π―π you should see the things we do in my dreams (p2) || sam winchester x fem!reader π―π
βΆ warnings: 18+, angst (sam is a little bit mean UNINTENTIONALLY, but he'll make it up to you), pining, porn with plot, confessions, friends to lovers, oral sex (m! + f! receiving), munch!sam, switch/soft dom!sammy, canon typical violence
βΆ summary: how will Sam deal with the fallout from last night? unfortunately, not very well.
quick note: um...sooooo heyyyyy... SURPRISE!!!! Yall have waited way too long for the next installment of this and i just couldn't bare having this sit there until the 11th. thank you all so freaking much for the love and support on the first fic - had me smiling and giggling every time <3 i hope this was worth the wait
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Sam doesnβt flick the light switch on. No, not yet. He needs to be in the complete, utter darkness so that it dulls the blindingly sharp edges of guilt.
His jaw clenches tight as he tries to swallow, throat constricting further as he replays whatever that whole thing was.
He knows he likes you β knows he loves you. As sure as he knows his own name. Sam.
But Christ, what the fuck? That β that β was not okay.
The bathroom air feels stale against his tacky skin, the salt from his sweat tightening it, probably making his white singlet now a patchy damp grey. Breaths come in shudders. His chest heaving and nostrils flaring. Heartbeat thundering in his ears and throat, hammering at the insides of his wrists. The chill of the tiles underneath his clammy feet mix with the horrid heat pulsing from his body to make him feel like heβs superglued to the floor.
His still semi-hard but softening cock twitches momentarily in his briefs, and heβs suddenly brought back to the sickening wet patch in his boxers starting to dry. Sam groans in disgust, neck craning forward to see how bad of a mess heβs made, but realising thereβs no light for his eyes to adjust to, so he throws his head back into the wooden door with a flat thud.
He lifts off the surface with a huff as he starts undressing himself β ruined boxers dragged down each leg first, followed by his singlet ripped over his shoulders β still in the dark, βThat was wrong. That was so wrong.β
Sam drops the dirty clothing in a mound to the left of the door, then flicks the light switch up. The overhead fixture splutters to life with a cough, making him wince and quickly scrunch his face up as the bright, searing white light burns his eyes like he was being smote. Hunched, he pads over to the shower, pulling at the grimy glass door and reaching in to turn on the shower head.
He pauses for a second β does he turn the water to hot to scald and scold himself; to burn that even now still persisting hunger for you out of his body and dull the crushing shame of what heβs just done? Or cold to strip him and his undeserving, uncontrolled, and unrequited love for you down into individual parts, clean it all from his filth, and bind it back into something he can quietly survive with, maybe sometimes (selfishly) enjoy, in proper private.Β
He decides to only shut off the cold water when it no longer bites, which, thanks to the roadside motelβs rusting pipes, isnβt very long.
He sulks out of the glass cubicle, cursing at the lack of a bathmat, then reaching out for his hanging towel β still slightly damp from his earlier shower β and running it roughly through his hair, before swiping his face and dragging it down the rest of his body to dry himself off. Sam goes to hang the towel back on the hook, but is met with the realisation that he didnβt bring any clean clothes into the bathroom. Fuck.
Itβs really not his night.
A frustrated groan leaves him, head tipping back and blinking up at the ceiling in such tired defeat like it might magically produce at least some underwear for him β because knowing his luck? You or Dean (god forbid itβs his brother) will wake up and ask why heβs had another shower. At this time of the night.
Sam wraps the sodden towel around his hips and walks towards the bathroom door. Just as heβs about to grab the handle with his left hand and flick off the light switch with his right, the pile of his dirty clothing skims the bottom of his vision.
Ha. Great, Sam thinks, barely able to look at it as he rolls his eyes away in disgust.
Bending down, he scoops up the reminder of his crimes in his left arm, straightening back up and turning the overhead fixture off to plunge himself back into darkness before stepping out into the shared room.
Although he canβt currently see anything, he can hear the ceiling fan still whirling above his head, pushing a now mildly warm current through the air that brushes past the raising hairs on his arms.
In the doorway, Sam shudders as he lets his eyes adapt to the low blue and silver lighting and shadows of the moon seeping in through the windows by the shared bed. The bed with you in it.
He canβt focus on you. Not right now.
He blinks a little stupidly, eyes scanning across the room and over worn, dated furniture, books with jutting out pages that are stacked in short, lopsided mountains, bags by the tv thatβ bags. Bags with clothes in them. His clothes. That he needs right now.
Sam silently shuffles past Deanβs bed over to his own duffel, crouching down to drop the βusedβ clothing to the side of it and scrounge through the clean and orderly packed clothing to find another pair of boxers and a singlet to wear. He finds what he needs, pulling them out with a quick soothing sigh, and tucking the materials to his right side, then standing up and returning to the safety of the pitch-black bathroom to dress himself. Once the towel is hung back up, Sam quietly closes the bathroom door behind him and pads back over to his bag.
Heβs staring down at the small heap of grimy, intermingling clothing like itβs personally offended him. Because it has. And really, it would offend anybody else who saw it, too.
Normally, heβd fold his dirty clothing in a neat pile, ready to be taken to a laundromat whenever necessary during a hunt. Thereβs already a heap next to his bag from yesterday. However, Sam doesnβt think he should leave evidence of his night emission out in the open. So, swiftly, he squats back down, both hands rummaging through the duffel to find a plastic bag that can hide at least the visible source of shame.
βThatβll do,β he whispers to himself when he finds it, reaching to his left and stuffing that mess into the plastic bag, and shoving it deep into his own duffel.
He rises, a slow and audible breath dragging from him. Then he turns back to the bed. Back to you. His eyes fall on your sheeted figure. Youβre still fast asleep.
He takes four steps towards the bed to end up at his side, shins resting against the mattress as he looks down. His eyes glide over you and god, youβre so beautiful; your lips are in a sweet, gentle pout, softly parted as you take in and exhale small huffs of air, your lashes lightly fluttering for a second, then stilling as the ring and pinky finger of your right hand twitch.
He could reach out and touch you if he wanted. He does want to. But no, thatβs creepy. And after what heβs done tonight, he knows he deserves nothing less.
Samβs gaze lifts from you, almost taking physical effort, as he realises he may have left a gross wet patch where he was sleeping. He gulps, preparing himself for the damage, then scanning along the open space to assess with clinical precision.
Thereβs nothing there but the crumpled lines of the fitted sheet.
Oh thank god. Sam thinks he probably wouldnβt have survived the night β no, the rest of his life β if his cum had stained the bed.
Okay. Youβve got this, Sam.
With one quick, task-driven nod, carefully, he sinks himself onto the mattress next to you β years of hunting guiding his long limbs and breath into almost perfect silence. First, he sits. This is not something to rush. Then, once heβs certain he hasnβt woken you due to the weight change, he lifts just the corner of the flat sheet up and shifts to raise his right leg onto the bed. Finally, at last, he rolls his body smoothly into the open space.
He drops the sheet over him and wriggles ever so slightly, lightly spreading his arms and legs, lifting his head once, twice, and nestling into the pillow as he settles into the somewhat comfort of the old, lumpy bedding. Springs only letting off a faint, almost silent creaking.
You did it. Sam smiles to himself, almost feeling like he should give himself a pat on the back. Everythingβs okay.
He closes his eyes, attempting to fall back into a deep and hopefully uneventful sleep, and a solid, warm limb grazes and crosses over his left arm, reaching to the middle of his chest. Smaller, warm hand splayed carefree, the palm and fingertips burning through his singlet to reach his skin. Sam seizes, neck almost snapping as he turns to you, eyes wide and frantic as a sudden wave of panic sweeps entirely over him that youβve woken up.
But when his gaze locks onto your face β eyes flicking between every space and curve to account for any movement, open features, anything thatβs changed since he last looked at you β your own are still closed. Your mouth is softly shut now, though.
And then (and heβs so sure he doesnβt imagine it), Sam hears a small, content, so content, noise leave your throat as you rub your left cheek against your pillow.
Nope. Nope nope nope. Heβs not doing this.
He wants your hand there. God, he really wants it there. Heβs desperate for your touch, in whatever way he can have it, which is just so fucking selfish of him. He knows it. Beats himself up about it every day. But this canβt be happening. Not right now. Not after whatβs happened, after what heβs done. Heβs too dirty to have a touch so pure as yours on him.
Almost painfully, Sam carefully grabs your wrist with his left hand, fingers wrapping gently, timidly, around the bone to lift your arm off of him and place it back in the small space between you both.
He slips out from under the sheet and slides himself off the bed, fumbling a little this time as his legs twist under him and his feet miscalculate the distance from the mattress to the floor.
When he fully stands, he frowns, heart aching at the sight, his need for you. Sam has to get out of here. He turns his head to the right to look at the bedside table, specifically seeking the digital alarm clock β it reads 04:55. Way too early to go get coffee, even for Sam.
He spins on his feet and rushes back to his duffel to dress himself β sweats pulled up his legs, then a long sleeve flannel, unbuttoned, flung around his shoulders.
The only safe place he can go is outside.
He squints to locate some shoes, opting for his runners because god knows how long heβs gonna have to be gone for. Without even lacing them, just tucking the strings into the sides, Sam almost runs for the door, snatching a set of keys on the wooden table as he passes it.
Quietly, so quietly, he grabs the door knob and turns it, pushing the door with measured pressure, then slipping out through the crack without daring to turn back to look at you.
By the time Sam gets back to the motel, the sun is already warm over the red wooden panelled roof. He doesnβt know how long heβs been gone for, but it was long enough to devise a plan. A solid plan, he thinks. All heβs gotta do is keep his distance from you β limit any sort of verbal or physical (especially physical) contact with you. It wonβt be long; just until the case is done. Which is hopefully only a few days. Then Sam can rent a car or something and say he needs to go visit an old friend back at Stanford and will be gone for a couple days.
Heat is already brimming in the morning air, the crunching gravel parking lot offering some relief underfoot as Sam walks across it back to the room. Another hot day. Great.
If heβd really thought about it, actually used his usually analytical and cool-tempered brain, he wouldnβt have worn these stupid β now almost fully soaked through β sweatpants on the walk.
Sam pauses at the door, hand outreached for the handle, as he takes in an attempt at a deep and calming, centring breath. It doesnβt work.
βAh! There you are, Sammy.β
βWas just about to send out a search party for you,β he says, quickly looking up from his seat around the other side of the wooden table as his younger brother steps through the doorway. Deanβs eyes fall back to the book splayed in front of him, then β they flick just as quickly back up to Sam, face scrunched, βYou wore that for your run?β
Sam pays him no mind, walks straight past him to his duffel, βDidnβt run. Just needed some air.β
βRight.β A pause. βWell, next time you βjust need some airβ, can you take your damn phone with you? Had us both worryinβ about you.β Pages shuffle. βAll for nothinβ.β
Sam doesnβt say anything. Just riffles through his bag to find a change of clothes for the day ahead. He hears Dean sigh, βYou better go tell her youβre back.β
That makes Sam stop. Still crouched, he turns back to his brother and stares at him blankly, a little dumbly. Deanβs already turned towards him, looking at him, eyes sweeping over his face, trying to discretely track any sign of a reaction. Unsatisfied, Dean says your name like it's the most obvious answer in the world. Probably because, now that Sam thinks about it, it is. His brother exhales, shifting his body and attention returning back to the pages in front of him as he leans forward, left elbow braced on the table to prop up his head, βSheβs in the reception askinβ aboββ
βOh Sam! Youβre back!β
Sam can just see the wisps of your hair to the right of Deanβs face as you come in through the door. He struggles to complete a swallow.
You can do this, Sam. You can do this.
βWe were getting a bit worried about you,β you close the door behind you, beginning to walk towards the table, ββspecially cause Dean and I tried to call you to figure out where youβd gone and your phone was here.β
Sam doesnβt respond. Just shifts his neck back to his bag on the floor in front of him as he sifts through the clothing. His clean clothing.
He smells the coffee before he hears you place a cup on the table with a soft thud, Dean mumbling a thank you. To his horror, you donβt take a seat, no; you keep walking. Walk right around Deanβs chair and stop right by Samβs right side. Your hips level with the side of his face.
βHere, take this one, Sam. Iβll get another.β
Heβs frozen. He can see your legs in the far corner of his right eye, denim shorts finishing mid-thigh β but he canβt look at you. If he did, all heβd see is your face above him, looking down at him. Like you had last night. When he was buried in between those warm bare thighs, soft flesh and muscles bracketing and tensing around his headβ
βT-thatβs okay.β Samβs cock twitches violently, hardening. βDonβt want one.β
βYou donβt want any coffee?β
He shakes his head. Returns to searching for proper pants and a shirt.
Truthfully, he does want one, but he canβt risk touching you. Heβll just go get one afterwards. Heβll have to be discrete, though, make sure neither you nor Dean catch him. Although he canβt see you, heβs sure youβre nodding your head in that slow, rolling motion you do when youβre listening and processing something. Youβre probably exchanging a quick, confused glance with Dean.
βOkay...β God, you do not sound convinced. βDid ya have a good run? Interesting outfit choice youβve got on there.β
βUmβ yeah, no. Didnβt go for a run.β It sounds so much like heβs being short with you. He hates it.
He hunches over more, digging further into his bag as frustration starts to kick in. Not at you β never at you β but at the fact he canβt find his stupid clothes.
βOh? What were you doββ
βHe needed some βfresh airβ.β The way Dean says it pisses Sam right off.
βAh. Okay.β Youβre not buying it. But you donβt push him. And for that, heβs so thankful. βWell, I just spoke with the man at reception about the kids in the paper and he saββ, Sam stands abruptly, having found what he needed, and almost collides with you.
Youβre wide-eyed. Brows raised, mouth parted in shock at the sudden almost contact. Sam jerks back reactively. His feet stumble, left one tripping on his duffel, but manages to save himself at the last second from fully falling.
Both of your hands, even the one still holding the rejected coffee cup, fly out from your sides to try and grab him. They stop just short of his body as Sam stabilises himself, your hands hovering mid-air, βSorry, Sam. Iβ I didnβt meanββ
A rattled breath leaves him, βYβyouβre fine. My fault.β
His eyes drop immediately from yours, skirting and staring down at the thin carpeted floor, but not before he briefly catches the skin of your bare forearms left uncovered by the sleeves of your loose flannel bunched at your elbows. Sam canβt move, otherwise he might touch your arm or your hair or your beautiful face when he does.
You seem to notice this; sidestepping to the right, a little skittish, to give him plenty of room to walk past.
He stands there for a beat, blinks rapidly a few times, then moves, βIβmβ¦Iβm just gonna go and... get changed.β
You nod once from the corner of his vision as he passes you before he almost slams the bathroom door shut behind him.
When Sam emerges, showered again and now dressed in appropriate clothing for the day, youβre sitting at the small wooden table over by the wall with Dean, muttering softly and somewhat excitedly to each other, pointing at notes in your journal and shoving opened research books and scanned newspaper sheets in front of one anotherβs faces.
You donβt look up when he comes out.
But Dean does, craning his neck to the left behind him to track Sam as he passes the table. He shifts back to focus on you as Sam returns to his bag to put the used clothing in a neat pile next to it, βSam, we think weβve got it.β
Sam stands straight, arms crossed over his chest, gaze focused on his brother, preparing himself to listen to Dean speak.
But thereβs just silence.
Dean raises his eyebrows expectantly, and Sam realises heβs waiting for you to start speaking. When you donβt, Dean kicks at you underneath the table, releasing your attention from the pages youβre staring down at with a small, annoyed sound as you look up at Dean, then to Sam. Sam doesnβt miss the way your big eyes snap away from his immediately and back to Deanβs, then down to your book when it clicks that youβre meant to be talking.
βOh, umβ yeah so...β Sam almost gets entirely lost in your voice right away.
Youβd found the article online three days ago: One Teen Dead, One Hospitalised After Suspected Murder-Drowning by Mystery Figure in Local Sanatorium. Β
Dean had waved it off, said βthey probably got high and decided to go for a dip, needed a cover up and said they had a βGrave Encountersβ momentβ.
But you paid him no mind, continued on by saying βwho drowns in an empty pool?β
Deanβd paused at that β and Sam, equally as curious as you but also wanting to back you up, said βweβve gone on hunts for much lessβ.
When the three of you arrived in town yesterday, you did your preliminary checks β located the Sanatorium, talked to a few locals about the teens (who then directed you to head to the newspaper office to go over their archives), and established there was only one bar within a 45 minute drive radius. Dean has his priorities.
Sam had gone to the office, scanned the articles he thought would be relevant, then met back up with you at the local library. Dean had busied himself by slinking around the perimeter of the derelict Sanatorium, all its doors blocked off by police.Β
Before the incident, the one where Sam came in his underwear asleep because he thought he was eating you out, you and Sam had sat at the table together with his laptop, your notebook, and several scanned newspaper sheets in between you both, while Dean was comfortably splayed on his bed with several books for research.
With a βI think Iβve read the same paragraph four timesβ just before 2am, youβd all called it a night.Then, this morning, while Sam was out getting some βfresh airβ, you went to talk to the gruff receptionist who βsmelt like stale wet laundryβ and had that βback in my day sort of attitudeβ(which Sam knows really grinds your gears), finding out that the βstupid local teensβ regularly went to βthat olβ haunted Sanatoriumβ as a βdumb rite of passageβ because βkids these days got nothinβ better to do, βpparentlyβ.
The morningβs research so far had pointed to the cause of death for one teen and hospitalisation of the other being from a pissed off ghost β a nasty doctor who used to secretly experiment on some of his patients and was killed during a major patient breakout.
ββWell, I donβt think that, but Dean does. And we all know that Dean is always rightββ
ββYeah. βCause Iβm the oldest.β
You snorted. βWhatever, old man.β
He wanted to ask what you thought you were all hunting β because youβre smart; your brain considers every possibility, doesnβt let the small or seemingly insignificant details go missed, and youβre a very good hunter; one of the best he knows, and also? He cares what you think β but that would mean having to talk to you.
So Sam just stands there like a butter knife with no butter β technically functional, but not contributing to anything at all. A few nods here and there, maybe one or two βyepsβ.
When you finish detailing all the research and opinion points for consideration, both you and Dean look up at Sam, clearly waiting for him to say something final. Maybe disagree or question what theyβve offered, because βSam is the best researcherβ (your words, not his. He remembers it fondly when you first said it, the heat that had bloomed in his face and down his neck, the way his heart and chest had swelled). Well, Dean definitely is staring at him, and just in his peripheral vision, it looks like you are, too. Sam canβt be too sure, though. He didnβt look at you the entire time you were speaking β and heβs not about to start now. Canβt start now.
βSo, Sam, what do you think?β You sound a little unsure. Timid. Like youβre a nervous student waiting on the teacher to tell you if your answer is right or wrong.
Oh sweetheart. He doesnβt want to make you feel insecure or uncertain.
But he still canβt look at you. βSounds good.β
An awkward, prickling silence festers in the air. Itβs so heavy. Sam could blame it on the summer heat leaking into the room through the old, draughty walls, under the gaping motel door, but he knows itβs not that.
He gulps, words flying around and ricocheting off the walls of his brain as he tries to breath a bit of air back into the suffocating room. βSo whatβs the plan? We go to the doctorβs grave first? Salt him and burn him, then head to the Sanatorium after nightfall? Make sure heβs gone for good?β
Not looking at Sam, Dean rises from his seat, closing the book in front of him, βNah, docβs already been cremated. But the Sanatoriumβs got both his hands out on display βcause he was this top shit amphibious surgeon who they wanted to commemorate or something β so we needa burn βemβ
βAmbidextrous, Dean,β you offer absentmindedly. Dean throws his left hand in the air, waving you off.
A small, suppressed grin tugs on Samβs mouth, βThatβs sort of weird.β
His brother shrugs, bending slightly to reach into his jacket hung over the back of his chair to find the car keys, βItβs a weird town.β
Sam notices you donβt move. How quiet you are. Normally, youβd be the first one up, gunning for the door, pushing past and shoving Dean, giggling, as you both race to the car. Not for any real purpose β just because you both can and you think itβs funny. Because βnot everything in our lives has to be so damn serious, Sammyβ. He likes how well you get along with his brother. Means that if you did want to be with Sam, maybe even marry him, life would just be so damn easy, so perfect.
Sam, not a very helpful thought to be having right at this moment.
But he risks a look at you. Because god does he miss looking at you. And when his eyes find your still-seated body, he realises youβre already looking at him.
His eyes flick instantly back to the open space in front of him as he tries to play it off, starts to pat himself down as if heβs looking for the spare motel keys or his phone.
Sam didnβt have enough time to properly read you, but you looked...embarrassed. Maybe even a little bit hurt. Is that because of him? Christ, itβs definitely because of him. Fuck. This is not going to plan. Heβs totally fucking up any abysmal chance he had with ever getting with yβ
βAre you looking for this?β
Sam freezes. His breathing hitches, heartrate slowing like heβs prey playing dead, like motion might kill him. Youβre closer, now. Sam slowly raises his head up. Youβre not sitting at the other side of the table anymore β youβre standing in front of him, right arm outstretched with his phone in your hand.
He needs to remedy the situation. Just a little bit. Not look like such a complete asshole. So he meets your gaze, tracking you as you take in a quick, audible breath, βY-you left it in your yesterday jeans. Thought you mightβve forgotten to take it before you left this morning.β Your eyes flick away from his, down to the phone still hanging between you both, βTook it out after we called it. Just in case.β
Sam swallows. For a second, just like he had last night when he passed you the tv remote, he considers spreading his fingers across the phone so that his fingers graze yours as he takes it from you. Itβs been so long β too long β since heβs just touched you. No intent behind it. Just contact. But he canβt. βThank you.β
He takes it, carefully, from you between his left thumb and two index and middle fingers. You give him a tight small smile, one that doesn't reach your eyes. Your hand drops back to your side, almost with a brushing motion as if youβre trying to shake off having to have touched something of his.
Sam notices it. Feels it. Like a metal nail scraping against something rawing β a thin, sharp, scratch slices right over his heart.
He goes to open his mouth, but you turn around towards Dean, waiting by the now opened door, before Sam can say something. Whether it wouldβve been something to fix this or make it worse β Sam doesnβt know.Β
He watches as you quickly look up at Dean when you pass him on your way outside. His brother looks down at you, offering a small, kind smile, and the thrumming wound inside Sam tears open just that little bit more.
Deanβs head shifts back to Sam, eyes barely catching as he skims over him, then tips his head in a silent order to leave.
Sam sighs, then reaches for the spare set of the motel room keys still on the wooden table and follows you out the motel.
By the time Dean closes the door behind Sam, youβre already waiting by the back right passenger door β the side Sam needs to be on β arms crossed over your chest, back leaning against the Impala and away from the two approaching brothers as you take in the surrounding mountains and summer scenery.
You donβt show any sort of acknowledgment of you noticing when Sam reaches the side youβre on, only moving to turn and open your door when Dean unlocks Baby.
A wall of heat drifts over Sam as he slides in, the leather interior already heating up the air.
βPhew, hotter than Hell in here,β Dean whistles as he shuts his door, buckling himself in, then plugging the keys into the ignition, βWell, not quite.β
Rolling his eyes at his brother, Sam places his phone still held in his left hand into his lap to drag the seatbelt across his chest and click it in. The engine rumbles to life, made louder by you rolling down the backseat window behind Sam. Joan Jett & the Blackheartsβ Bad Reputation starts as the cassette player kicks in β your attempt at expanding Deanβs music library β while both Sam and Dean echo your movements, letting a gentle wind current flow through as the car reverses over the gravel carpark and pulls out onto the road.
Sam turns his head to the passenger window, watching paddock after paddock fly by on the way to the Sanatorium as he tries to distract himself from overthinking. His right index finger begins unrhythmically tapping against the side of his right thigh, left leg bouncing restlessly. The repeated movement makes his phone sitting in his lap slip in between his thighs, causing Sam to shift his neck to look down at it. He pockets the phone into his jeans, then turns back to look out the window. A moment or two passes before a cold horror slashes straight through him.
His phone. In the jeans he wore yesterday. Oh fuck. You didnβt see his underwear, did you?
No, Sam. You wrapped them up in the plastic bag. Shoved them into that little pocket near the bottom. The jeans he worse yesterday were in the pile next to his duffel. You wouldnβt have seen it.
βDude, whatβs with the ice maiden this morning?β
The rising panic building in Sam as he stares wide-eyed out the window is splintered, neck jerking to face his brother, βWhat?β
Dean throws his head back to the right, motioning towards you sat silently in the backseat, βYouβre being so weird to her this morning.β Samβs face tenses. He doesnβt dare look back at you; his head and eyes starting the movement to the left to look at you, but stopping and snapping back to the front before he reaches too far. Dean stares at him, noticing the restrained and twitchy movements, then continues with a brow raise, βWeirder than usual. Than your Sam-weirdββ
βShut up, dude.β Sam half-whispers, half-hisses, tone clipped and low. Despite the wind whipping past his ears and the loud music, thereβs every chance you can still hear them talking.
Dean ignores him, eyes shifting back to the road ahead, with a small smirk brimming, voice needling, βJeez, dβya wake up on the wrong side of the bed this morning or somethinβ?β
βIβm jusβ sayinββ, Deanβs head tilts slightly to the left for a beat, fingers rapping on the steering wheel β and Sam knows itβs to punctuate his point, βif Iβm picking up on this weird emotional brick wall thing youβve got goinβ on, thenββ
βJust drop it, Dean. Seriously not in the mood for it.β
Jaw so tight his teeth might crack, Sam leans sharply forward and cranks up the stereo dial, huffing with irritation as his back returns to the leather bench and he resumes staring out the window β face now in a deep scowl β deliberately drowning out any possibility for his brother to ask any further stupid questions.
βThereβs a way in through the graveyard out the back of the Sanatorium. Underground entrance thatβs covered by some bushes,β Dean says as he turns Babyβs engine off, βDonβt think the cops know itβs there β βs how the kids have been gettinβ in.β
The three of you are parked at a little lookout a couple hundred metres away from the Sanatorium β a lookout tucked off a shabby forgotten road with an even shabbier carpark, surrounded by looming trees so tall and dense that the sunlight barely makes it through the canopy.
βHow the hell dβyou find that out?β, Sam questions as he unbuckles.
Dean tilts his head, clicking his tongue, βSaw some kids smokinβ pot when I was out here yesterday, thought they might know a thing or two, so I flashed my badge and told βem Iβd lock βem up unless they told me how to get in.β
You scoff β and without looking, Sam knows youβre rolling your eyes, βWhat made you think they knew something?β
Dean twists back to you with a smirk, βJust a hunch, sweetheart. Iβm full of βem,β finishing with a wink.
You give him a dismissive yet amused 'mmhhhmm' before opening the car door and sliding out.
Although Sam has no right to be, especially today, he can feel a flicker of jealously briefly tighten his chest, a low heat creeping up his neck and through his head.
Dean follows your movements, smoothly lifting himself off the front bench and closing the door behind him, leaving Sam in the quiet of the Impala all by himself. He sighs deeply, raising his left hand up to his face to massage the bridge of his nose.
Itβs not even 10am yet and already Samβs wishing for the day to end.
He makes an adjustment to his original no-contact-with-you plan. A little contact is okay, he tells himself. Just act like you had when you first met her and not like sheβs got the plague. Or that you dreamt about kissing her and making her whine and moan and cum with your mouth and tongue.
Despite his limbs still dragging as he climbs out from his seat, Sam moves with a slight more confidence than he had back at the motel. As he closes the door, he sees you and Dean are both standing behind Babyβs popped boot, words passing between the two of you that Sam canβt quite make out. Youβre in the middle, on the right side of Dean, meaning if Sam walks over to you guys (which he kinda has to so that he can get some weapons), heβll have to be next to you.
Okay, Sam. Breathe. Just go stand next to her. Β
He walks around the car, dried dirt crunching under his shoes he moves to the back and stops next to you. Youβre ducked, busy riffling through and grabbing the essential bits and bobs β some salt, a crowbar, some matches, a flashlight, and... a knife?
Sam raises his left arm, gesturing towards the weapon in your hands as you start stepping back and away from the trunk, βWhatβs the knife for?β
You raise your head towards him briefly, giving him a small, sort of friendly smile, βJust in case.β
Sam goes to open his mouth, but Dean cuts in, saying your name with a gruff tease and a shake of his head, βYou know youβre gonna look like a real idiot when weβre done here.β
You raise your left hand up in an acknowledgment of Deanβs snipe before spinning around and heading towards the wooden picnic table. Sam looks back to his brother after his comment, but Dean isnβt looking at him β eyes watching you walk away before sliding right back to the hunting arsenal in front of him. Sam exhales, starting to feel agitated again, then hunches and reaches in to also grab what he needs, while Dean takes a step to the side, left leg resting against the taillight and left hand loosely holding onto the bootβs lid as he waits for Sam to finish.
When Sam steps back to signal heβs done, Dean closes the trunk and locks the car. But instead of walking over to you, he just turns around and leans against Babyβs hood. He doesnβt say anything, just sits there in silence. Sam knows this move β Deanβll have the palms of his hands against the car, just on the edge, fingers tapping expectantly for Sam to look at him as Dean contemplates if what heβs about to say is worth the reaction his brother might have, if heβll even listen to him, consider his βwords of older brother wisdomβ.
Sam raises his brows, head still dropped downwards and eyes purposely not meeting any part of Dean, as he finishes tucking in the weapons he grabbed. He takes in a deep inhale as he goes to speak, but before any proper words form on his tongue, Dean lifts himself off the Impala and starts walking towards you.
It makes Sam lift his head. To pause, look for where his big brotherβs gone; the brother whoβs always meant to pull him back from the edge of a bad decision despite Samβs persisting objections, talk some sense into him βbecause big brotherβs know everything βnd someone has to teach the annoying little brother the rights and wrongs of the worldβ; the brother whoβs just made it across the carpark and started talking to you, making it strikingly clear that Dean doesnβt think whatever he thinks is plaguing Sam right now just isnβt worth it.
Sam knows heβs being an asshole. And the fact the Dean wonβt step in, even though Sam told him to get lost?
Well, the feeling in his chest is something he canβt name, but itβs along the lines of irritation, anger. But also dejection. Disappointment. And maybe a bit of shame.
Great, Sam thinks, lips pressing into a tight line.
Walking towards you both, he sees youβre perched on the table surface with your feet on the wooden bench, Dean standing in front of you. He notices you look at him β still continuing to talk to Dean β before your eyes flick a little too quickly back to his older brother, your face faltering a little.
Dean must notice it, too, because he turns towards Sam, but doesnβt offer more than a jerk of his head to the woods.
You jump off, waiting for Dean to move first, then following behind him once he starts walking towards a rough path through the trees which Sam assumes is the direction of the Sanatorium.
Normally, Sam and you would be walking side-by-side, close enough for him to catch your perfume that makes him pull in a deep inhale, smile and get a little lightheaded and flushed every time he smells it, your shampoo, too.
Heβs too far away from you to do that this time, though. Maybe three steps behind. Further apart than he truly wants to be, but still the shortest amount of distance that heβd consider to be safe.
Nobody says anything the entire trek, the only sounds that meet Samβs ears are of twigs snapping underfoot and soft bush moving aside, the occasional bird call ringing around the three of you. Maybe someone does say something, but Sam just doesnβt hear it. Or maybe, just neither of you say anything to him.
The quiet means last nightβs dream that poor Sammyβs being trying so hard to keep at bay creeps back into his mind. Every time he tries to push it away, a scene paints itself in front of his eyes, demanding he relive it β your hand cupping his jaw, fingers stroking his face; his hand on the curve of your neck, keeping you as close to him as humanly possible; your warm, kiss-swollen lips; his legs tangled with yours; how wet your underwear was, how wet you were; your legs over his shoulders; the sheets fisted in your hands as he lapped at you; your hands pulling at his hair...god, how you tastedβ
βWhereβs all the cops?β Sam almost walks straight into the back of you. Youβve stopped just before the edge of the clearing that backs onto the Sanatorium, a mass of dilapidated and overgrown grass-covered headstones ahead.
He should probably take a step back. Or away. To the side. Something. You really do not need to feel how hard his dick is right now.
With a small shuffle backwards, Sam refocuses on reality in front of him. From at least where the three of you are standing, all the police cars are gone. No officers in sight.Β
And, just as Dean had said, the βsecretβ entrance into the Sanatorium is there, peeking out through some small trees and a couple bushes that have seen better days, a stairwell fenced by a row of rusted metal spikes on either side as the cement steps disappear down to a weathered wrought-iron door.
Dean tsks. βGuess itβs their day off,β he starts walking towards the shrub covered pit off to the edge of the graveyard, βlucky us.β
You turn your head to watch him walk away, βWe should still be careful. Just in case theyβre still here or they come back.β Youβre right. Deanβs being his usual too reckless self. But you look back at Sam β a quick, tight-lipped smile flashing (which Sam notices again, doesnβt quite reach your eyes) β before following after his brother.
A deep, weary exhale leaves Sam, his chest puffing then deflating with the breath for a steadying moment, then moving his legs to trail after you.
Rust and stale moisture fill Samβs nostrils and lungs as the three of you walk through the damp underground passage. Itβs pitch black, save for the three light streams from your flashlights swaying with each step.
Sam knows your nose is scrunched at the reek without even seeing your face. You always do that when thereβs a bad smell. And Samβs ribs always feel too damn small to contain the overflowing of warmth and tender swelling pooling in his heart and lungs from your reaction.
Deanβs humming of βEnter Sandmanβ can just be heard over the hollow echoing of footsteps, only pausing as you come to the end of the hallway, the transport corridor finishing at an open doorframe leading to a cement ramp.
The three of you make your way up, coming to another door that spits you out into one of the Sanatoriumβs hallways. Windows clouded by years of grime line the front wall, weak daylight filtering through the dirt. Dust coats every surface, and rotting windblown leaves are scattered under a partly smashed window.
The three of you shine your torches down both sides of the passage, trying to figure out your bearings. Samβs light lands on something big and blue ahead to the left and he squints his eyes, βHey guys? I think thereβs a map over there.β
The three of you make your way over and sure enough, heβs right β itβs a large enamel directory map, roughly two metres squared, white lettering and lines marking out corridors and rooms, some graffiti scratched into it.
You all study it for a minute. Then you speak, βDean, do you wanna check out the West Wing? I think thatβs where the docβs hands are β and I know how badly you wanna see them.β
Oh no.
βWeβll go through the East Wingββ
ββitβs pretty big and splits off into all the patient bedrooms, so weβll cover more ground that way. See if thereβs anything else of the doctorβs on display that might cause him to stick around and murder some more curious teens.β
βWe can meet back up at this point hereβ,β your finger landing on a spot on the map.
ββthis bridge or whatever that connects the two wings β Iβm betting thatβs where this supposed poolββ
βI, umβ,β Sam interjects, βI think you should go with Dean.β
The room stills. Suddenly. Violently.
Maybe Sam didnβt think this fully through.
You and him always go together when you split for a hunt. Itβs not even discussed; itβs just instinct.
But he canβt be alone with you today.
He sees the hurt crack across your face as soon as the words fall from his mouth. His suggestion like heβs ripped your already rawed and bruising heart straight from your chest with his bare fingers and nails, ground it into almost nothing between his teeth, and spat the bloodied remains back in your face.
Your lips part, brows cinching in visible confusion as you process what heβs just said. You try to recover as quickly as possible, but Sam sees the way your eyes start to glaze, reddening at the edges, mouth closing at a slight downwards curve. Your jaw clenched tight, throat working to swallow.
Youβve really done it now, you idiot, Sam chastises himself.Β
The silence is absolutely suffocating. An incredibly sour, guilty taste scars his mouth.
βUm...okay,β you turn to Dean β too quickly, practically forcing Sam out of your sight β as you speak, voice quiet, wavering a little, clipped, βLetβs go, Dean.β
You move, as if any slower and you might completely fall apart right on the spot, straight past his brother down the shabby grey hallway leading to the West Wing as Dean stares at Sam like he just shot him. His face is scrunched incredulously and head shaking, hands raising in a stunned question, mouthing each slowed syllable in βwhat the fuck?β back at his idiot younger brother.
Sam can feel his heart hurt. Physically fucking hurt. Maybe even tear fully in half. Someoneβs skinning the layers off one by one of the lurching muscles, each shredded layer dropping to the pit of his chest to sink him down to somewhere lower and darker than Hell itself.
Dean turns away from Sam β a sharp, cutting scoff leaving him that he definitely wanted him to hear β and starts after you with a quick run, leaving Sam alone by the map as the dragging silence and dark closes in around him and his crushing, pathetic mess of feelings.
βGod, you are such an idiot.β
Samβs stalking through the East Wing, jaw tight, movements snapping but twitchy as he tries to stay focused on the hunt.
βItβs not her fault you had a dirty sex dream about her β just βcause you canβt keep it in your damn pants.β Heβs muttering to himself now, because he knows himself well enough (at least thatβs what he tells himself) that dealing with his stupidity and ineptitude internally will just make him self-combust. Good, actually. Maybe then heβd feel even remotely clean again. Or maybe you would forgive him for hurting you because he was dead and he wouldnβt have to worry about facing you again.
βSheβs your friend, Sam, fur-rend. Donβt subject her to your depravities.β He sighs, flashlight slicing through the space in front of him as his shoulders drop, that too familiar and well-worn feeling of defeat knowing that you would never reciprocate his love once again making itself proudly comfortable in every muscle and vein within his body, βShe deserves better.β
He passes doorways, bedrooms, turned over chairs and scattered paperwork, filthy and torn open mattresses with stains he doesnβt want to think too long or hard about. Footprints of different sizes β probably from teenagers over the years β disturb the debris on the floor.
How on earth is he meant to explain, apologise for his callous, fucked-up behaviour when he sees you next? βOh sorry, I was just sort of going through it and decided you had to take the full brunt of itβ. Yeah. Real nice. Asshole.
Sam walks into a tiled room β maybe a medicinal closet β where murky vials are scattered across benches and tables, some still filled with mysterious and sickly liquids, others cracked and dry but still just as gross. He picks up one thatβs still whole, turning it over in his fingers to try and decipher the faded writing.
Thatβs when a high, blood curdling scream cuts straight through the air.
The glass that was just in his hand smashes, thick fluid sludging across the ceramic flooring, as Sam drops it and sprints out the room, blind sprinting down the corridor.
He yells your name. Frantic. In terror. Scanning. Doorways pass in a blur. His footsteps slamming. Flashlight jolting wildly in one hand, fractured light thrown across the walls and floor, crowbar gripped and ready to slash in the other.
Sam didnβt think about this β the fact that you could get hurt and he wouldnβt be with you.
Heβs shouting your name. Over and over and over. The words tearing apart his throat as he skids around corners, lungs burning, something horrible rising hot and fast and violent inside him.
Youβre screaming his name now. Desperate. Urgent. Fear and pain bleeding. But itβs getting louder, so he must be going in the right direction.
He reaches a room with a large pool β the pool β and he sees you. Finally.
Youβre crouched in the far right corner of the drained pool, down at its deepest end, your back to him and facing the walls hunched over and trembling, sobbing. Hands at your face.
Sam calls your name, voice scraped and shot, relief filling his lungs at finally finding you, but thorned panic still simmering underneath his skin at the unanswered question of your screaming. Are you hurt? What happened? Whereβs Dean?
Moving from the doorway, he quickly surveys your body to check for any sign of injuries as he jumps down into the empty pit, boots smacking the poolβs tiles as he runs to you. With his left hand, still holding the flashlight, he reaches out to touch your shoulder, his voice already softening when he says your name again.
Just as his fingertips graze your shoulder, Samβs entire body is thrown backwards through the air by a sudden explosive force.
His back hits the floor with a hard cracking sound, the air punched straight from his lungs. Flashlight and crowbar flying out from his grip and clattering somewhere far out of reach.
Sam tries to suck in a breath, breathe some air into his head to think, process what the hell just happened. Instead, something else starts filling his lungs. Something he canβt see, canβt feel outside his body.
Sam tries to move his hands to grab at his neck and chest, to push himself up so that he can claw the bodiless but choking water out β just something β but his arms are pinned flat to the cold tiling.
He doesnβt question why you did that β how you did that β he canβt, because his headβs flooding. Literally. Black spots, rimmed by hot blasts of colour, start forming in his vision.
Slow, smooth footsteps are padding towards him. He can feel the vibrations. The pressure in his lungs and head is building faster. Taking over every single pathetic inch of his helpless body, no space left now for any single thought but one.Β
A thick, chunky slashing sound splinters in the air.
Sam immediately begins spluttering, the heavy pressure evaporating in a sharp, brutal release. Cold air burning its way through him with each gulping breath.
He blinks harsh and rapid, clouded vision starting to clear back into reality, and youβre there above him, looking down at him; wide-eyed, panting heavily, a panicked expression across your face.
Feeling starts to come back to Samβs limbs as Dean suddenly appears behind you up along the pool wall, gun at the ready, wearing a harrowed look and just as on edge as he stares at you both, βWhat the hell happened?β
βWas a Mimic,β you push out, voice breathless but still tight with adrenaline, chest puffed from an inhale then dropping, βNot a ghost. Told you, Dean.β
If Sam thought the car ride to the Sanatorium was quiet, the ride back to the motel is fucking death itself.
Thereβs no music blaring β in fact, no music at all. Silence, except for the rumbling of the Impala when Dean presses his foot down on the accelerator too quick.
At yours and Deanβs demand, Samβs in the backseat, lain across the warm black leather as he drags himself back from the hunt. His lungs and head hurt, so does his back from the impact of hitting the hard pool tiling, but heβll be okay. Physically.Β
You and Dean are both in the front. Eyes fixed on the road ahead. Sam adjusts himself, body shuffling to try and slide himself up to sit against the car door, but wincing at the movement and change in pressure. He carefully lowers himself back down with a shaky breath, defeated. Heβll just have to try and talk to you from here. He calls your name, hoarse and quiet, βhow did you know what to do?β
The way Samβs positioned on the backbench means that all he can see is the back of your head, a little of your left side. You look down at him over your shoulder, eyes flicking briefly back to the moving road ahead, before turning your whole body slightly in the seat to face him as you speak, left arm bending over the bench, βIβve, uh, hunted one before β theyβre like Crocottas, I guess? Maybe a sub-species or something; copy the image and voice of someone you um... love.β Your voice drops on that last word, face flushing, eyes nervously skirting away from him, down to the space between you and Dean, then back to Sam, βBut they donβt get you to kill yourself. They usually do that fun part for you.β
You offer him a small smile as you finish your sentence while Samβs jaw ticks, your left thumb rubbing nervously over your index finger before shifting your body back to face the front of the car.
The three of you ride the rest of the way back to the motel in complete silence. Well, verbal silence, at least. Samβs stomach tightens sickeningly as your words relentlessly repeat over and over and over in his head, βcopy the image and voice of someone you loveβ.
Did you hear him screaming your name?
Did you see yourself on the pool floor with him?
Samβs pulled out of the scattered thoughts and horrors whirling around in his head as Baby slows, the sound of gravel kicking up in a low scatter audible from the tyres rolling into the motel carpark. Dean parks, the brakes groaning softly then the keys jangling as the rumbling engine goes silent.
Sam sees your head disappear as you hop out the car first, the passenger door closing behind you almost within the same second. He slowly begins to push himself up to also get out, but when he does manage to fully sit upright, he realises Dean hasnβt moved.
βYou better fucking make it up to her.β His brotherβs still facing the front, tone low and stern, disappointment and fury edging. Sam swallows. Here come those words of older brother wisdom that he was steeling himself for earlier. βShe just saved your ass back there and all youβve done today is be an absolute dick to her.β
βSeriously, Sam. All she does is look out for you. Look after you. And I thought you... you two...β A few moments pass while Sam waits for Dean to continue, but he doesnβt, save for a frustrated huff leaving him. Clearly, his brotherβs initial chew out of him is finished. But Sam knows better, knows thereβll be more later, back at the Bunker.
Samβs throat is even drier, cutting, head starting to prickle with static and shame as he turns in the seat, opening the car door and sliding out. He expects his brother to follow after, but instead, the car engine kicks up again. Samβs barely taken a step away from the Impala as Dean reverses out the carpark without even looking at him.
A little stunned, Sam looks towards the motel room, expecting that youβll be standing by the door, wearing a just as confused expression as he is. But youβre not. He can see the roomβs door is slightly ajar, so you must have a set of the keys and already walked inside.
He takes in a ragged breath, steadying himself for the inevitable uncomfortable; facing you, and giving you the biggest, most desperate and guilt-ridden apology known to all of humanity β no, to every species of the world and beyond.
Working the words and tone, the pauses and inflections in his stupid brain to make sure he doesnβt somehow make this whole thing somehow any worse than it already is, Sam takes the first step towards the room and feels like heβs learning to walk again.
Time to be alone. With you.
Heβs watching you, digging through your duffel bag, as the door closes behind him with a soft click.
Sam starts with your name, careful, like itβs the first word to ever be spoken, then pauses, βThank...thank you foββ
βItβs fine. Donβt mention it,β you cut in, still crouched, not looking at him. Your voice is steady, finishing on an uptick, but Sam can hear the effort it takes to keep it that way.
He stands there, frozen, unsure of what to do or say. Heβd considered that you might shut him down, but he didnβt think youβd do it before he even got the first sentence out. Before heβd even been able to apologise.
βAre you feeling okay?β you ask, rising before turning to face him. Sam notices you giving him a quick once over from head to toe, shoulder to shoulder, βthe Mimic didnβt hurt you too badly?β
Even after heβs been the biggest asshole to you, youβre still worried about him. It makes him feel exponentially, catastrophically worse.
βYβyeah. Thanks to you.β You smile but donβt meet his eyes. βJust a bit of a sore back. Maybe a little head trauma to add to our library.β The Battle Scars of Alexandria β a little recurring inside gag of yours and Samβs. He doesnβt know exactly when it started, maybe sometime back on a hunt in Mississippi (heβll have to check the journal later), but it keeps you both accountable, and never fails to make a smile crack from either one of you.
Only this time? It does fail. You just nod, βDo you want the first shower or...β
βNo, you have it,β Sam exhales with a light smile, βDonβt think Deanβll be in any competition for it, either β heβs off somewhere.β
You start walking towards the bathroom, a clean change of clothes looped in your arm, βProbably to that bar we saw yesterday. Told me he wanted to βsee if there were any hot chicksβ earlier when we were in the West Wing together.β
This is going so incredibly well.
βIβll be quick,β you say softly from the bathroom doorway, left hand splayed over the wooden frame, offering him a small smile. Sam nods appreciatively, a nauseating ache shrouding his heart and settling low in his stomach, before you close the door.
You are quick. And Sam follows with the same efficiency.
When he steps out of the bathroom in pants and a grey shirt, the ceiling fan is going again. Youβre sitting cross-legged in the corner of the shared bed against the wall, pillow propped up behind your lower back, wearing a singlet with a new pair of denim shorts. Sam notices that youβre fidgeting with the bedspread, staring down at the fabric bunched between your fingers. Youβre nervous.
You look up from your lap at the noise of him stepping into the room, βSam, can weβ can we talk?β
And for the first time today, yours and his eyes meet and stay. Gazes locked in a charged, fragile silence.
Sam swallows, blinks once, twice quickly, then nods, hands flexing by his side. βYeah. Yeah, of course. Iβve been wanting to talk to you, too.β
Youβve got a timid smile on your face, eyes dropping back down to your fingers as he walks around Deanβs bed. The bed squeaks under Samβs weight despite the careful way he gently lowers himself down as if not to scare you, deciding to sit opposite you on Deanβs bed, sensing that being on the same bed as you might not be such a good choice given what heβs about to tell you.
Sam brings his hands into his lap as your eyes flick quickly up to look at him, then down to the space between you both, gaze almost unfocused.
You take in a sudden, deep wavering breath, your hands twisting together as you begin to speak, βIβm just gonna get it out of the wayβum, about this morning... in bed...β
You know that he came in his underwear. Next to you.
Dreaming about you. About going down on you.
Youβve known the entire day.
And Samβs been the one giving you the cold shoulder, acting like a complete and utter douchebag, when you must be horrified, disgusted by hiβ
βIβm really sorry about putting my arm over you.β
βI... I didnβt think it would make you uncomfortable because weβve... you know... we hug, and weβve likeβcuddledβbefore. And thatβs not an excuse! I just... I think my half-asleep-mind thought it would be okay, but proper awake me knows that I really shouldβve asked you first...β
Samβs looking at you like youβve just told him the sun is green.
βIβm really sorry for making you uncomfortable, Sam,β youβre looking up at him now, earnestly, your voice impossibly soft, βIβd never want to do that.β Your gaze drops, again. Guilt-ridden. Ashamed because you think youβve hurt him.
βAnd I know thatβs why you were gone this morning and why youβve been avoiding me today β and I donβt blame you at all β Iβm just...hoping that I can make it up to you and we can go bacββ
βThatβs not why Iβve been avoiding you.β
That makes your eyes shoot up to his, βWhat?β
βThatβyou putting your arm over me this morningβthatβs not why Iβve been...β, a stuttering breath leaves Sam, β...a gigantic but very stupidly apologetic dick to you today.β
βUm... what....what did I do?β
Sam sighs, half-smiling. Of course you think youβve done something wrong. Oh sweetheart. βI...β Youβve been truthful with him, laid yourself bare and fragile for him to judge. You deserve only the exact same from him. But the hollow churning, twisting burn happening in his stomach might just make him throw up.
Here goes fucking nothing, Sam tells himself.
He lifts his brows, shaking his head a little, βI had a dream. About you. Last night.β
No words leave your mouth. It opens, then closes. Then opens again, brows furrowing and raising with each movement of your mouth.
βIβmβIβm not proud of it.β He quickly adds, mouth dry, eyes flitting, nervous at your (lack of) reaction.
βWhat sort of dream?β
Youβre staring at him, body stilled and a flicker of something Sam canβt quite decipher flashing over your face.
His mouth tightens at your question, a heavy, burning flush crawling out from his chest and up his neck, into his face. He clenches his jaw hard, the bone popping. Adamβs apple bobbing through the dry swallow he tries to take.
Sam thinks he can almost hear each cog turning in your brain as you piece together what heβs just admitted to you. And what he isnβt saying. You make a small βohβ, realisation beginning to rise. Then you look to his side of the bed that youβre sitting on, eyes widening as the truth hits you, then back to him, βOh!β
βIs that why, umβ was it...no...uh...β You seem to say more to yourself than to him.
But Sam knows exactly what youβre wondering, what youβre asking β did it make him cum?He canβt blame you. If you told him that youβd had a sex dream about him, heβd also be morbidly, pervertedly, guiltily curious. So he gives a slow, heavy nod, biting his bottom lip, saying what he thinks is perhaps a vague enough but not-too-crude admission that still gives you an answer, βI, uh, had to take a shower.β
The floor beneath his feet could crack wide open and engulf him whole, and he would gladly say βthank youβ. Thank you thank you thank you.
You move your head in acknowledgment. Understanding and processing this revelation that heβs a freak. And now youβre not looking at him. Shit.Β
Β βWhatββ you take in a sudden breath, clear your throat, βwhat do you mean when you say βyouβre not proud of itβ?β
Sam rubs his mouth with his left hand. The right words seem too big yet too small, too much and too incomplete all at once. You look up at him, big eyes completely unreadable as you watch him.
He starts with your name, then exhales loudly, βYouβre one of my best friends. Andβand I shouldnβt have dreams about you like that,β he pauses, tongue poking the inside of his left cheek, βI donβt... donβt want things to be different between us. For you to feel weird or uncomfortable around me.β
God, he can only hope heβs said the right thing. And if he hasnβt? Well, hopefully heβs said enough good over bad. Sam watches your throat work, still holding your measured gaze. Youβre biting the bottom corner of your lip, clearly thinking about something. Weighing up his sins and about to deliver his punishment.
But thereβs something... different... on your face.
Something he doesnβt think heβs seen before.
βWould it make you feel better if I said Iβve also had a dream, um β like that β about you?β
Sam thinks his whole heart stutters, starts beating impossibly faster. Harder. Pulse in his throat, vibrating almost painfully up the left side into his jaw and head.
βLook, Sam,β you continue, and thereβs a low, beautiful blush dusting your cheeks, your hands are twisting again, βI care about you. A lot. And I know you care about me a lot too, butβ oh fuck it, I care about you in a different way, too.β
Christ. Are you saying what he thinks youβre saying?
βAnd itβs okay if you donβt feel that way.β Fuck. You are saying what he thinks youβre saying. βI donβt.... expectβbut I just want you to know that itβs okay. Everythingβs okay. Weβre okayβ at least on my end...β
Youβre rambling, now. Youβre so fucking cute.
βCan I kiss you?β, Sam cuts in.
A small, airy laugh escapes you. βGod, yes,β you breathe with a high end. It makes Sam chuckle fondly, his heart going painfully soft. βEven if itβs just to shut me up.β
Thereβs a stupid, wide grin on his face that he canβt stop from showing as his gaze drops from you for a moment, then rising back up to your face, βIt isnβt, but if it helps...β
You huff, leaning forward to grab the pillow he slept on and throw it at him in response. Sam catches it with ease, tucking it into his right arm as he pushes himself up and moves over to your shared bed. Just behind him, he drops the pillow at the end of the mattress as it dips while he settles into the new spot, bending his left leg on the bed and tucking his foot into him while his right leg hangs off the side. He feels the mattress shift as you re-adjust yourself, leaning forward to crawl over from the other side of bed and sit opposite him cross-legged.
Youβre facing each other now. And Sam might actually explode from the giddy, heating anticipation of it all. Heβs suddenly aware of all his limbs and muscles; his chest visibly rising and falling as his breath drags in and out of him, his arms and legs suddenly feeling like they donβt belong to him, low humming electricity tingling through his fingers.
Thereβs still a gap between your bodies, maybe one and a half of his hands. Itβs that line, again β of friendship that youβre both teetering on crossing and wonβt be able to untangle yourselves from, wonβt be able to go back to what once was if this goes badly.
Sam really hopes it doesnβt go badly.
Your eyes drop down, noticing that space. Your eyes lift back up to his as you inch closer to him, your right knee bumping his left leg, and Samβs mouth parts as he inhales then swallows.
Your body starts leaning forward, towards him, and Sam is already moving before he realises it. Your right hand falls lightly on Samβs left ankle, the touch so light yet grounding that it somehow steadies and unravels him all at once.
Both of Samβs hands twitch by his sides. He doesnβt want to lock you out of having control by holding your face with his hands, just in case you change your mind about wanting him. He wouldnβt blame you.
But he still needs to touch you. So he moves his right arm to touch your left knee, palm barely against your soft skin.
Youβre so close now. Sam can feel your breath tickle his face. Eyes are on lips, breaths slowing, syncing. His nose bumps your face, softly, and then you both slowly close your eyes.
When your lips touch Samβs, the world all suddenly makes sense.
Sam thought his mind would be racing, a scrambled blur, a mess of every thought and word and everything else if he did ever get the chance to kiss you. But itβs silent. At peace. For one of the very few times in his pained life. Something warm and dizzy is unfurling beneath his ribs. Maybe itβs his heart.
You make a small, soft sound. A hum. And Sam doesnβt mean to, but his control slips for just a second, and he pushes further into you, to have more of you, to taste more of you. Your fingers tighten around his ankle at the movement, and then you mirror him, push forward into him.
Sam makes a low, almost broken noise at the contact, and he canβt help but give in to the consuming hunger to move even more into you.
Neither of you pull back as the moment stretches. Even when it should end, fade into a soft, sweet pause. He should probably pull back, right? Tell you how long heβs been wanting, needing to kiss you; how fucking sorry he is for being such an idiot; how he also cares about you in a different wayβloves you. But he canβt tear himself away from your lips.
Instead, the kiss grows needier. More desperate. Pieces of Samβs hair fall forward to graze your face as both yours and his breathing gets heavier, louder. His lips are sliding so easily against yours, and he can feel the warmth of it, how wet and unsteady its turning as something darker, primal builds more and more between you both.
Samβs right hand flexes on your knee, starting to slide up and down a few inches, thumb grazing and pressing into your bare skin, fingers grabbing softly at your flesh. Goosebumps are rising under his touch, your skin growing with heat.
You begin rising slightly on your knees, steadying your weight with your left hand on his lower right thigh. Samβs left hand moves from his side to grab your jaw, thumb against your right cheekbone, fingers and palm splaying across the side of your head as he angles you gently to deepen the kiss. You hum again, content and a little breathless. Samβs already completely losing himself in you.
He feels your tongue swipe briefly at his lips β tentative and warm, wanting more of him β and he responds by softly biting at your bottom lip, making you gasp. And Christ if that sound doesnβt make his dick go instantly rock hard. The tension in his stomach and groin and balls tightening and dizzying.
Your grip on his thigh tenses, and he can feel the way you smile against his lips, βSo tell me, Sam, what exactly weβre we doing in this dream of yours?β you mumble low and teasing, still kissing eagerly at him.
God, the way you say his name like that is so fucking dangerous to what little restraint he has left that heβs holding on to for dear life.
Samβs mouth curves into a crooked grin at your question. Emboldened, he kisses you twice, heavy and unhurried, before starting to trail hot, dragging kisses across the right side of your jaw, βI mightβve been in between your thighs.β A light but sharp bite to your skin, making a deliciously heady moan fall from your mouth, then soothing the mark with the heat of his tongue and lips. βMakinβ you feel really good.β
βSo good it made you cum?β
He chuckles lightly against the space between your jaw and your ear, a hint of embarrassment tinging his ears, but a dark coil burning low in his stomach, extremely turned on at your unfiltered words. βThink that just means I get a hell of a kick out of givinβ you pleasure,β he cooes with a squeeze to your upper left thigh.Β
βWell, Sammy,β you begin, shifting your right arm up from his ankle to touch his chest, your palm flattening there as your fingers trace so slowly up towards his collarbone β his shirt still separating you both, but doing absolutely nothing to stop the hungry burning of your touch, βIβd like to show you what happens in my dreams first, if thatβs okay.β
His dick pulses at that, a wet patch of his underwear making itself proudly known. He pauses against you, warm wet lips still pressed to yours. Shit? Shit. As he pulls back just a little, left thumb rubbing tenderly across your cheek, right hand gently kneading at your plush thigh, you have this soft, seductive look on your face that almost makes Sam let out a very pathetic whimper.
βOfβof course.β You smile at each other, all dimples and teeth and nerves, before you lean forward to kiss him again, but this time with something Sam thinks might be the something heβs been pining for, but doesnβt want to name, doesnβt want to impose on you. Just in case.
βCan you move up the bed for me, please?β You motion with a small flick of your head back. He nods, rising as you shift closer to the wall to allow him to move to where you want him.
When he settles, you crawl up after him β an image fanning the fire sparking hotter and hotter somewhere deep inside him β and get him to lie down with his back against the mattress, still covered by the bedspread. You swing your right leg over him first so that you sit across his lower stomach, your right hand bracing against the plane of his chest to support yourself in the movement, both his hands coming to hold your hips. The heat from your skin with the weight of your body as you press against his own makes Samβs heart swell in a warm, heavy roll, a light-headedness drifting over him. You both breath in, staring silently with shy smiles at each other for a soft moment as Samβs fingers begin rubbing slow, gentle circles over your flesh.
Although he successfully fights the urge to flip you over and make you a whining mess below him, he knows without a doubt that you can definitely feel the prominent bulge straining in his pants by your ass.
Your warm hands move to cup his face as you lean down. Sam strains his neck to meet your lips, aching to have them on him again already, and the kiss pushes his head back into the pillow underneath him. A small, pleased sound leaves him, and then you grind your hips back and down lightly, testing, over his cock. He stutters a gruff moan, hands flexing before grabbing at a meatier part of you, making you giggle softly and stupidly beautifully against his mouth. βI like that sound, Sam.β
You move your mouth down to his neck, slow, measured touches of your lips and tongue to him, lingering just long enough to make his body buzz. Samβs so sure that if you werenβt on top of him, tethering him to this fading bed, the weightless earth, heβd probably float away.
Heat and intensity grows as you begin sucking, paying particular attention at a hollowed part of the curve, before licking a long stripe over and up his neck, grazing your teeth at his right earlobe. Youβre already making him feel too good, too powerful, the feeling of you sliding down his body, the changing pressure of your weight on his muscles, only adding to the euphoria.
Heβs already missing your lips against his, but he canβt help the way his hips jerk up at you every time you kiss at him through his clothing, electricity trailing. You kneel between his thighs, hands outstretched and claiming at his waist as you press a kiss to his bulge, making Sam moan your name, brows drawing together, hands tightening their grip of the sheets in desire. You hum in acknowledgment, saccharine and smug, and when Samβs eyes look down at you, your fingers quickly working at the button of his jeans, the metal teeth rasping as you pull down the zipper, he sees a telling damp mark of precum leaking through from his tip.
His heartrate is thundering. Almost choking. You rid him of his jeans, his proud, thick and slicked cock springing up as his boxers go down with them. Then you pause, still knelt between his legs. Samβs eyes flick to your face, worry quickly threading through his focus and brain working frantically over your movements to determine if youβre okay, if youβre second-guessing whatβs about to happen or if youβve changed your mind orβ
βFuck, Sam. Youβre...youβre even bigger than I thought youβd be.β
Sam knows heβs big. Heβs a big guy. Got long limbs and all. But hearing you say that sends a bolt of white, breath-taking heat straight to his balls, and a helpless groan leaves him. Cheeks reddening a little, Sam dips his chin briefly, bashful, before his gaze returns back to you, grinning so wide at him.
βHope I can take you.β
You shuffle, leaning weight on your forearms over his thighs and hips, and then, with the most seductively heart-swelling grin that Samβs ever seen, you lower your mouth, lips parting as you slowly, carefully, begin to take him in.
βHoly shit,β Sam breathes, head falling back onto the pillow as intoxicating, wet heat surrounds his tip, bone-deep pleasure sweeping over him, making the muscles in his legs tense.
Sam feels more than hears the breathy chuckle come from you, the softness of your lips rolling just over the sensitive ridge of his swollen cock head, tongue bumping his leaking slit, before you pull back up, lips grazing along the reddened skin of his tip.
At the next dip of your mouth, your tongue slides along the underside of his sensitive, red tip, pressing flat against and around him. Sam grunts at the sensation, hips stuttering up in lapsing control as you run the tip of your tongue along his ridge and let more of his hard length into your warm mouth.
You still, only for a few seconds, eyelids hung low, moaning with him still in your mouth, βMmhhmm, Sammy. Knew youβd taste so good.β
Heβs going to go crazy. Youβre going to make him go crazy.
You start bobbing your head, the motion guiding his tip to slip further and further down the back of your tongue. Sam raises his right hand from his side, resting it heavily on top of one of yours holding the upper side of his thigh, the warmth of his palm pressing into your knuckles. You hum as Samβs breathing quickens, turning ragged, nostrils flaring and mouth gaping. The sound of your heated and wet mouth sliding up and down his cock is fucking maddening, overwhelmingly erotic.
His brows are pulled up in sweet, shuddering ecstasy as he holds back whimpering, trapping the burning ache in his chest, but the pleasure youβre giving him is making it a herculean task. Sam is strong, though. He can hold it back. Right?
You hollow your cheeks, beginning to suck him, your spit and his pre-cum combining to make the movements deliciously lewd and sloppy, working him up and up.
βThatβhng, shit. You feel so good.β Heβs trying so fucking hard to not thrust deep into your mouth β heβs worried he might hurt you, might make you choke on him.
Lids hung low in desire, you look up at him, meeting his hungry gaze on you. Your left hand squeezes at his thigh before sliding out from underneath his right one atop of yours, only to lace and interlock your fingers with his as you continue building the starved bliss swimming in his body, the tenderness and intimacy of it in such a dirty, salacious moment incredibly heart stopping. And completely undoing.Β
Sam feels it. The tension coiling low in his stomach, his balls pulling tight. Quick. Too quick.
He squeezes your hand twice.
βSweetheartβ,β he rasps, head straining off the pillow, trying to keep it forward to watch you, indulge in you, but only failing as the intense rushing feeling and pleasure of your tongue and mouth on him becomes too much, ββy-you need toβ need to stopβ I wannaβ fuckβwanna make you feel good. Feel good with my cock.β
You moan filthily around him, the vibration almost tipping him right over the edge, as you pull your mouth off him with a dick-twitchingly erotic noise that sears its notes into his memory, looking up at his panting and tensed face over his heaving chest from under your lashes. He doesnβt miss the way a wet string of saliva is still connecting you to his throbbing cock, βItβs okay, Sammy. Iβm sure we can do something to get you ready again.β
Oh. He catches your tone.
And who is he to deny you from enjoying yourself?
Thereβs a ridiculously sexy smile on your face that makes Samβs hips uncontrollably flex up just a little as you lower your face back down to his cock, placing a deceptively sweet kiss to the swollen tip once, before letting go of his fingers and wrapping your left hand around his length. Your right hand moves to between his thick thighs, beginning to gently massage his aching balls while your mouth opens again to let your tongue run over his leaking slit and around the headβs ridge.
As your fingers close around his slicked cock, you squeeze it slow twice, then start a measured stroking movement, your grip tightening as you reach his head then loosening as you slide back down to his base. You repeat the motion, drool pooling down from your lips and mouth to make each run velvet smooth and mind-numbingly hot and pornographic, your right hand fondling his left ball, then moving to the right, igniting the pleasure.
But poor Sammy canβt stop the pathetic, needy whimper (that you definitely hear) rip from him this time at the renewed, devoted attention of your hands on his taut and ridiculously sensitive body.
Searing heat shoots up the back of his neck all the way to the crown of his head, creeping over his face, prickling his cheeks. His body goes rigid, worried youβre going to stop β because fuck, that was embarrassing.
But you donβt. No. In fact, you moan, deep and hard, the sound reverberating through his cock and washing over his body as you give him more, squeezing with your left hand what you canβt fit in your mouth while you take his length further down your tight, warm throat, his swollen tip bumping the back and making you gag as you mumble a low βmmm, good boy, Sammyβ.
Christ, thatβs way too hot.
He whines, even more wantonly, hips jerking up in a quick stutter at your touching, your praise. Sam didnβt know heβd like that, that he needed your praise β needed more of it like air β that he could possibly get any more fucking turned on than he already was.
You chuckle this time, he can feel it in the way your lips curve in a smirk when they glide back down his length, a hard suck following when you come back up.
Samβs breathing shallows, chest flaring, the muscles of his entire body tensing as he lets himself give in to you. Now, unapologetic and desperate. The taut coiling in his stomach is winding again, numbing heated pleasure creeping over his skin and flowing throughout him, his fingertips and toes curling and beginning to tingle.
Your right hand lifts from between his thighs, reaching up to the middle of his lower chest before your nails press into his skin to rake down and over his abs β sharp, angry red marks left glowing behind. The hand slides to his hip, moving almost underneath him as you grip his flesh to try and rock him into your mouth, moaning for him to give you more. He surrenders, his hands grabbing at the sheets beside him, his entire body desperate as he begins to feel his cock swell.
βFuckβIβm gonnaβ,β he pants, dry swallowing, voice wavering, βIβm gonna cum.β
You look up at him, nodding your head frantically, your mouth tightening around his tip and tongue swirling faster and sloppier while your left hand starts to pump and twist his cock, deepening the intense, white-hot burning inside him, βPlease, Sam. Please cum down my throat.β
Heβs gone. His stomach and abs seize as the first euphoric wave pulls him under. Sam cums hard, mouth slackening and brows scrunched, a swear with your name drowned by his shamelessly loud and broken moaning, his eyes rolling up and his upper back and head lifting off the bed as three long, hot white ropes spurt into your mouth. You continue working him, your hand slightly slowing, drawing out his pleasure for as long as possible as you swallow him down through each wave.
Your mouth switches between softer, more careful sucks and licks of his sensitive cock to ease and guide him down. Sam realises heβs covered in sweat as his back meets the bedding again, bliss and warmth flowing through him from head to fingers to toes.
Gently, you take him out of your mouth, big, lust-blown eyes meeting one anotherβs.
You giggle, sweet and seductive, wiping along your bottom lip and the sides of your mouth with your thumb before sliding it into your mouth, sucking and then licking it with your tongue to make sure you donβt miss a single drop of him, βGood, Sammy?β
God, I wish I could eat you.
He responds with a low and wrecked, feral moan as he grabs your arms and pulls you up into a filthy, claiming kiss, all saliva and heat and longing hunger for you, tasting the salt of himself on you. A sharp noise leaves you, surprise at the sudden contact, before you kiss him back with just as much unbridled need as him.
Samβs lips never leave you as he manoeuvres you, manhandling your body under him as he drops his weight, rolls his hips into yours. You moan, high and wanting, your fingers fumbling for purchase on his big shoulders, running up the nape of his neck and tangling in his soft curling hair.
His dick should be softening, maybe twitching in overstimulation, but Sam can already feel the blood pulsing into his swollen tip again, bare skin prodding insistently at a warm soft spot of your inner right thigh.
Oh he needs to hear you calling his name like that when heβs between your thighs.
He groans against your lips, the kiss urgent and demanding, βI know, sweetheart. Gonna take good care of you β such good care of you, yeah?β
Itβs not a question; he just wants you to know that he means it, but the way you nod urgently at him only spurs him on, makes his stomach and balls tighten and twist almost painfully in arousal.
Sam braces himself on his left forearm against the mattress, hand cupping the side of your neck, bare legs shifting to bracket your left one, while his right hand moves in between your bodies, snaking slowly down the expanse of your clothed stomach, past your navel, down to the button of your shorts. Your breath hitches, hips thrusting up at his heavy touch, and you push your mouth up into him. Unbuttoning it with devastating precision, Sam drags the zipper down like his sanity depends on it. If heβs being honest, though, it does a little.
The thought that he should go slower, take his time with you as his fingers and palm slip hastily over your mound crosses his determined, lust-driven mind. Next time. Next time.
Despite still being separated by your underwear, he groans possessively as the pads of his index and middle fingers finally touch you where he most desperately wants his face to be, fingers separating as they run down the outsides of your puffy folds before sliding back up through your slit to give you one, two measured circles of your clit, making your body flex up at him. Youβre perfect. How could you not be. βGod, youβre fucking soaked. Could probably taste you through your damn shorts.β
You smile, fingers tightening your greedy gripping of him, whining against his lips with a breathy βmmhhmmβ.
Sam places one last lingering, searing kiss to your swollen lips before he takes his right hand out from between your thighs, repositioning both his arms to either side of your body. Lifting himself up from his forearms to his hands, he lowers slightly and begins to ease himself down the bed, down your body. He dips his head, his lips leaving a heated, wet and branding kiss to each spot where your nipples are peaking through your bra and singlet. It makes your back arch, breasts bumping into his face as you moan softly.
Smirking, pride stirring, a breathy huff slips past his lips. He looks up at you from just below your breasts, keeping eye contact with you as he continues his slide down your torso, shifting his leg still between your own lower first. He can feel his heavy and hard cock sticking to his shirt-covered-stomach, already ready and desperate to go again. His right hand pulls up the hem of your singlet to expose the soft warm flesh of your lower navel, dragging it further up to your waist and ribs, scattered kisses dotting your skin. He bites at a spot to your right, teeth sharp but careful, rolling his tongue over it and tasting the faint glow of your shower gel and light sweat, then blowing cool air at the blooming mark, your breathing going quick and shallow, sucking in air.
Big, warm, calloused yet tender hands gripping at your hipbones, Sam pauses at the space between them, making sure that youβre looking at him. Your nostrils flare, βYouβre such a tease, Winchester.β
βWell,β he rasps, dark and dangerous, your name hanging in the air as, kneeling, he begins pulling down your shorts without breaking eye contact, βyou seem to be enjoying it.β You bite your bottom lip, blushing and grinning, eyelids hung low as you lift your hips and move your legs to help and watch him as he slides the shorts down your legs. Sam brushes a kiss to your bent right knee as he draws the fabric lower. You kick them off, a little impatiently (Sam notices), letting them fall somewhere out of sight to the floor.
And when Samβs gaze drops to between your now parted thighs and he sees your underwear, well, fuck. He knew you were wet β could feel it β but your underwear is literally soaked through with your arousal, outlining every curve and dip of your wet cunt.Β
An absolutely fucking rough, animalistic groan tears from him, the exhale rattling his bones.
Sam thinks he almost blacks out for a few seconds as a possessive hunger drags over him. He drops back down in a sharp, controlled motion to kneel lower between your plush thighs, beginning to peel off your drenched underwear. He canβt wait any longer. Heβs not patient enough.
A small shiver runs through your body as the air of the motel hits your core. He settles hurriedly, his thick cock throbbing against the firm mattress, precum dribbling from his slit and smearing the bedding beneath him.
Gonna have to burn these sheets afterwards.
βI gotta be honest with you,β he murmurs, a little wrecked, guiding your legs over each of his broad, muscled shoulders, βI made a fuckinβ mess when I did this last night.β
βJesus, Sam,β you moan low. He knows he looks like a wild, rabid animal with the way the blacks of his pupils are blown wide, mouth gaping and panting, drooling. He slides his grabby, greedy hot hands up the outside flesh of your thighs, over your hips, fingers gripping at your waist, palm cupping the soft curves. Muscled forearms deliberately push your thighs against the sides of his head, the pressure and warmth adding to the growing, fever haze heβs swimming in.
Just like heβd done last night, Sam starts slow, reverent; kissing the softest part of the inside of your left thigh, then shifting to the right one to place an equally as tender yet heated kiss. He looks up at you from between your thighs, admiring and drowning in how the colour of your irises is almost fully swallowed, the way your chest is rising and falling in weighted, staggered pulls. His shuddering warm breath brushes over your pussy, his nose nudging at your slicked clit and swollen folds. With a heavy inhale, he takes in the first heady scent of you, blooming across his senses as if he can taste you through the air alone.
You start squirming, hips slightly twisting and hips bucking. Oh you want him badly.
Samβs not a cruel man. Heβs enjoying this, how badly you want him to eat you out just as much as he does, how itβs making your body react so much in anticipation. But making you wait any longer after today is cruel. So he pushes forward, letting the tip of his tongue run from the top of your puffy slit all the way down to your soaked, clenching entrance.
βOh, fuckββ a sinful, heavenly gasp cuts you off, and fuck that sound needs to go straight into a museum, your right hand flying up from your side to grip the pillow under your head, left hand flexing hard by your hip, scrunching up the bedsheet.
Fucking. Christ. You somehow taste even fucking better than heβd fantasised as you flood his mouth and nostrils. Rich and warm and smooth and sweet, intoxicatingly and simply you. This β everything β is so much better than last night. So much better.
βFuck,β Sam groans, βfuck. You taste too fucking good.β
He means to go slow, make sure that he doesnβt hurt you by going too fast or do something that isnβt pleasurable, but Sam canβt help himself as he licks you again, this time really pushing his nose and flattening his thick tongue into your cunt, and his cock jumps between his stomach and the bedding below him. You both whimper. Maybe an attempt at trying to say the otherβs name, but lost entirely to the sensation of and pathetic need for each other.
Sam didnβt realise, but his eyes had closed, rolled so hard to the back of his head that if you werenβt just as consumed as he was β your head tipped back in soft radiating, tingling pleasure β you wouldβve only seen bits of white peaking from underneath his fluttering eyelids.
He moans heavy and deep and rough into your heat, then buries his face into you to show you just how starved he is for you.
Despite the almost violent urge to suffocate in you, Sam begins small, slow, measured kitten licks at your clit and wet puffy folds, doing everything in his willpower to keep his heavily hooded eyes open and locked on you.
Soft, high gasps shatter around him as his big hands dig into you, thumbs pressing into the front of your waist as his splayed fingers curl and grip at each of your ribsets. Heβs already getting drunk on it, on you, in him and all around him.
I hope you let me do this every night, Sam thinks.
He can feel the sheets beside his head shift as you claw at them, chasing to move and grab something. βYou can pull on my hair, honey. Itβs okay. Show me where you want me,β he says with your name, somewhere between a weak coo and a pleading beg, βShow me how you want me.β
Sam sucks your clit into his mouth and your left hand shoots to his head to bury in his hair. He moans in encouragement, the feeling of your fingers and nails running through the soft brown curls and against his scalp lighting up every single nerve in his entire body, leaving a pleasant, warm tremor to roll through him.
He tests something from his dream, licks the left side of your folds and rubs his nose in a circle over your clit. And fuck. Fuck. You look like you might cum then; mouth slackening and brows pulling into the most beautiful, holy scrunch as your hips buck off the bed. Sam grins, dark and hungrily, moving his left arm from his hold on your waist to drape over your hips and press you into the mattress to keep you, pin you in place so he can keep making you feel like that.
Maybe he does still have some of those psychic abilities...
The muscles of your stomach under his forearm shudder and tense as Samβs tongue starts moving up and down your cunt β spit, slick, and heat coating his chin and cheeks and nose, sliding down his throat as his mouth works to swallow every single bit you give him.
Youβre even more responsive to him than he couldβve possibly dreamed or hoped. Heβs in heaven. This is his heaven.
βSamβSammy, oh my god,β you cry, voice high and needy.
βYeah, sweetheart? Makinβ you feel good with my tongue? My mouth?β Unable to speak, you tug the locks of his hair in your left fist in response, making him grunt, brows cinching and hips rutting into the mattress below him. βGood girl,β he growls against your soaking sweet and heady heat, words vibrating up into your core, doubling his efforts, βKeep tellinβ meβ need to...need to know how good Iβm makinβ you feel. Please.β
You whimper, and heβs greeted by a fresh flush of wetness when he licks into you again. Your hand releases from its grip, nails scraping down and over his scalp, palm pressing to push him further into you. Devour more of you.
Desire is pulsing in his blood and ears, pulling deep in his stomach, coiling tighter and tighter.
You start writhing, trying to roll your hips, grind up into his face as Sam increases the speed and swirling of his tongue and lips; the wet, lewd squelching sound of him hungrily eating you out mixing with the desperate, feral noises coming from both of you and reverberating off the motel walls.
Sam pushes his tongue into your gushing hole, making you clench around him at the intrusion and giving a new, beautiful sound heβs cataloguing. Your breathingβs getting tighter, higher, thighs tensing, shaking around his head, the heel of your right foot digging into his clothed back as the pleasure from his movements builds and builds and builds.
Oh youβre about to fucking cum.
βYes, baby, yes,β he slurs, shaking his head side to side then up and down, dragging his curled tongue over and through your puffy folds, messy on your clit, βJust like that. I know, I knowβ doing so well for me, honey. Just wanna cum, donβt you?β
βUnngh, yeβyeah. Fuck, Sam!β He canβt help rolling his hips and cock into the mattress β itβs all feeling too fucking good. You feel too fucking good.
Your right hand is suddenly over his one across your hip, palming into the back of his hand, nails biting at the skin. Sam hopes you leave long, pretty red marks and scratches, dark purple bruises thatβll be a reminder of how completely undone you both are.
Heβs feverish. Hands hot and heavy, tight in awe and indulgence of your bare flesh against his touch. Loose, wet brown curls cling in damp strands to his forehead as he starts grunting, whimpering into your pussy, burying his face impossibly further into your slick warmth, sloppily mouthing and slurping and lapping at every part of you he can reach.
A seraphic mixture of his spit and your arousal is dripping down onto the bedding below you both, marking it in a sticky, filthy, widening wet patch of sin and lust, and too-long-harboured, needy, aching love.Β
Definitely burning the mattress.
Not from you. Not from him.
Metal scraping against metal.
Sam only just registers it over your high, desperate moaning and the way your soft, warm thighs are twitching, tensing, pressing firm against his ears as your back starts arching.
With a surge of fear, he stops his movements between your legs, rushing to lift himself up. You realise at the same time, a pained sound leaving you, heaving heavily as you sit just on the precipice of your orgasm, panic stiffening your body. Sam starts ripping at the sheets underneath and around you to pull them over your body, to shield you from the cock-block-of-a-brother named Dean Winchester.
βDean, stop!β Sam shouts, scrambling for the bedspread and rolling over the top of you to the side closest to the door so that your half-naked body now shivering with adrenaline is even more protected.
But Dean? He doesnβt hear his brother.
No, he swings open the door, one hand holding onto a plastic bag presumably filled with a hearty, greasy takeaway lunch, a six-pack of beer in the other.
Dean pauses as his eyes land on the scene before him β his brother; flushed and panting, hair wild, face smeared and glistening with something wet, in bed. With you. Both of you under rumpled sheets. Clothes scattered on the floor.
βOhβ hahβ oh fuck.β
βDean, just get out!β
The older brother stands in the doorway, motel door wide-open as he looks away from the scandalous and unexpected situation of you two in the bed in front of him, head shifting around in every direction and unable to stop anywhere, βSammy, you sly dog. When I said βmake it up to herβ, this,β he gestures vaguely with his right hand at you both, βwasnβt exactly what I had in mind.β
βDude!β Sam yells, while you loudly groan Deanβs name at the same time, annoyed and exasperated, but equally as mortified.
βAlright! Alright! Iβm leaving.β He chuckles, backing out the door with his eyes stuck to the motel floor as he pulls the door shut with him, food and alcohol still in his grips.
Sam turns his head back to you, ducked in front of his broad chest, legs slightly tangled with his own. You peep up at him, face red, brows and nose crinkled in embarrassment.
Both of you burst out in laughter, Sam dipping his jaw with a shake of his head, then rolling to the side and falling back onto the mattress with a groan from the bed springs, eyes facing up at the whirling ceiling fan.
He huffs, nostrils expanding with a sheepish, dimpled smile creeping across his face as his gaze shifts back onto you lying beside him.
OOPS. sorry for leaving yall in the lurch. again. BUT NOT NEXT TIME. YOU WILL BE REWARDED FOR YOUR PATIENCE. I PROMISE.
and a GIGANTIC thank you to my lovely @theedaythatnevercomes for proof-reading this first - would be lost without you β£οΈ AND @sorryitsmyfirstdayonearth for their formatting support π
(i'm not going to lie, I was really nervous about posting this. like almost hyped myself out of it. i hope it somewhat satisfied. please let me know :) )
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