WELCOME TO THE ABYSS

This banality OMG!

it’s just me and my stupid little fantasies against the world

“feeling like you’re perpetually unwanted as a child/adolescent” to “compensating by being obsessed w yourself as an adult” pipeline

In my next life, I’ll be a 6 foot four man. I’ll have brown hair and light brown eyes. I might need glasses but it won’t matter because I’ll still look good with or without them. I’ll wear boots or sneakers, I’m already tall enough so I don’t need a heel. I’ll look good in a t shirt or a flannel or a suit or even a dress, because I’ll be confident enough to wear a dress. I’ll talk loudly but never over anyone, even though that wouldn’t matter anymore. I won’t keep my opinions to myself but I will never be rude. I’ll to play the guitar, someone once told me every man should know how to play the guitar. I’ll date girls and maybe guys and no one will bat an eye. I’ll drink and I’ll smoke and I’ll stay out late and I won’t be afraid. I will finally have no reason to be afraid. I’ll exist in the foreground and I’ll make myself known. I will finally be the person I’ve always wanted to be.

I just wanna get out of my head and find peace

Honestly the big apple is rotten to the core & we need some worms to finish the job