In Lunacy, the Savage Dream

and it's VERY MUCH something I should NOT go back to, that fandom traumatized me and taught me TERMS.

AND THEY WERE BLOCK CHARACTERS. LIKE ROBLOX. BUT MICROSOFT 3D OR WHATEVER THE GUY MADE THE MODELS IN MICROSOFT 3D AND THAT WAS THE WHOLE GIMMICK THAT THE CHARACTERS WERE CAPABLE OF BEING 3D

FRICK FNF BUT EVERYONE SINGS THE SONG COVERS GIVING ME WHIPLASH EVERY TIME I SEE THEM AND THEN THEY ARE DRAWN GENUINELY WELL IT MAKES ME MISS THINGS I SHOULDN'T

i buried the part of me that was toxic af at that time I'M NOT GOING BACK

THEIR VOICES SOUND HORRIBLE PLEASE I'M SUPPOSED TO HATE IT NOW RAAHHHH

Lets drink together like old men at a bar

In all seriousness though, I feel sorry for you for that and I pride you for being able to move on and improve as a person, but don't bash yourself for how you were at the time or how you feel about it now.

If I were to assume, it's likely not that you're missing it for what it left you with, but rather the happiness you had at the time and the sense of familiarity with it, even if everything was utterly horrible in hindsight.

It's not your fault for feeling this way, as it is very common for those to long for the times of pain in one's past. I often feel the same way about my GC era in 2024, even if it was horrible for not just me but mostly everyone involved with it at the time.

Designs for a project of mine.

Characters here are Vireo (placeholder) and Sylvester. They're the same person.

sketches// simplified vers and face concept

I think it's just because I felt happy in a way I had never felt before. I was apart of a community, even if it was very unstable and absurd, and I had a big friend group of people I looked up to at the time, and I still do look up to em, frankly.

And I think the whole obsessing over dumb, silly little characters with other equally as invested and obsessed people shtick is what really made me happy, too.

Even I left the fandom and those characters, their characterizations weren't really their own to begin with, but rather my own characterizations and how I saw them, since they were basically just blank slates, so I feel myself free to make something new outta them.

Wanted to go with a worn, dirty, sort of industrial of some kind look, and I think I did fine with that.

+ doodles // minor vomit warn below: