Sandra Easter

Aisling has always lived with one foot in the world of the living, the other just beyond hell. As a small girl, she would watch the storms raging in hell in her dreams.She found comfort in her demons, where she didn’t with people. They were her constant companions.She was always alone and ostracized by others, but hell was always there.Even whilst she slept, they reached out to her, beckoning her…

Where were you last night? A deep dark place, one of unknown origins and of complete fright. I didn’t know where to go or where to even start or how to escape. I was just in the unknown of an endless void where there is no beginning and no end. Just no cessation at all and what a real bummer that sounds like. A real boring thing to say, right? But then again, it is boring, at least it can be.…

My head swims in the oceans of possibilities Dreaming of you every night Wishing for a lifetime when life is half over Thoughts of being old and gray with you Fills my heart with hope for things I haven’t yet had You light a fire in my heart that’s been absent a long time So many desires yet to be had I’d like to see this through to the end – Tell me baby, are we names in the sand or…

In Dew covered meadows we dreamt as we slept, As the world spun ’round  us, in our tragedy we wept. A lonely mountain as tall as it was far, Always reaching for but one lonely star. Through sun and through rain,  through joy and through pain, In distance and closeness through all it maintained. Always growing and reaching yet ravaged by winds Through all of these things, we will always be…

I’ve told myself that I’m okThat this situation is bearableI’ve lied to myself Hoping my heart would listen I didn’t think I’d want moreIt was never supposed to be like thisWe crossed a lineAnd there is no turning back I wasn’t supposed to fallYou weren’t supposed to be everything We were supposed to remain friendsBut you broke into my world How do you not love what was always wanted?How do…

The warmth of your embrace Sends my heart soaring with eagles It’s my campfire on a cold nightMy safety net on the rickety bridge of life I can feel your breath on my neckWhispering words I crave to hearAffirming your place in my lifeMy place at your side, at your feet While no other can have this power over meYou wield it with the loyalty of a WolfThe grace of a leading StagWith the strength…

The dream life I wanted, I see you liveI hear your stories and my jealousy growsMy silence is the only response I can give I hear you complain of things not right But all I can see is what I wantAnd while I wish, I drop those into a deep, dark well It’s the unspoken words I hope you never hearThe thrown away wishesThe truth under my harsh words I remain by your side, I couldn’t bare to partSo…

The reoccurring thoughts in my mindOnes that bring my heart to shamblesAre a taste of my current reality This feeling of failureThe growing jealousyIs unreasonably festering in my soul There is no blame to be placedIt’s the path of my lifeMy nature to nurture Don’t follow me down this rabbit holeThe storms will swallow you upStrike your heart and leave you hallow This is my karmaI’m living in…

A Prison of Your Own Making

You opened a door that will never shutThe damage is done and growingThe truth to its reason come to surfaceNothing I say will make you see I see the struggle you go throughThe pain it causes youThe hurt you try to hide from meI see the truth behind your blasé facade I want to pull you into my armsHold you close, away from everythingBe everything for you, to youMake every smile genuine I see…

I never wanted to need anyone againI wanted to be my own, never open againYou were always there to quell my tearsAlways a steady presence I could trustA shoulder I needed more than anything You found your way through the hedge maze of my heart Even while I laid the bricks to keep it safeYou planted the dragons to fight the fears that plagued meYou reinforced my walls behind youFound the keys to…

These thoughts of mine, they eat at me every eveningThese doubts and fears come from the deep recessesThey creep on me as the day comes to an endPull the shade on my sun and my mood Overthinking overrides my sensesThoughts flood my consciousnessWithout you there to keep the darkness awayI fall into this pit and the light has been swallowed My lungs constrict, my heart beats harderThe anxiety…

This road we are onIt’s beaten downWeathered The skies are angryRoaring and clashingScreaming pain at our deaf ears The door to heaven are lockedWelded shutWe’ve abandoned God too long Hell has risen to EarthThe Devil resides in our neighborsIn the leaders we follow The end has come to swallow us upWe just keep marching onOblivious to it’s gaping mouth God have mercyWe don’t see the damage…

Pull Up and Out

I watch and fight for you I keep watch and give all I can Right out of my reach You make me feel helpless against your pain I see the film of your life As a spectator that can’t join in I see your struggles And scream as I might, you hear nothing I want to hold you close Tell you things will be ok Be there to make the day pass  Make the sun rise on your horizon Life isn’t…

This tender heart of mineIt wants you more than the blood it pumpsThis observant head of mineIt sees where your attentions lies I lay brick by brick to cage this heartMake the grout as strong as steelThis wall will not falter againI won’t leave your side, but you won’t be let in Your soft words attempt to break throughMy head refuses to stop building that wallIt’s going to be up to the heavens…

This big heart of mine, It’s a curse to contain in this tiny bodyTo feel it’s painIs to feel the stones of time pressing inThis ability to forgiveIt’s a torment to containFor it gets abused And taken advantage ofThis overthinking mindIt clashes with unclear intentionsPuts circles with no end in sightConstant stress and painBeing me is hardSo much harder than I let onFeeling your emotionsIt…

That picture is a reminder of herBut you keep it on displayYou get jealous But you won’t let me inYou get angry at my freedomBut you won’t let me have youYou expect me to wait loyallyBut the double standards hurt meYou disappear all day without a wordBut you miss meYou say one thingYour actions say something much differentI’m addicted to youAddicted to the emotional roller coasterI’m nearly…