Daughter of the East

special achievements: making my therapist cry

These feelings stirring inside my chest and I cannot forget how it was the last time I was in love. Sweeter and then bitter, and now I know the bitter part is coming soon and I cannot enjoy the sweet at all.

And I still have a heart full of hope and a soul full of forgotten regrets that are screaming for my attention, yet I am burning, burning with high flame and pouring oil into my veins to light a massive firework,exploding my body and my head till there is nothing left but the need to breath, take the next breath and then the next and with the next one I'm ready to feel alive again.

Punching the air, falling on the ground and getting up again. I will get up after this fall too. But only after scratching my knees and my heart which will burn to the ground again so I will have to bath in its black smoke and black coal and be reborn, be reborn tougher, stronger, sicker, brighter, madder, bolder, fighter.

Sometimes you just gotta clutch your chest tight where it hurts, lie down in a silent room and wait for tears to flow on their own, without holding back, just falling down

Not to lose my head in your presence is priority right now. What can I do what can I say. Hey. Everything alright? And you will say Yes. You sure. Yea just a little tired you will say and look innocent as fuck. And then I honest to god won't know what to say because you defeated me from day 1 we were together-

I'm but an empty vessel and she's a rainbow dressed in black with a golden crown and infinite magic in her fingers

You should have seen me, crying and laughing at once, hysterically, while my chest hurt like nothing before

AU where you love me the way I love you