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Photos from my bike trip to Norway
Here's a poem I wrote, scored by my friend Jacob, I really want to try collaborating with people to make things more often. It's not something I've previously done much of but whenever I have done lately it's been really illuminating and a lot of fun.
Turned 40 yesterday so here's a little before and after of me in my garden 9 years apart wearing the same jacket and glasses.
Rare bird on the aerial, Work Money Death at the jazz festival, view from a window, my garden.

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"Other proprietary designs include the Modified Cube (United States, 1959), the Stabit (United Kingdom, 1961), the Akmon (The Netherlands, 1962), the Dolos (South Africa, 1963), the Stabilopod [ro] (Romania, 1969),[1] the Seabee (Australia, 1978), the Accropode (France, 1981), the Hollow Cube (Germany, 1991), the A-jack (United States, 1998), the Xbloc (The Netherlands, 2001) and KOLOS (India, 2010) among others."
From the wikipedia page on Wave Dissipating Blocks
"It was one of those experiences that you see occasionally in life where it really does appear that love, a little love in somebody's life, can really transform it."
Darragh Park talking about James Schuyler
I last read Brave New World probably twenty years ago, but I'm struck that the Soma of that world at least provided euphoric joy and the occasional break from reality, whereas here we got SSRIs that literally mean you can't come, and now peptides that apparently go further to kill desire itself and turn you into some kind of shredded boddhisatva, detached from want and unable to love, and the worst part is that if I'm really honest, being described as a "shredded boddhitsatva" doesn't even sound that bad because the idea of (non religious) enlightenment itself has been co-opted by the same culture that has now figured out a way to sell it back to us on a subscription model. At least meditation apps taught you a skill that you were free to use, I assume once you stop taking retatrudide your crown chakra immediately closes, probably tighter than ever before.
One of my many blessings is that strangers love to ask me for help because I seem non threatening and unhurried.
It's a book that's like being at the dinner table with an unruly extended family; everyone is talking at once, monologuing at each other rather than to anyone. People skip over parts of the story, contradicting each other and themselves. They either assume you're in on the joke or they are making the joke because they know it will upset you. Nobody knows how to tell a story in the correct order or justify their point of view as anything but common sense. Several of the things that you're hearing sound like politically motivated talking points that you don't agree with, but they're so outlandish that you can't even begin to figure out how to debunk them and whenever you do take someone at their word and attempt to engage, you find yourself catapulted off into some direction you never realised was connected. A jazz like sense improvisation runs through the whole thing but the prose is not virtuosic. The narrative voice is flat, arch, ironic and insincere. It is filled with scare quotes and exclamation marks that make your own internal dialogue do a juvenile sarcastic voice as you read it. There are minimal references to anything that could locate the action in time or space. The most high tech item that is mentioned is a microscope, Which presumably places the story at some point after the 1600s, and there's such a thing as a coal worker, though what that actually means is never explained. There's a character called Old Man Meng and Can Xue is Chinese, so maybe the story is set somewhere in China. The writer who is a character in his own right is sometimes referred to as the stenographer, so perhaps the story exists after the invention of typewriters though he only ever writes with a fountain pen, but really this technical nitpicking about set and setting is not relevant. It will not help you understand whatever is happening in the novel, and it seems as though Can Xue isn't particularly interested in helping you understand it either. She has said in interviews that her stories are written for the psychological benefit of herself, and that if someone can get something from them, then they are her intended readers. The novel does have the ring of free association, a direct channel to the subconscious of another being, not least of all because so much of what is described hinges around sex. Whilst never being so direct as to describe the act itself without using scare quotes or an innuendo, It's continually taking place or at least suspected to be, or at least suspected to be longed for, or theorised to be the motivation behind this or that community action. What little of a narrative through line exists is to do with a purported sexual affair that may or may not have happened in a darkened granary and there are paragraphs of text philosophising the best way to do it, who to do it with, when to do it, who is best at it and whether you should be doing it at all.
It's a book that feels as though it could be written through a political metaphor, like The Master And Margarita, but that to get through the censor, the metaphor had to be deepened and extended over and over again, until the final artefact speaks more to the tangled associations of the subconscious that carried the metaphor than whatever political meaning was originally intended to be put forward, and why not? I don't understand Chinese politics particularly and I don't want to have to read another book to understand whatever this one is about. I found the whole thing messy, it made no sense and it gave me a headache, but that's exactly how I would expect things to be if I stepped inside somebody else's head.

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minions
Where a chat interface promises an infinitely knowledgeable friend, the agentic interface promises a minion. The agent doesn't just bounce ideas off you, but does work for you, enthusiastically and endlessly, overnight if necessary and to the best of its ability. The abstraction of human action to a tool is a standard component of new technology, and with it worries about the loss of the human ability to perform that action. Many AI boosters point to Socrates' belief that the new technology of writing would make people forgetful and encourage a superficial understanding of ideas as a way to undermine similar arguments against AI usage. For the record I think Socrates' was right, but whether losing the ability to perform a certain type of work is something we should worry about on a personal level is not what is at stake anymore. Since technology has been coopted into a technocapitalist framework of moral progress, it now also carries a post hoc justification; that the old work was unworthy and the new technology will free us from it. (At some point maybe the promise of having less work overall would have been dangled, though tech overlords now prefer to scaremonger a future in which you just won't be able to work, with the underlying threat that you won't be able to get paid either.)
The old IBM motto, that machines should do the hard work, so people have time to think is at threat of being turned on its head, at least for certain kinds of work. The kind of work we're left doing is in choosing which tasks we farm out, which coincidentally is one of the primary skills of the professional managerial class, reinforcing a hierarchy that already existed. One which established that the highest role to which everyone should aspire is that of the task dispatcher who knows what work should be done and to what standard, whether they can do that work or not (and generally not). The promise of AI agents is that we can all be managers now, offloading tasks that must have been beneath us, or why else would technology have saved us from them?
Wheeler (1923) explained the ancient fascination of the honeybee as follows: "its sustained flight, its powerful sting, its intimacy with flowers and avoidance of all unwholesome things, the attachment of the workers to the queen -- regarded throughout antiquity as a king -- its singular swarming habits and its astonishing industry in collecting and storing honey and skill in making wax, two unique substances of great value to man, but of mysterious origin, made it a divine being, a prime favorite of the gods, that had somehow survived the golden age or had voluntarily escaped from the garden of Eden with poor fallen man for the purpose of sweetening his bitter lot."
The Social Insects
The meliponines take their common name from the fact that their stings are vestigial and cannot be used in defense. The workers of most species are nevertheless very effective in defending their nests from human intruders. They swarm over the body, pinching the skin and pulling hair, occasionally locking their mandibles in catatonic spasms so that before the grip can be broken, their heads tear loose from the body.
The Insect Societies - Edward O. Wilson
The hairpin turns this paragraph takes as it builds to the violence of its final revelation are stunning, and it's far from the only example in this book.
A boy tenderly holding his new bike, the light therapy glasses I bought to try and cure my poor mood, Heathrow Terminal 2 short stay car park, a darned sock, sweet potato ice cream from when I had people over for dinner and we forgot to take photos of the main meal, the new warehouse, view of an absolutely sensational sunset over my garden and two men standing next to each other wearing different clothes, but the differences only serve to highlight how similar they are.
I sent my friend D a link to the online album containing all of the outfit mirror selfies I had taken this year.
"I recognise the orange coat!" he said, which made sense because that photo was taken on the day I saw him last. In May he had returned to town for a few days and we walked through Granchester Meadows to the orchard tearoom, a common activity for tourists and first year students which I seldom bother with, always assuming the tearoom will be too busy and the walk too boring. But both were pleasant backgrounds for the important work of being in good company. A good day in a good outfit. The orange coat of course an inheritance from H, who somehow didn't see a single day of this year. It is XL, slightly large for me, unlined, made of a metallic nylon that seems like it will outlive me too.
Then today I wanted to make a minor celebration of the free writing practice I've been working on for the last few years. This has been the most successful year for it yet. Each month I open a new text file with the intention of putting 500 words into it per day and I was envisaging a folder filled with just twelve neat files, jan.txt, feb.txt and so on, but when I displayed the folder to word count it (130,000 words!) I noticed a few incongruous titles. Addendum, fragmentary poems, autosave files, the short story I wrote about snowdrops (another thing I will make a minor celebration of by linking here, also the other short thing I wrote about standing in Burger King, this thing about usernames, and this film review)
Curious about the content of one of the more enigmatically named files I printed it to terminal. There were nine lines of an unfinished poem about a holiday I went on in 2022 and a single note from a dream I must have had:
(...) Dreamt I saw D walking an old man wearing a long red coat across the street
I was struck by the obvious realisation (which had completely escaped me at the time) that the long red coat must surely be H's orange coat, and the man must have been me, and that perhaps in the dream I was watching D and I as we walked to to the meadows that day, and I wrote up most of this post to think about the strangeness of seeing this coincidence in my subconscious only now, by a chance happening, a conversation reminding me of a photo, and a text file telling me about a dream I don't remember. The coat itself surely a symbol of something, which I still can't see. But when I thought to check the timestamp for the file I can see it was last edited on April 19th. I had the dream at least a month before we went on the walk in late May.

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Northern hemisphere schools should teach how to survive winter as part of the curriculum.
Rail: How did you feel when you came out of the cage and went out to the street?
Hsieh: I had prepared my mind, but my body was weak. I felt as though there were wolves all around me. I could feel the sense of survival, an aggression in everyone. Sometimes I find I have no answers to questions about that experience.
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