illfeedyoutothefreaks

I know that I promised you over a thousand times that you’ll never hear from me again but sometimes people drink when they know that they’re not supposed too and sometimes people lie and say that they are okay when in reality they know that they are breaking inside and what I’m trying to say is that you hurt me, maybe by far the most hurt I have ever felt when it came down to loving someone and I know that you don’t care because your hands are on her now but while you’re kissing her and whispering in her ear about how she’ll be the only one for you like you did with me, i hope for a tiny fraction in that moment your heart aches and your hands shake as my laugh rings through your ears and i hope you feel guilty, for leaving, for loving someone else for promising me a future that you knew all along would never happen and i know that i promised you over a thousand times that you’ll never hear from me again but sometimes people leave even when they promised that they won’t and sometimes people kiss others behind their lovers back even when they know that it’s wrong and i hope to everything you wake up one morning and realize that hurting me was your biggest regret yet.

I have always loved too much, or not enough.

Stay close to people who feel like sunlight.