When you finally realize what has happened to you but you already described it all wrong and in the wrong way and with the wrong excuses and to the wrong person in front of the wrong crowd and so now you either have to fully be the villain or the victim and you can't handle being both at the same time because then you'd have to deal with both and that's just too fucking much.
I choose villain. It has always been easier for me to hate myself and hurt others.













