i really want to do like some cool old archive noise at the beginning of my song i wonder how to do that

i wrote a song.... eepp im just setting it to basic chords

i literally dont understand women i dont understand how they interact and talk with each other i feel like if i were to act that way i would just be putting on an act and i dont understand how they dont feel uncomfortable acting that way it doesnt make sense. its like they act as if their souls have no weight not exactly like that but something similar. and i guess i just carry around so much shame and pain constantly. i guess i could pretend to be that way and maybe even enjoy the performance but i would feel painfully inauthentic.

lately i am having disturbing dreams about sex but i have almost zero desire for it irl

i genuinely think being into tall guys is like the biggest psyop of the century..... like being Tall is not the most important metric for me its probably like #30 if i was stupid enough to make a list like that

im better i was just pmsing :p

i cant eat food

i need to get double jaw surgery

looking up masks for ugly girls on etsy

i am not going to let them take photos of me at my wedding if i ever somehow got married

about to become the person who never lets anyone take a photo with their face in the shot ever again

i cant move or do anything i can only lay quietly in bed and think about how worthless i am

i was so excited i kept asking my bf to take photos of me because i thought i could post cute photos of myself on my new instagram for school but it turns out i am just like horrifying looking in the face and there isnt much to be done about it. and i had been asking for him to please take cute photos of me but i will genuinely never ask again . i realize now if people dont take cute photos of you naturally they just dont want to take photos of you because you are ugly and they dont want to hurt your feelings.