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Man I can't wait to smoke with her and get some more pussy, I'm so glad she is married.

So I did this because it was tearing me up mentally, emotionally and physically. Essentially I had to get her out of my system sort of speak and it really worked. Past couple nights of laying down beside her and there is minimum desire to want to cuddle. I just turn my back towards her throw on my CPAP and go to sleep. Just out of it. It took years for me to figure out what I needed to do for me, she said at one point I was her safe space. I would say at one point she was a trusted person for me, now I'm basically waiting for her to do or say something to be the final straw and I feel that already happened. Although I know that if I ask I will be looked at as if I'm making accusations and she would be very reluctant to tell me.

Mentioned how I feel and asked a few questions and yet to no avail no answers. Its a must to protect my mental, emotional and physical self.

#pussyigotsum

I think I'm done. With this marriage.