Alec Lightwood

That night I lost you, I lost something inside me. Or perhaps several things. Something central to my existence, the very support for who I am as a person.

- I’m only sorry I hurt you. - I’ve learned that that’s bound to happen when people care about us, and we do not. - I do care about you. - But you don’t care about yourself.

SEBLEC AU (More Than A Ghost): Jonathan survived being stabbed with Heosphoros. Living at the New York Institute he tries to start his new life as good as possible, but that is easier said than done when you are surrounded by the people you hurt the most in the world and no idea of how to redeem yourself. After he Clave agrees to remove the heavenly fire that raged inside him, things seem to go up for a while, before Jonathan finds himself in a deeper hole than ever before. He feels overwhelmed and hopeless and starts injecting himself with demon blood in order to feel like himself again. When Alec discovers this, their fragile relationship threatens to fall apart and Jonathan loses all will to to live. He attempts to take his life, but Alec finds him in time & they are left to pick up the pieces.