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thinking of the ways you should be taken advantage of by people you’re friends with and would never want to think of sexually.

thoughts about your teachers, parents, aunts, uncles, grandparents, family friends. people you would never want to touch you like that.

being convinced you’re only worth anything if they want to have sex with you or that the only valid form of affection/love is sex.

seeking out people who you know will only pay attention to you for sex, who only want things from you for sex or sexual favors, even if you don’t actually want to do these things.

being unable to even have flashbacks in peace because here comes the wave of being horny even though you’re upset and now you want to rip your body apart more.

wanting to apologize to your partner after a fight by giving sexual favors to make sure they still love you.