losing me is better than losing you

being 13 was crazy cuz it's like no one is coming to save you. there's only one option and it's to read about band guys having gay sex

i could overanalyze my favorite characters and why i love them for days on end but henry bowers bites me every single time because like. stephen king wrote a story about breaking the cycles of abuse and how looking away from the hurt you see makes you just as bad as the people participating and then he wrote about a kid who was violently abused and sexually assaulted. and everyone in canon knew that it was happening to that kid. but he was like. yeah. that one doesn't make it out. that one doesn't ever get to escape. he's just stuck there. everyone else? oh, they make it out in one way or another. but he's there forever. and i'm so fucking insane about it.