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@duckbunny on wanting to live

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The ineffable husbands as "Couple Dancing" by Leyendecker

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Date of writing: June 2nd 2021

A palestinian worker was injured after an Is*aeli bus hit him.

2 Palestinian children were detained by the IOF (ages 16 and 17)

Is*aeli settlers set fire to Palestinian villagers' crops.

The IOF demolished many Palestinian commercial facilities in North East Jerusalem.

15 palestinians lost their homes due to the demolishing and confiscation of their tents and homes.

Multiple Palestinian children were detained in a checkpoint on their way to school.

(video of journalist Zaina Al Halawani after being released)

Anybody else think that when somebody dies theyre seperated into their innocent selves and their limbo selves? As in like the part of themselves that will be forgetful of certain things like ghostbur and like wilbur in the afterlife

Cause based on tommys stream "the plan to kill dream" where ghostbur is acting all off and mentions talking to him earlier even though he hadn't, added onto schlatt being in his gym when tommy said he had been sleeping in limbo, its very peculiar right

And "tommy" talking to ghostbur was very soon after he died. So what im thinking, is that when a person dies, they might be able to choose which form of themselves lives as a ghost in the "real" plane

Like the part where resurrection is a thing is obviously making them alive but i think it could also be like a reversal for the different sides if being dead?

You know it's interesting how tommy like isn't okay with other people doing their own thing

Like i dont know it if it's a self-centered thing or some internal thing where he can't imagine everyone else having their own lives when he knows that dream is the biggest bad once again

Bc he says something long the lines of "the server has always just been me and tubbo against dream" which is so, I don't want to say narcissistic, but like very egocentric of him like he can't wrap his head around the fact that other people can exist

Tommy is okay with others living their lives, he just seems to have a fear of being left out. Tommy’s character is not one that deals well with being alone and wants others to care about him. This is why, for instance, his exile hit him so hard, because he was scared to face the idea that his friends might not care about him, and that L’Manburg was better off without him. Additionally, in prison, he was deathly afraid of being trapped alone in the cell forever, preferring even to be trapped with Dream as at least that was company even as he’s longing to be free of Dream and wants him dead. 

So upon reentering the server after having been gone for a while, he sees people having moved on. Tubbo has a new best friend and he’s build his own inn. Jack has taken Tommy’s hotel and seems to have preferred him dead. Connor has taken his home. Everyone’s treating him different and he feels alienated, like he’s not a part of the server anymore.

Now his latest stream was his initial reactions to everything and he’s not in the best headspace. He is not thinking clearly and is letting his fears and emotion control him. In the moment, he talks about wanting the server to be like the past, where he was best friends with Tubbo and they were fighting Dream together. But I don’t believe Tommy wants to fight Dream because of some sense of self-importance so much as he feels like he’s the only person who sees how big of a threat Dream is - because he believes that Dream will escape and bring back Wilbur, whom Tommy is afraid of for some reason. 

Tommy is somewhat self-centred in this stream in that he’s wrapped up in his own feelings and they are colouring his perception of everything but I don’t believe he’s especially egotistical. (In fact I interpret his character as having a low sense of self-worth, and that’s partly why he’s so desperate for others approval.) 

Also like all your points are so incredibly true like I'm not at all taking everything else into account at all, which is why i do find it weird because he only seems self-centered in only that stream and i can't tell if it's because he's all changed from his death or what.

Though, now that I think about it, deadbur did say something like they were too good for the server, which may be coming into play if he's been talking with tommy the whole two months I think it was.