pink rabbits

i had a really really really really good day today and i was 100% pain free the entire time thank u to the psychedelic diet of acid and mushrooms while on holiday a few weeks ago. Life is so SO good sometimes- when im well enough to live it- that it almost doesn’t feel real.

nothing more satisfying than getting violently high in my bathroom at like 8pm after finishing training at the gym and i’m finally done w my day. i have worked extremely hard over the last three months and think maybe now im finally starting to see some kind of return on my investments. the re-discovery of Tiny pleasures !

Emotionally i’m in a pool with a gun

i’ve just started reading jung. man & symbols. ive just woken up in the middle of the night which is very funny to me. so im now getting stoned at 2:48AM bc i can. Feeling less weighed down by negative metacognition this week

its wild how chronic pain has totally and utterly disconnected me from desire in all of its forms. i can see and feel my life passing by me in real time. its hard to feel like there is anything worth living for when youre not well enough to enjoy it. i would love to experience melb in its totality, meet some new ppl, experience smthn new..... i cant even dream abt it anymore. blank-slated/ shellshocked.

very much looking forward to my last meeting of the day (in 15 mins), and then i’m going to get violently high, have a 30min hot shower, and then go to the pub and trivia w my friends!!!!! i don’t think i can express how excited i am to indulge in any kind of activity mid-week that isn’t going to a pain specialist appointment, the psychiatrist or the gym. i am ELATED

Desperately Seeking Psilocybin