SanDiavolo

Hi there!

I couldn't sleep, so I just had to get this out before i went to bed. I know it's been such a hectic time since my last post. From severe author's block to getting eye surgery to a hectic start of my senior year at college. So, I wanted to announce a few things I think could help clear the picture as far as what the status is on my story:

As the Ash Cloud Passes Over WILL CONTINUE! THAT IS A PROMISE! It took a lot of recent soul/fandom searching, but I feel invigorated with writing again! I'm hoping to post the newest chapter within about a week or so. There are just a few details I'm working on, but it's coming!

2. I WANT TO GIVE MY FAVORITE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD (you, the readers) ABSOUTELY EVERYTHING! There is about 80 days until until the release of Avatar 3 (SO EXCITED!!!!), and I wouldn't feel right with myself if I didn't at least try to get through ATACPO before then. BUT, should it not come to that, I wanna open the floor to any questions you guys have that pertain to literally anything in my story (Trr'ong/Ash Na'vi lore, ideas, future chapters, etc.). it could even be about the upcoming Avatar: Fire and Ash! I would for sure mark any spoilers for those who want to keep it a surprise, but trust me, it is a near BOTTOMLESS PIT of ideas I have for this story. And I think it'd be fun to get back to interacting with y'all, whether it's on Tumblr or on AO3!

3. On a more personal note...@anka-partizanka-from-pandora, @spider209...IF YOU ARE READING THIS, I NEVER STOPPED LOVING YALL!!! ANKA, I NEVER STOPPED CHERISHING/LOVING YOUR ART, IT IS THE GREATEST LIGHT OF MY DAY!!! SPIDER209, I WANNA GET BACK INTO OUR LITTLE EXCHANGES, JUST PLS BE PATIENT WITH ME, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! I never wanted to ghost anyone. For a while, I felt like I at least owed a 'Posted Chapter' alert with my responses, so I just kept keeping myself hidden 😞 But I see the error of my ways, AND YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST THING THAT'S EVER HAPPENED TO ME AND I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU! CHECKING UP ON ME EVEN WHEN I STAYED SILENT FOR THIS LONG--I DON'T DESERVE YOU!!!

4. Lastly, but probably most importantly, I want to thank everyone and anyone who's been with me every step of the way or who's just joining recently. I never once stopped looking at this. Near countless weeks/months, staring at my screen practically wishing for the words to type themselves, it was deeply saddening how I might have let you guys down. But then, I found out that I've kept getting comments on AO3 or questions on Tumblr, and it reignited something inside me. I feel like I feel that same passion, what I first started with, and you guys are the reasoning behind this. So, as a way of saying thanks, I'm going to continue writing. I just hope that wherever it leads, I can keep that same passion I had with you guys every step of the way 💙

Broken Mirror: A Tale of Two Spiders (A.k.a. Trauma dumping to prove I'm alive, and that my head hurts)

Kaltxì (Hello), friends and readers. It has been a long time.

I want to take the time to apologize for this dissappointing turnout for ATACPO. All I can say is that this has been a vicious case of writer's block. Alongside that, these last two months have been harsh. And to be honest...I've been burned out to the point that it's hard to think somedays. At times, I'll just stare at the draft on my computer for hours on end, then restart the entire draft only to stare off again. It's been this cycle for a long time, and I'm just trying to fight it as best as I can. I hate that this tales away so much from my favorite pasttime of writing, but it's been a struggle.

HOWEVER, this does not mean i am finished writing.

I want to bring up ALL the comments, all the bookmarks and new followers. I want to mention @anka-partizanka-from-pandora and @spider209 for being my lifelines in this fandom. For their art and messages that have been my escape from the anxieties of life so many times. I want to thank all everyone who has even glanced at ATACPO. I've said this so many times it's probably losing value, but not to me, because I've never been more thankful for such a community for engaging in my creative side. I want to thank you guys for being patient with me. And if I have already been deemed unworthy by you; I understand, but thank you for being a part of this journey. There is no better blessing than for a story to have come this far.

So many things to say.

I'm crying cause I love you guys so much. @anka-partizanka-from-pandora, @spider209 both deserve the entire world on a silver platter from me. College is hard. Not-So-Fun fact: trying to become a Veterinarian is pretty challenging.

Lastly...

The Way of Fire is eternal.

An endless cycle of birth and rebirth, the flame surrounds you and burns bright within you.

It is the spark that graces your first breath, and the fallen ember upon your last.

Our spirits rise in the dance of flame, our hearts pulsing in the forge of the world.

Fire connects all things—ashes to sky, darkness to light, death to life.

In its heat, we find truth, guided by its glow.

From the fire we were born, and to the fire we shall return.

Of course!

It goes without saying, but I’ll take any chance to spread the beauty of @anka-partizanka-from-pandora’s artwork! THIS, is my daily appreciation for them 🩵

A mere spark emerging from the sea of fire, dancing through the darkness as light that was needed. The great flames guided his birth, burning into the skin of his heart, coating it gray. 

A lost soul, now found by those with bloodstained hands. Yet Spider had been welcomed into the only kindness his life has ever seen. From the depths of the shadows, Spider has become a warrior of the Txepìva clan, and now, his calling is here.

As a human, Spider was weak. But as Ash Na’vi, Trr’ong was capable of things far beyond the comprehension of others. Without one or the other, he is nothing. 

It is time he reminded himself of which one he was.

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...but even a wounded creature conceals its claws in its desires to live, until it can strike. Always be prepared...

He cried out, in shock and in pain. The front kick—his arms blocking an instant too late—sent him flying back to the edge of the circle. He managed to flip backwards to catch himself, but nearly caved in under the jolt of pain that sent shockwaves from the bruise on his lower abdomen, purple skin muddled by bright orange and gray.

DRIP-DRIP

Blood dropped from the injury for a moment, he stopped. His eyes were wide and staring—two brown, reddish holes—studying his brother with a new wariness in the dull glow of the morning sea. 

Ch. 14 of the Ash!Na'vi Spider AU takes place the morning after the assault on Awa'atlu. With hundreds of Metk'ayina recovering from the dreaded attack of their mortal enemies, the Txepìva Clan, two particular Omaticayan teens are in the greatest race of their lives, hoping to reach their human-turned-Ash-Na'vi friend before he dissappears from their lives, again.

Kiri and Lo'ak already knew it was never going to be easy to find Spider/Trr'ong. They just didn't think it came with meeting an intense, semi-psychopathic Na'vi with a bit of anger issues, a man coated with enough scars to last at least six lifetimes, and a woman who could melt skin with her gaze alone.

Across the way, Trr'ong is dealing with his own inner turmoil, but...his family of daunting, ashen-skinned Na'vi is with him. He can't leave them, he doesn't want to leave them. When it becomes too much he finds solace in the only comfort that he's ever found...even when it comes at a price.

In other words, my apology after literal 2-month hiatus 😅 I love you guys for all you have done for me, it means so much that you might even bother to read this. But this story is truly a blessing to me, and I only hope you guys enjoy it as I do.

Enjoy! 💙

P.S. Door is still open to any questions, theories, or comments, especially cause I wanna help you guys enjoy it as much as possible

Warning: long rants ahead.

Contents Ahead (skip ahead if you want, pls):

Apologies

Thank You's

Avatar 3 News

As the Ash Cloud Passes Over Update

Greetings and salutations all! I would like to start out by saying I am so so so sorry for disappearing for awhile. To put it quite simply, I have no excuses to make nor reasons to claim behind my lack in progress. I have had so much time these last two months to write, and I somehow fell into a constant cycle of procrastination and forgetfulness where I was completely aware of what I was doing. It's not that I even fell off the Avatar fandom or was busy, I'm just a terrible writer (it's natural for me to be overtly honest with myself, I swear it's not worrisome at all!) BUT I am so happy to let y'all know I've gotten back in the groove! Inspiration has hit me hard, and I feel the need to type like there's no tomorrow. Again, I am so sorry for anyone who's ask I may have missed/comment I may not have replied to/or question I left unanswered 🙏

First off, lemme just say this. @anka-partizanka-from-pandora is the SINGLE GREATEST ARTIST AND PERSON I HAVE EVER HAD THE PLEASURE OF WORKING WITH! Truthfully, they deserve your love, you guys! I do not care if it gets tiring or old to hear, b/c I mean it with my entire heart when I say Anka has been holding me up in times of writers block and troubles with writing. They are my partner, friend, & inspiration. I love ya, Anka 💙

I recently saw the videos and images for Avatar 3 and I just gotta say...LET'S. FREAKING. GOOOOOOOOOO!!!! The Ash Clan is sheer horror and I am already in love! The flying creatures are insanely awesome, especially the Medusa floating ship, LIKE WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON?! I DON'T KNOW BUT I LOVE IT! And lastly, I'm just gonna put this out there, VARANG HAS LITERALLY STOLEN MY HEART! Sharp claws, frilled headress, a cloak of severed kurus (possibly)?! SLAY QUEEN! I genuinely don't think I will be able to root agasint her, but we'll see. And I do think I will be trying to change up a few things to include what little info we have gotten so far. It's just too good to pass up on!

I am proud to announce that As the Ash Cloud Passes Over Ch. 14 will be published very, very soon. I mean within the next few days 😁 It has been so long, so I plan to send this one off with a bang. I'm talking angst, lore, action, a sick splash of Ash Na'vi Spider, the whole she-bang! And tomorrow, there will even be a special sneak peak!

Warning: slight body horror, scars, healed injuries

a.k.a, a bit of a sneak preview at at what we'll be diving into very soon in the next chapter of my fanfic, As the Ash Cloud Passes Over, which is centered around Pandora's very own native human child being taken in by the Ash Na'vi at a young age🔥

THE CONSTANT WARRIOR (AND HIS SCARS)

(Drawing credit goes to @anka-partizanka-from-pandora 💙💙💙)

To commemorate the mystical ability of Anka's storytelling-through-art, I want to discuss a big upcoming topic for my story: Spider having scars whilst part of the Ash Na'vi.

To recap for some, ATACPO follows a world where a very young Spider was found and absorbed into the desolate clan of the Txepìva, the Ash Clan. Where the Tayrangi are masterful ikran riders, and the Aranahe are known for their skills in weaving, I thought to make it where the Ash Na'vi are proficient in the art of war.

At the first break of childhood, any normal Ash Na'vi trains beyond what their body allows. And even then, they will only train harder. B/c that last practice swing, or tiring spar between a clanmate could truly be the difference between life and death where they come from. With that, there will definitely be plenty of hardships along the way.

Case in point, every single person of the Txepìva carries a wound of sorts.

Whether it is the byproduct of a harsh training or a small dispute between your peers (children, teens), the ongoing war with their longtime enemy, the Metka'yina (adults), or even the mark of wounds that can foretell ones entire lifetime (more aged Na'vi), no other Na'vi Clan share as many scars as the Ash Na'vi do. But they are viewed as more. To them, scars are seen as one's abilty to fight, their abilty to struggle & protect, and testify to how they stood strong against a foe that likely went for their neck. To the Ash Na'vi, scars are more than abided, they are regarded as a testimony of inner strength.

Then comes in a young Spider, who is finally cherished for his blemished skin (even when it is tan instead of gray).

When he first drops by unannounced, Spider has unfortunately already accumulated his fair share of scars (as seen above), a key story to his growth into one of the Ash. By then, the human's self-esteem is already shot to pieces. He's used to the way those of the Omaticaya regarded his human skin with disgust. Now, he thinks he's gotten even uglier with his deformed skin. This scary Clan he's discovered, however, does not see it that way.

When the Ash Na'vi first behold the tiny human, they see a lost soul grieviously tortured by his upbringing (a once-bright spirit now a dwindling ember). They are then told his story (told with years of buried anguish and trauma) and hear how he suffered under the name of his long-dead father. How it prevented him from being one of The People. It's enough to break even the strongest of spirits entirely.

And yet, to see Spider with them now, means he not only lived through it all, but he survived. They see it as him managing to crawl out of the pit of despair he was thrown in. Like a true warrior, he fought against the shadows of his mind, and heart. To see one as young as well, have lived such a life, softens even the heart of the Ash Olo'eykte, Varang. And that just makes him a absolute shoe-in for a type of Clan that knows what its like to live through the dark side of Na'vi history.

When the Sully's first see them while on Awa'atlu though, they are blown away and aghast at the sheer sight of them. It hurts to see how their old friend has been through so much. It also puts Spider on edge, which then puts the entire clan on edge, b/c they absolutely despise it when Spider thinks he looks anything but magnificent and beautiful in his own skin.

This has been such an absolutely compelling aspect of the story to me, one I cannot wait to share. To not just write this AU, but to write it from the perspective of Spider, is absolutely baffling. But I hope you guys can enjoy what I have to offer. I'm alwasy open to any ideas/comments/thougts 💙 Ciao, y'all!

The newest chapter of 'As the Ash Cloud Passes Over' arrives with a twist.

Everything happens as we all remember. While on the search for Jake Sully, the Resources Development Administration (RDA) continues to experience trouble with the Na'vi on all fronts, enough so that even their entire operations in the seas are threatened. And just as it goes in the movie, they send one man to fix the issue. But this time, Quaritch will find himself dealt the short hand. Because this time, he's facing something worse than simple Na'vi.

Join us, as we delve into the trials and tribulations newly-turned Recombinant, Colonel Miles Quaritch, goes through, as well as the inner-lying sequence of events that will alter his journey, for better or for worse.

What is the general trying to hide from Quaritch? Will he be able to find the answers he seeks (including those revolving around his entire existence)? And what happens when the RDA discovers that, for all these years of fighting the Na'vi, there is something much more sinister waiting for them in the shadows?

The answer lies in one child; a boy named Trr'ong.