Dear Desiceast, You did it. You succeed on killing yourself on your second attempt. How does it feel? Your pregnant daughter in law finds you. She screams to wake your son to come help you. He cuts you down and trys to save you, but your he dead. He feels like he failed to save your life. How does it feel knowing your body was taped, put in a black body bag. Your body in plastic, your blue face revield to your wife, and that was how she would see you. She blaming herself. Alone. With all the unthinkable you have done she loved you. You were her bestfriend. She went threw the judgement of sticking by your side even after you repeatedly did the unthinkable. Is this better? Knowing all you have done. Refecting on the decisions, the people you hurt, the collateral damage inflicted on innocent people loyal to you. Now you dont have to explain, or do the time. You dont have to face the judgement. Or do you? Is spending eternity reflecting on this all really better? Is it really an out?..... was it worth it? ~Inosant collateral
