we study rainbows

"Excuse me for not feeling bad about laughing at a dead abus-" i think you should feel bad about laughing at someone's violent painful death. I think you should feel bad about that. I think thats absolutely monstrous behavior that you should be ashamed of.

as much as i'm hurting with them, i'm hurting for them so much more. if i'm this hurt, i can't even imagine what they all must be feeling

i have no idea how to process this. it’s not unfathomable and it’s something i’ve thought about many times but i don’t actually know how to process it. what do you mean he was such an integral part of me growing up and he did some fucked up things in part bc of the fucked up environment he grew up in and now he’s DEAD and can’t do anything to try and make amends. what do u mean the boys now means harry louis liam niall zayn. what do you mean he left behind a child less than 10 years old. what the fuck do you mean

i think part of it is just that i didn’t know him. he was in my phone and in my laptop singing in my ears for a decade but i didn’t know him. i never met him. i never spoke to him. how the hell am i supposed to grieve for someone so intangible when he will continue to be in my phone and in my laptop and continue to sing in my ears.

heart is in complete shambles after looking at geoff payne looking at the memorial and thanking fans and paul higgins being there like no parent should ever have to bury their child this is truly heartbreaking. and paul being there is just so. god they really were all so close and formed genuine relationships with everyone during 1d and that clip in this is us where paul says he's like the boys' dad on tour and now he's about to go bring liam back to the uk. i just. this is truly the most heartbreaking thing ever

actually I want to write an essay about how all the one direction members have been essentially forced by public expectation to verbalize their grief on social media only a day after liam’s death & then some of them (namely harry! lol) being scrutinized for their posts seeming ’calculated’ / ’written by PR’ / not ’genuine enough’. like. so what if they are? Imagine your childhood best friend dies and millions of people are waiting for you to say something that helps them deal with their parasocial grief. and then that very fame & loss of privacy being the thing that you all went through together as essentially children & the repercussions of that likely being a contributing factor to your friend’s death. the cycle. anyway. none of them owe us shit

Put your music on shuffle, then reblog and put in the tags the first song that comes on! Let’s share music together.

Louis is the kind of person who will sit down on your couch and tell you he’s really not a cat person while your anti-social-hates-all-strangers-never-wants-your-cuddles cat prances in and hops directly onto Louis’ lap purring.

his swollen meat thermometer was ready 2 take ur temperature

His heavy, enlarged, calligraphy pen was ready to write inside of you.

his gigantic hefty celery stick was ready to be dipped inside your peanut butter

His hard, lengthy, overbearing baton was ready to beat your pussy into submission

Penis

his fat. wiggling red worm was ready to root thru ur dirt

you’re gonna be the fucken death of me I hope you know that

his slithery, honkin balloon animal was ready for your pants carnival

his girthy, red-hot sausage was ready to be plunged into your mustard

Congratulations Tumblr user @furbearingbrick for making the single most cursed addition this post has ever seen

i’d like to thank the academy

in my mind, it seems obvious with this last show that harry is going to be gone for a while. as sad as that is, i hope nothing but love and peace for him during this time of rest. this time to simply catch his breath. to really soak in all he’s accomplished in his solo career. to be able to take time for himself outside of the time he’s given everyone for years. and as much as i know harry loves this job and loves performing, he’s hit the pavement hard for so long. he’s given so much of himself to us, to the world. and i just hope he’s able to rest in however he interprets rest. even if he works bts within this period. just wish him and his heart nothing but peace in this absence. he’ll be missed but he will also be just as loved on his return 🫶🏼