still get SEVRE pain in my side if I walk even just for a wee bit is so fucking fun I love it