Multicolor

Me, who knows better:

Brain: but school is important!

My ED: yeah, you can’t skip breakfast if you’re at home with your parents

Me: sounds convincing

honestly, I feel a lot of Anas have the “dying to be thin” mindset but I don’t count myself in. yes, an empty stomach feels great. yes, sticking to your calorie limit feels great. yes, losing weight feels great whereas gaining it, feels like failing. but you wanna know what doesn’t feel great? noticing your body shutting down. having trouble breathing when lying down, chest pain, a jumping, slowed down heart - all those things don’t feel good to me. they don’t make me euphoric because they’re a sign of me succeeding. they’re a sign of my body giving up and they scare me. a lot.

there is absolutely no use in being skinny if I don’t live long enough to enjoy my new body. I don’t care if I am already at my calorie limit for the day, I don’t care if it’s 3 am or if I just woke up, I don’t care if I was planning on doing a fast - if I feel like I am about to die anytime soon, I eat.

please do yourself the same favor. there is no shame or guilt in keeping yourself alive. doesn’t even have to be something crazy like a big meal. eat an apple. a slice of bread with cottage cheese. a salad. anything. just don’t ignore the signs. because if you’re being honest, you’re just like me.