I started sewing together a lot of white cotton gloves, to make the big textile that will surround the performance shown in VR headset.
Glowes as a reference to both mime artists and the early cave paintings, and also hands as the tools which upbring us, teaches us, is caring, creative: hands creates, but it is also what distroys.
Notes and thoughts from while I sew:
I’m not thinking about climate. I’m avoiding my responsability. I avoid thinking about it because it’s a hyperobject. But my child…
So sewing together these fools gloves, I decided to think about it. And I’ll invite other mothers to think with me. A phenomenological sewing club. (Research old sewing clubs).
To sew together the glowes are really difficult. They don’t fit, and it takes really long. It stroke me that they are a puzzle, a riddle I am to solve. And this is what I love. Do I do it because it is a relief to solve something? The feeling of managing something concrete and physical? Because I get great pleasure of making it fit. Solving the riddle. I make something that doesn’t fit, fit. And this is the opposite of what I do with my responsibility as a citizen regarding the climate? And for my child regarding this..
The fingers of the glowes gets in the way, for almost every stitch I have to lift fingers and hands that get in the way. I have to Get back to the stitches. The line. The road of the thread, the meeting point of two separate objects. It’s a meditation. I wish to be present, think about what I decided. And wvery disturbing finger or mistake I now decide to be a reminder of me falling out/drifting off or deviate away from or the topic.
There is too many fingers. Too many unconscious hands. (Are the hands representatives for people?)
I think I switched to draw(sewing as drawing) on textile instead of paper, because textile is mobile. And perhaps also because textile can be made into a space/room. Or warm you. It’s a closer material than paper. Closer to the body. Textile warms you, when on your life journey. (Care)
I realized I did it again: selecting ideas and figuring out I invented a new way of meditating. I think I have a strong, yet unconscious, longing for harmony. If I stop, it’s there. It whispers often. But I rarely stop and take the time to listen. But when I finally stop planning and go to the material and start the idea, I realize again and again, it’s a new way of meditating. Every time a bit more difficult technically.
Another note I have to keep:
The viewer has to take on a fools hat to see the performance work in the VR glasses. Perhaps this: Care and responsibility: We are fools, distributing our own home, but the archetype the fool also is wise (in their folly), because in their folly they are not claiming he knows anything, but is as a blank sheet, open and pure as a child, and therefore still has direct contact with their conscience(as children has). This is perhaps why I use the fool again. For me they are the perfect symbolical character of the humans potential. And they are silent because they do not talk earth language, but universal language of the collective subconscious archetypal symbols, and gesticulates through humour and emotion. So realizing we are a fool, is forcing a starting point. And I wish to give a viewer something about care, or an act of care to them, in the performance. Perhaps ASMR? Whispering to the viewer?
