I'm scared of opening up. The moment I put something out there for people to notice, I feel like I want attention. I want someone to be curious about me and maybe I want the attention, maybe I want to feel taken care of, because I'm tired of taking care of myself. If I'm exhausted of myself why won't I drain others too? Maybe I am too much, for myself and for others. I might accept it but I can't accept the hurt I feel. I keep fighting it, unable to make peace with it. I don't think I'm that hard to love, but time and time again everyone has proved me how difficult I am to be with. So I don't know which version of me you will come across, I hope I make the world a better place for you.