Ohii(: I'm Samm.

Beautiful pieces blown by Bank Glass

We're supposed to grow together but I feel I'm the only one the does that. I have to push you to do things around the house or in your life. You don't seem motivated (for anything). You say it's your depression, but it's been like this for a while. It was my fault for thinking I could help you and it would make you want to work on yourself. It was my fault for thinking I'd be good enough for you to want to change or to even want to marry me.

I hate being so angry. I hate yelling at you. I hate this feeling I have towards you when you leave your garbage lying around.

Sure things get "better" after we fight or if we talk about it but then it's right back at it again.

What's worse is the feelings I'm starting to have. I used to look at you and want to marry you and have a family with you. Now when I look at you, I don't feel that way any more.

I feel that we stuck in limbo.

You're too comfortable to want to progress with me.

You even told me yourself:

You don't know how you'd be able to propose.

Or that when you see your future, you can't see anything.

I know, you told me that was your depression talking.

I still love you but it's different.

If you could have shown me you wanted to try..

If you could consistently show me you want to make this work and kept up with your clutter...

If you would have walked with me instead of walking a head of me all the time, or held my hand...

If you gave me the affirmation I need...